After him, before him and now.
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5 months have passed since I left him.
I bumped into him at the supermarket sometime in the Spring. He said he was buying pads for you, he blushed a little.
I told him to remember to always buy a sweet as a surprise. His eyes brightened at the tip I gave him.
It had been a long time since I last saw that kind of look, a long time.
He told me it was nice seeing me again and that we should hang out, maybe I could meet you too.
I just laughed and told him it was great seeing him too.
He was about to ask me something, but then his phone rang.
It was you.
He looked at me. He asked if I could just give him a second.
But I told him I was actually in a bit of a rush to get to other places.
It was 1 AM.
He gave me a look and said that it was too bad. And then that he hopes he can see me again one of these days.
I just gave him a little smile and waved goodbye.
I thought I learned to cope.
Foreword
I'm not sure why I still write about him. Not everyday anymore though. Just once in a while.
The plan was that if and when you and him had gotten married I would figure out a way to get these writings to you.
I mean I wrote to you.
I wrote them thinking I was talking to you because I thought you were the most appropriate person to know about all these different things.
Who knows, maybe they'll help you and Namjoon be better to each other.
I spent 1 year and a half with him.
This is all I can give back.
I learned to cope through this.
Don't show this to him though, I want him to live on without lingering like he did with you.
A girl's timeless journey through learning about her first loves inner demons and how they both dealt with them.
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