EVERY TIME I SEE YOU^(et)

A YOON JEONGHAN x HONG JISOO SHORT STORY

Inspired by this song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7lH4n-nXL1c


I do believe in fate because he never fails to make me believe in it. Who wouldn’t believe in fate if the very first time you meet a person, a complete stranger, you already fell for them just by looking into their eyes? That’s what I felt when I met Joshua. Ever since I met him, my heart wouldn’t stop pounding because of his smiles, because of his eyes, because of his laughs, because of his everything. Every time I see him and feel him near me, the world becomes a lot better. Colorful. Maybe if I’m with him and the world is about to end, I wouldn’t protect myself or any of my belongings, I’d protect him instead so the world would still be able to see his smiles, so the world would still be colorful.


“Jeonghan-ie! Annyeong!” There he goes again, smiling like an idiot while greeting me. Making everything better for me every morning.

“Annyeong…” His eyes… his smile… how can I just not stare at him and talk to him properly?
“Want to have lunch together today?” He asked.

Why are you asking me again? You probably know that I’d say yes, huh? You would see me panic again… You would see my weirdness… You might not like it, but how can I reject an offer from you? Though I always do…

“Ah. I’ll probably have lunch with Seungcheol today. I promised him already.” I lied.

Seungcheol recently told me he likes Woozi and he was so happy yesterday when he told me they’re having lunch together today. So I’ll probably hide somewhere later and eat alone. Why self? Why can’t I just have lunch with him? It’s just lunch…

“Oh… I see. Then, I’ll see you around.” He waved and walked away.

Stupid Jeonghan, you just chased him away. Why? Is it because I can’t stay calm around him? Is it because I know he wouldn’t like me back? Or is this just me being a paranoid and thinking of negative stuff again?

Sighs. I like him so much that I want to end it but at the same time I want it to work even though I know I don’t stand a chance.



When lunch time came, Seungcheol came to talk to me. I was so glad he did because that way Joshua won’t think I was lying to him. I saw him looked at us before leaving the room.

“Jeonghan-ah! Should I confess to Woozi today?” He asked me so happily.

I laughed a bit and said, “Yes, if that’s what your heart is telling you to do. Besides, it’s better to know sooner right? I’m pretty sure he’ll reject you though…” I and laughed. He grabbed my collar jokingly and said, “Ya, I’m not just anybody. But… I hope he’ll like me too.” He sighed.

“Don’t be negative, I’m sure he will.” I said.

“Thank you for always encouraging me Jeong-ah!” He patted my back and ran.

I, on the other hand, hurriedly ran somewhere at the back of the school where nobody would go during lunch.
Sighs.
Why am I such a coward?

Every time I see him all the words just disappear like bubbles. Every time I hear him, my heart would just stop and skip a beat. I think about him almost always! We’ve been friends for long and that’s really just enough for me but… I’m so afraid of the “what if”. What if he likes me too? What if he doesn’t feel the same and I’m just making a fool of myself? What if… What if…

I was just sitting under a tree when somebody grabbed my arm and pulled me up.



Joshua.
Joshua Hong.
The guy I like.

“I thought you were gonna have lunch with Seungcheol?” He asked.

“Ah… ah… well… I decided not to have lunch because I wasn’t really hungry after all.” I faked a laugh.

“So… right now… why are you lying to me?” He asked.

“I… I’m not really hungry.” I replied while looking down.

He was still holding my arm. Why is here?

“I saw him with Woozi. They were together.” He said.

I just nodded.

“I asked him where you were, he said he didn’t know.” He said. I quickly took a glance at him and looked somewhere else before looking down again. What does he want me to say?

“I just want you to say the reason why you’re avoiding me.” He said and smiled a smile that looked a bit sad.

He was able to hear it. Did I say it out loud? Was he able to read my mind?

‘Because I like you, and I always panic when you’re around me.’ I want to say that.

‘Because I like you and I can’t let you know that.’ I want to say that too.

‘Because I like you.’



Instead I just stayed silent. He looked down and he grabbed my other arm and his grip on both of my arms became tighter to the point it was hurting me but he calmed down soon after.

“Why can’t you just tell me?” He said.

Should I say it?




“Because. I panic when you’re around.” I said. Out loud. I can’t believe I just did that.

“Why?”

