“Sehun…” Yixing tightly hugged his pillow and screamed. He remembered what happened last night where Sehun kissed him.

            Yes, it was just on my cheek but it was still a kiss nonetheless. And to be kissed by someone you adore is the most beautiful thing that could happen to you on a Halloween parade. He lay on his back and looked at the ceiling, and drowned himself again with the said memory.

            “Oh Sehun!” He screamed loudly. “I love you!”

            Yixing immediately got up from his bed and glanced outside the window. The sky was a bit dark and it indicates that it might rain but it feels like everything is bright and colorful around him. He opened the window.

            “I love you, Oh Sehun!” He screamed for the second time. “I will marry you in any church, eh… within Seoul only!”

            Yes, that was what he was feeling. Well if you think about it, it’s a bit fast because it’s just a week where he and Sehun started to get to know each other well. But for Yixing, it is enough time to say that he indeed is in love. He doesn’t care if when did he start loving Sehun but the most important thing now is that he is happy with what he is feeling. He doesn’t care what other people might think.

            The lightning scattered across the sky. He closed his windows. He feels so energetic even though he wasn’t able to properly sleep last night because of thinking of what happened between him and Sehun in the Halloween parade.

            And speaking of Sehun, Yixing thought a brilliant idea on how to see the other man again. Without looking so excited, that is. He took a shower and prepared to leave his unit.

            “Oh Sehun, wait for me.” Yixing told his own mirror reflection. “Wait for your destiny. And that’s me!” Yixing laughed evilly.

  After dressing up, he went to the largest bookstore in the city. He picked up all the books that Sehun wrote. Yixing gently caressed each book, placed it on his cheek and kissed it one by one. He received weird looks from other book buyers.

  “You want to read?” He asked the guy beside him in English. He heard the guy talking in English earlier on his phone. “It’s good. It’s funny, you know?” The guy, not older than 20, gave him a blank stare. “Ah, whatever. Why am I talking to you when you can’t even understand Korean?”

    But he is feeling good this day so even if he looks stupid in front of the guy, he still continued to promote Sehun’s book. The guy is not walking away from him, anyway.

    So he continued talking in English. “This is a very good book. When you want to learn some Korean, you read this, okay? Because the man who wrote this is very, very intelligent. Like me. And he’s also very handsome. Like you.” The young man smiled. It seems like he’s ready to buy Sehun’s book because the man took it from him when he waved it in front of his face.  “Yes, that’s my Sehun. He’s very, very handsome. And I love him, you know? So buy this, okay?”

      “Mark.”

      Yixing gasped when he heard that familiar voice. His heart rate doubled. He can’t be wrong. He knows that voice!

     “Hyung.” Said the young man beside him. “Your timing is perfect. This cute little fan of yours was just trying to persuade me to buy your books. And I must say, he has a very good talent in sales talk.” The man―Mark―said in perfect Korean.

       Yixing looked at the direction where Mark is looking at. And there he was, Sehun himself. It seems like everything around him was gone and it was just him and Sehun.

      “Sehun…”

      “He really loves you, you know.” Mark said. “He keeps on praising your books and your handsomeness. You’re really lucky, hyung. You have an admirer like him.”

            Yixing looked at Mark when the latter tapped his head like a child. “You know how to speak Korean? Why didn’t you tell me sooner? I had a hard time speaking in English.”

            “I was only born in Canada, but I’m Korean.” Mark said coolly. “And Sehun hyung is my cousin. Anyway, you’re cute when you were trying to persuade me to buy Sehun hyung’s books. That’s why I didn’t interrupt you on your monologue. By the way, my name’s Lee Min Hyung. But you can call me Mark. How about you? What’s your name?”

            “Batman.” Yixing immediately went to Sehun. “Sehun, how are you? Look at the destiny, it’s always finding a way to make us meet. Look, I bought all of your books. I should get a kiss from the author, am I right?”

      But Sehun just looked at Mark’s direction. “Have you bought everything that you need? I need to go back to my house because I still have a lot of work to do.”

            “He’s right Mark.” Yixing said to the guy who doesn’t know if he’ll laugh or frown. “Why are you disturbing him? If you want to buy all the books in Seoul, you should just go with me instead. You know that Sehun’s time is equivalent to a gold bar, right?”

            “Yixing.”

            Wow. Sehun called him by his name again. He smiled at him. “Yes?”

