When we got back into our makeup room , i saw Hodong in our room .

He apologized for asking a personal question like that .

I knew he was just doing his job .

We went back into our dorm and without realizing , the whole taping process took almost all day .

I feel a sorethroat coming up .

Everyone went into their rooms and i guess they slept .

I tried to but i cant.

I cant sleep .

I got up and went out , it was dark .

I made my way to the kitchen and saw a whole lot of bananas .

Yeah , theyre but i dont know why , i kept eating them and unknowingly , i was crying while doing so .

" Yah ! Who's eating my bananas ?! "

I heard someone shout , Chansung .

" Sorry , i'll buy you new ones tomorrow . Sorry , i'll go to my room . "

I sniffled trying my best to not cry .

He stood at the doorway , not making any little space to let me walk .

He pulled my face up to his and he saw my tears .

I dont know why but i just hugged him .

I was expecting him to pull away and scream but he didnt , and im glad .

He hugged me back and wiped my tears .

He pulled another seat beside the one i sat on just now .

He ordered me to sit and pelled open a banana , giving it to me .

" So you eat bananas and cry when you're sad , huh ? "

He asked curiously .

I shook my head .

Why am i like this ?

Really its puzzling me too .

I looked at him , i felt like i could tell him my world .

My whole world to him and my mouth just speak its mind .

" My parents were killed . My brother's missing . Im here and no one likes me . I dont know the reaosn for me to live anymore , im a failure in life . "

By now , i really dont care if i looked like a fool .

My heart was just in too much pain ,

My heart has been crying for years and only now i found that courage to share its sorrow .

I dont even want to eat bananas anymore .

He pushed my head into his chest .

" Cry . "

He ordered me and i did , 

I cried like i never did before .

I cried till no more tears want come out .

" Your life isnt bad at all . Yknw , i know this one guy . His life was far more miserable than yours at one point of time . He told a girl he liked her and that girl rejected him in front of the whole school . He was in so much pain , he almost killed himself . Compared to him , youve got me right here and you can come and cry to me whenever you want to . Whenever you want to . Whenever your heart is in pain again , come to me and we'll eat bananas and cry together , okay ? "

He said smiling .

I never felt any better in my life .

For once , i felt like someone cared .

I thanked him and i fell asleep in his arms .