“What do you think you are doing? Why did you come here? Didn’t you know how crazy these people are? And you even went with Heechul and Kyuhyun!”

            Yixing tried pulling his hand away from Sehun’s grip as they walked away from the restaurant. But his grip was too tight. So Yixing just tried to match Sehun’s fast pace so that he won’t be dragged.

            “I already told you to stay away from me, right? But you didn’t listen and even went here!”

            “Who told you that I came here for you?”

            Sehun stopped walking and turned to him with furrowed eyebrows. “What?”

            Hah! Thanks Kyuhyun and Heechul! Yixing stood straight.

            “Chanyeol and Jongdae brought me here to help me relax. Because they learned that I cannot write so they brought me here.” Yixing deliberately followed his gaze to the club member who just passed by on a horse. “Oh! There are so many handsome men here that can be my inspiration for my next novel! I wished I asked Chanyeol to bring me here sooner. There are so many handsome men here; I think I will finish my novels faster. And I will be a millionaire since then.” Another club member passed beside them. “Oh! Hi! Nice, uh… horse.”

            “That’s Yesung, he’s married.” Sehun pointed at the club members one by one. “That’s Kai, he’s married. Donghae, married. Junmyeon, married. Kris, married. Sungmin, engaged. Key, engaged. Zitao, Minho, Minseok, Henry, all are taken. There’s no one left. So you can go back to Seoul.”

            “They are all taken?” Yixing faced Sehun. “How about you?”

            “I’m off the list.”

            “Meaning?”

            “I cannot be your inspiration.”

            “Meaning?”

            “Yixing—”

            “Yixing? What happened to ‘ugly’?” Sehun doesn’t answer. Yixing has a feeling that he did the right choice on following him at this place. “Okay, I still need to find a single and handsome inspiration.”

            Sehun held his arm to stop him. Yixing just looked at his hand and his handsome face. He felt his heart beating faster. Funny how he could actually identify the different beatings of his heart. Or that there was actually such thing. Before, he just knew that his heart is beating because he needs to live. Now, he realized that his heart is beating because he is loving someone too.

            “You shouldn’t have gone here, Yixing.”

            That again. Yixing stared at Sehun’s eyes. He wants to clearly relay his message to him. “You can’t make me go away, Sehun. I’ll stay no matter what you say. You cannot scare me off to stay away from you.”

            “I’m not scaring you off. I just don’t want you to be hurt when you leave this place. The men here could easily hurt you.”

            “Well, thank you for your concern. But I think I’m not stupid to let those men hurt me. Anyway, if ever they succeed on hurting me, there’s nothing new. I am already hurting even before I came here.” Yixing pulled his arm away from Sehun’s grip. “So now, I will enjoy myself during my stay here. Don’t worry about me. I will never hurt again. Hmm? Okay, bye.”  Yixing smiled when he spotted a club member walking towards them. “Oh, my. What’s his name, Sehun? Is he single?”

            Yixing thought that Sehun will not answer him because he’s not saying anything. But when he answered his question, something has changed in his voice.

            “I think you are just hungry, Yixing. Let’s go grab something to eat.”

            “Ah, I’m good.” He continued watching the man approaching them while he was trying to hide his feelings at the same time. “I don’t need to eat.”

            Yixing planned on walking towards the approaching man so he can escape from Sehun. Because his heart wants to give up on this because Sehun haven’t said anything about his rants on hurting him unintentionally. But Yixing wasn’t running away. He will just summon up his courage when Sehun pulled him away.

            “Sehun what are you—”

            “You won’t get full with what you are doing. We’re going to eat a decent meal. And he’s not handsome. He’s just pretending.”

            Yixing suddenly had the courage, he’s heartbroken anyway. There’s nothing to lose. “Just admit that you are jealous.”

            “I’m not jealous.”

            “Why are you not letting me near him, then?”

            “I already said why. We’re going to have lunch.”

            Yixing just sighed. He really never learns. His heart is still continuing loving Sehun. Oh well, that’s life. Loving someone is really like this. May it be fiction or reality, what’s happening when you’re in love is just the same. When a person truly loves someone, he would give the person that he loves all of his heart even when it mean that in the end, there would only just heartache for him.

            Whatever. If ever I will be hurt in the end, I will make sure that I will really enjoy this experience with Sehun.

            Yixing tried to match his pace. Then he leaned his head on Sehun’s arm.

            “I want a delicious steak.” Yixing said.

            “Why are you leaning on me?”

            “Why are you holding my hand?” Sehun let go of his hand. Yixing hugged his arm and stayed by his side. “Huh, you think you can get away from me.”

            “What?”

            “Nothing.”

            Yixing moved his body closer to Sehun and he felt that the other man is laughing. That’s enough to build up his courage.

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            The cold breeze is lightly touching Yixing’s face. He and Sehun are quietly walking towards the restaurant where his delicious stake is. They are walking for a few minutes already but he doesn’t care even if it will take hours to go to the restaurant as long as they are together. He could go on walking forever if Sehun would just stay by his side.

            “Exo Riding Club is so beautiful.” Yixing said. “It’s so relaxing in here. Are you staying here if you can’t write something?”

            “No.” Sehun answered. “I come here for total relaxation. I leave all my work in Seoul.”

            “You have a point. If I have this getaway place, I will do nothing but to enjoy. But how did you become a member of this exclusive club? Our salary is not that high.”

            “What do you think?”

            “You are a member of a mafia?”

            “The pay is not that high for a mafia member.”

            “You have a sugar daddy?” Yixing gasped.