            “Just ignore Mark’s antics. That guy as a poor sense of humor.”

            “Okay. If you say so.”

     “Hey, what did I do wrong? I’m just standing here. And, you know each other?”

            “Mark, let’s go. Yixing, we’ll go now.”

            “Let’s invite this cutie pie to go with us, hyung.” Mark said like he’s older than him. But Yixing just ignored it. He will just reprimand the kid later. “So that you won’t get irritable anymore. It seems like you’re ready to breathe fire anytime.”

            “Mark.”

            “Okay, okay.”

            Sehun just gave him a simple nod and then he started to walk towards the exit. Of course, his heart is not contented with that simple gesture.

            Well, hello! He kissed me last night. So maybe I have a right to demand for a warmer goodbye.

            Yixing went after them. “Sehun, wait. Ah… maybe you want to grab some coffee… together with Mark. Don’t worry, it’s my treat. I just received my paycheck–”

            “No, thank you. I’m sorry. I really have to finish some work.”

            “But it won’t take long, I promise–”

            “I’m sorry.”

            Yixing felt ashamed at some point so he just let Sehun go. Mark just tapped his shoulder.

          “I apologize for Sehun hyung’s behavior. He didn’t get enough sleep these past few days because he’s finishing his work. I even disturbed him to fetch me in the airport earlier.”

            Yixing tried to smile. “Of course. I perfectly understand him. I’m a writer too.”

            “You’re a writer too? That’s great! Next time, I will ask for your autograph, okay? Hyung.” Mark finally said.

            “I’m writing romance novels.”

            “Even if you’re writing children’s books, I will still get an autograph from you.” Mark gave him an apologetic smile as he followed his cousin. “I want to apologize again for the way Sehun hyung acted earlier. Take care, hyung.”

            Yixing just nodded. When Mark was gone, he just felt the weight on his chest. What happened for Sehun to act that way? Did he do something wrong? He remembered Mark saying that Sehun wasn’t able to sleep.

        “Ah, he’s right.” Yixing comforted himself. “I even act that way when I don’t get enough sleep.” And sometimes, he’s worse. He lifted the book that he failed to get an autograph from Sehun. “Well, look at the bright side. At least, I still have a reason to go to you. You’re a genius, Yixing.”

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            Carrying some of Sehun’s books and a paper bag which has Sehun’s jacket and shirt, Yixing conditioned himself for the second time.

            “Sehun, how are you? I’m here to return your pullovers—I mean, shirt. Maybe you miss…” He cleared his throat and tried saying it in different tone. When he’s satisfied, he took a deep breath and slowly walked towards Sehun’s house which is a few meters away. “Wow, it’s really hard to court someone.”

        Before he even walk away, he took a deep breath again and quickly walked towards the door. “Ah! I can do this. I wanted to see him. I miss him… let’s go!”

            “Ugly.”

            “Oh my god! You scared me!” Because of shock, he dropped Sehun’s books. Which is immediately replaced by happiness when he saw Sehun is walking towards him. “Yah! Why are you appearing out of nowhere like that!? What are you doing here? Why are you outside your house? Who are you?”

           “You are out of your mind again.” Sehun picked up the books one by one. It seems like he recognized it. “You don’t have to buy these. I can give you some copies if you like.”

            “It’s okay. It will add up to your sales. Anyway, here.” Yixing gave the paper bag to Sehun. “I brought that to you so you don’t have to go to my condominium.”

            Sehun gave him back the books as he took the paper bag from Yixing. “Thanks.”

            “Ah, it’s nothing. I should be the one who thank you because it was useful for me, I mean, your jacket. Imagine, you left it with me last Halloween…” He suddenly remembered how Sehun kissed him. “I mean… you know–”

            “It’s too late. You should go home. It’s quite dangerous to be out this late.”

            There goes Sehun’s cold tone again. Yixing can’t help but to sulk.

            “Sehun… are you mad at me?”

            “No.” Sehun take a look inside the paper bag in his hand. “Wait for me here. I’ll just get my car and bring you home.”

            “Sehun.” Yixing blocked Sehun’s way. “I’m asking you.”

            “And I answered you. Wait for me here.”

            But he still followed him. He won’t let Sehun avoid him like that without knowing the reason. “If you’re not mad at me, why are you treating me like this? Did I do something wrong? Please tell me so that I won’t spend my time thinking why are you treating me like this.”