“Because you make me nervous…?”

“I’m not really an intimidating person…”

“Because… my heart, it keeps on jumping, like right now, it’s not good.”

“Why is it jumping then?”

“Every time I see you, I can’t breathe! Don’t you understand?! Why are you keep on asking me stuff you probably already know the answer! Every time I see you, just by looking at you, just by hearing you, just you, the idea of you, it makes me….” I started raising my voice and I don’t know why. I looked down, I feel like my tears might fall down soon.

I feel mad. I don’t know if I feel mad because I’m such a coward or because I know he wouldn’t feel the same or maybe because he haven’t even thought about me like that. I’m so mad.

Talk about fate.

Fate does nothing but make your heart pound and get it all excited of things that won’t happen. Fate is just a piece, a small part of our imagination, that makes us hope for the best that won’t really happen. The idea of fate just hurts people.


“Every time you see me, you can’t breathe?” He asked. I bit my lip trying to stop the tears that are wanting to escape ever since he came.

Full of questions.

Yes, yes, yes. Yes I can’t breathe but I’m happy. Yes I’m mad because I like you a lot. No, I love you.

“We are such opposites aren’t we?” He said.



Silence.




“But Jeonghan-ie, for me, every time I see you, just by looking into your eyes, my heart won’t stop pounding. I always want to protect you but I can’t get closer because you won’t let me. When you look back at me and smile, the whole world won’t stop. Instead, it would revolve faster for me, maybe because I panic a lot too when you’re around and there’s a feeling in my chest, but I won’t say it’s not good because it probably is the best feeling I’ve ever felt since forever. Every time you try to avoid me, I would notice it just like earlier. I would think, ‘What should I do? Did I do something wrong? He’s really hard to deal with.’ But I would still try my best to talk to you. I always, always think of you and I would always do my best just so you could notice me even just a little bit. Just a greeting like ‘hello’ or ‘good morning’ from you makes me feel complete for the whole day already. Your eyes, your smiles, your face, your laughs. Especially your laughs. Just the whole idea of you makes it enough for me to be the happiest man alive. Every time I see you, I start to believe in fate. Every time I see you, I’m happy. I’m contented. So please know, I love you so much. I’ll be yours if you would ask me to be because I would always just belong to you. Ever since we became friends or maybe even before that, I already had feelings for you. If you would say you don’t feel the same, I beg you to please don’t treat me as a stranger and let’s just forget this. Just don’t leave me. I don’t know what would happen to us after this but at least, still greet me when you can. Please believe everything I just said.” He said before covering his face.


I didn’t know anything. I just believed the negative thoughts in my head.

Ever since then, he was always the one to greet me first, always the one to check up on me, always the one to take care of me and yet I thought it was impossible for us.

I started to cry and hugged him tightly, so tight that I thought I could even break.

The man I’ve loved for a very long time just confessed to me.

I don’t know what would happen next to us in the future but I decided to just believe everything he just said and believe in what we both feel for each other. I know the future is full of rough roads and probably monsters are lurking in the future but I would be glad to walk that path with him, as long as he feel the same. And if he ever falls out of love, I would do everything for him to notice me again, just like how he has been doing everything for me to notice him. As for now, I’m the happiest alive and I’m fine. I don’t care anymore, I love him, and he loves me.

He started to hug me back tightly. I cupped his face with both of my hands and gave him a quick kiss. Just a first to our many more to come.

“I absolutely thought you like Seungcheol though…” He said before hugging me again.

“We all have our thoughts.” I replied and hugged him back.

I even thought this would never happen.

Now, every time I see him, I won’t just wish for him to look at me and smile, I would always think he’s mine, and I would always feel thankful for the love fate gave me.

author's notes: Hi ! So.. how was it? It's my first time again in a while, to write a fic and it's a one shot! Yay! I do hope you listened to the song since it's the one that made me write this fic and coughsievenquotedsomelinesfromitcoughs I love SEVENTEEN SO MUCH so I might do some more... JiHan is my #1 OTP right now so I'm thinking of maybe doing some more and hope it would be longer ones not one shots but since I love one shots so much, I might do some more. I'm open for comments! If you liked it, you can comment your otp and i might consider doing something about them. Suggestions are really highly appreciated! I hope you liked it, enjoyed it or had fun reading it! Thank you !