            “Who will have interest in me?”

            “There are plenty of people who will be interested in you! It may be old, young, women, men, everyone! Even me.”

            “I see.”

            “It’s true though.” Well, will you look at that? We are on good terms again. Cheers! “So were you able to become a member here if our salary as a writer is not enough to pay for membership fee?”

            “I have other businesses. Writing is just my hobby.”

            “Really?”

            “I had always wanted to write ever since I was young. I just don’t take it seriously because I don’t have the patience to sit on one place for a long time just to write. I just write if I’m in the mood.”

            “It seems like you’re already satisfied in being a writer.”

            “Of course. I like to write once in a while. My stress coming from the businesses that I have is relieved when I write.”

            “What business do you have?”

            “Haengseong Publishings for instance.”

            “Haengseong?” Yixing stepped back to look at Sehun to see if he’s joking. Oh, so handsome. “You own Haengseong?”

            “Yes.”

            “Then…”

            “Mr. Yoon is the general manager.”

            “No way.” But when Yixing thought of the times when their supposed boss seems to be always gratifying Sehun, he wants to believe what Sehun is saying. “You’re really the owner of Haengseong?”

            “You’re really persistent aren’t you?”

            Yixing playfully slapped Sehun’s arm. “That’s why Mr. Yoon always looks like he wants to give you flowers every time I see you two talking. Because you are his boss. Why didn’t you tell me sooner? I thought we are close.”

            “You never asked.”

            “You have a point.” Yixing hugged Sehun’s arm again. Now he knows how a simple writer like Sehun became a member of this exclusive riding club. “That’s really nice. You didn’t really abandoned writing. If you did, we weren’t able to meet, right?”

            Sehun didn’t answer. Yixing quickly thinks of another topic. He can’t help but get nervous whenever there’s dead air between them. He’s afraid that Sehun might stay away from him again because he didn’t like him.

            Wait. I still need more time to be with him. Please give me three more hours.

            “How big is this place, really?”

            “Yixing.”

            No! Yixing internally screamed. Not that tone again! I’m not ready to leave, Sehun! Give me more time…

            “Why did you really come here?” Sehun seriously asked. But he wasn’t asking him to go away, so that’s good. “Did Chanyeol and Jongdae really brought you here or you asked them to bring you here?”

            Damn it! Yixing sighed. It’s seems like it’s time’s up for me. I want to cry…

            “I was the one who asked Chanyeol to bring me here. I also asked for Heechul and Kyuhyun’s help to see you and to be with you.” Yixing let go of Sehun’s arm. He also prepared his heart to let go of him. “But I’m not going to apologize because I want to see you. To talk to you.”

            He looked up at Sehun. Yixing’s emotions is overwhelming. But he doesn’t let it overpower him. When he decided to look for Sehun, he prepared himself for everything that might happen, even the possible heartbreak that he may experience.

            “I asked you once, Sehun. But you didn’t answer me. You just asked me to stay away from you and you just disappeared. Is it because you weren’t expecting my feelings for you? Sehun, it’s not my fault. I’m happy to be with myself in my own world. You see, you’re not talking to me so there’s no reason for me to talk to you. But you were the one who came close, who talked to me first. You showed me your other side besides the one that I’m seeing from afar. I was able to get to know you more.” Yixing tightly wrapped his arms around himself when he felt the cold breeze. “You made me feel special. Every time you looked at me, it was like you’re looking at the most important person in your life. With everything you did, you must have known that I might fall in love with you. That’s why when I confessed my feelings, you became scared and stayed away from me. I’m sorry if I’m disturbing you. But it’s also your fault, isn’t it? You made me fall for you.”

            Oh gosh! He didn’t expect that he will confess his feelings for Sehun the second time. He’s here anyway so he might as well do it. As Chanyeol told him a long time ago, romance writers are strong as a bull.

            “If you didn’t come near me, I won’t have a chance to love you, Oh Sehun.”

            Sehun gave out a sigh. “You’ll only get hurt, Yixing.”

            Ouch! Sehun somewhat answered his unanswered question. He tried to smile. “I already told you, I’m used to getting hurt when I started loving you.”

            “Yixing—”

            “Look, I'm going back to my original plan.” Yixing looked at the man he continues to love despite everything. “I went here for a purpose. That is to know your response to my question that you weren’t able to answer. I want you to answer me straight, Sehun. Then I’ll be on my way.”

            “Okay.”

            “Do you love me?”

            “Yes.”

            “Huh?”

            “But I can’t.”

             “What?”

            “I will only hut you in the end, Yixing. You know my history. You’ve seen how much of a jerk I am. And I don’t want you to experience the same thing. Eunbon is right. I don’t deserve to be happy. I don’t want you to be hurt because of me so it’s better you forget about me. Just go back to your quiet world, Yixing. You’re safer there. There will be no one to hurt you.”

            Yixing just stared at Sehun for quite some time. With what everything Sehun has said, everything became clear to him. So he just nodded slowly.

            “Okay.” Yixing said, and then turned away.

            Sehun loved him. And yet he still let him go. What a fool.

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Okay, first things first. We're down to the last chapter of this story. I want to thank everyone for patiently waiting and supporting this story even if I post an update once in a blue moon. And I really want to apologize for that. So many things happened this past 4 months. I passed the board exams last August and I was able to get a job. And by the way, adulting is really hard T^T Now I'm almost done with this story. I'm thinking of posting a story of the other side couples in this story (Minho x Krystal, Amber x Henry, etc.) Hmm, what do you guys think?