          Sehun stopped on his tracks but doesn’t face him. “I’m sorry. I’m just tired.”

            “I’m tired too, Sehun. But I didn’t act like this to someone…close to me.” Sehun still didn’t say anything or even turned to him. Yixing just sighed, hoping that he might take this heavy feeling off his chest. “I’m sorry for disturbing you. I just want… I want to return that to you. Then…I want to ask for an autograph for your books.”

            Sehun still doesn’t say anything. He’s not sure what to think about his silent treatment. Why? They were happy last night. What on earth is happening now? Did he visit him on his dream and did something wrong that’s why Sehun doesn’t want to see him?

            This is really frustrating. Why don’t you say anything, Sehun? Don’t you like me too?

            That’s when Yixing finally understands everything. Maybe Sehun doesn’t feel anything for him that’s why he’s avoiding him. And his kiss… it’s just on his cheek. It means nothing. It… doesn’t mean anything.

            He felt like he’s been poured by cold water at that moment. He’s so stupid. Why does he realize it just now? The reason why Sehun has been avoiding him because he wants him to know that everything happened between them last night doesn’t mean anything. And Sehun doesn’t want to embarrass him that’s why he doesn’t say to his face that he doesn’t feel anything for him.

            Damn… it hurts! I want to cry. I’m so stupid!

`           “Well… I have to go. I’m sorry for disturbing you.”

            Yixing went back to where he came from earlier. He has this heavy feeling in his chest. Why is it like this? It’s supposed to be happy when you love someone. But why doesn’t he feel it? He’s like the characters in his book—they feel hurt when loving someone. All this time, he thought that he writes fiction because he thinks that everything is not happening in real life. But now, he realized that everything is real.

            “Yixing.”

            His heart leaps when Sehun called him. His sulking suddenly flew out of the window and he forgot his dilemma. He turned to him. Ah, yes. There goes his heart that does not stop loving Sehun.

            “Don’t come here to see me again.”

            Yixing was shocked of what he just heard. “Huh?”

            “This will be the last time we’ll have this kind of conversation.”

            “What?”

           “You’ll understand me someday.” Sehun gave out a sigh. “I’ll take you back to your home. Stay here. I’ll just get my car.”

            Yixing followed Shun with his gaze. It’s still unclear for him what did he mean earlier. When he felt something flicked on his head, he can’t help but to ask Sehun.

            “Sehun!” The said man looked at him. “I love you!” It was Sehun’s turn to look stunned. “Do you understand that? I love you! So how can I avoid you like what you wanted me to do? I cannot do that. I won’t do that.”

            Sehun just stared at him for quite some time. Until he can’t see any emotion on his handsome face.

            No! Yixing shouted in his mind. Don’t you dare hide from me, Sehun.

            “Se–”

            “I don’t want to hear that from you again.” Sehun turned away from him.

            Yixing’s heart protested. But his mind is telling him not to give up.

            “I can feel that you feel the same for me, Sehun. Am I right?” Sehun continued walking away from him. “Do you love me?”

            I’m not ashamed anymore. Sehun stopped on his tracks but he’s still not looking at him. For the second time, his heart hopes again. But failed to when Sehun silently walked away from him. When a taxi passed by, he flagged it down. It stopped between them. Sehun walked to his side to open the door for him. He doesn’t have a choice but to go near him despite the heaviness on his chest. Yixing tried watching Sehun’s face for the last time but he avoided him.

            “Good night, Yixing.” Then Sehun closed the door of the taxi and walked away.

            It was the last time that he hears his voice and sees his handsome face.

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Hello guys! I want to apologize for updating this just now and leaving you with an angsty chapter T^T One month to go and I'll finally graduate and hopefully I won't be as busy as before (cheers!) I just want to share what happened on EXO's concert last February 25 and 26:

So my friend and I went to Araneta Coliseum not to watch the concert but to wait for the boys to come out. We weren't able to go to the concert because we both have duties in the hospital the next day and we can't afford to be late so we just settled in going to the venue to at least feel the concert vibe. We hoped that the concert will end earlier but it doesn't so we just went home :'( Anyway, we promised to ourselves that the next time EXO will go to the Philippines, we will get the most expensive ticket and hopefully we can witness the boys' gloriousness up close! LMAO. Oh, and NCT's Mark in the house yo :)