Loving someone and realizing you don't belong together is not an easy dilemma. 

Five years had passed and I still missed him. Even though I had gotten married to someone else (three years after that blowout fight), each year at High Holy Day Services I wondered if I would run into him. I would visually scan the entire congregation to see if Baek was there, part of me hoping he would be, the other part terrified of that possibility.Though our fight had cut off our communication, I knew nothing could sever the connection between us. I felt horrible about the way things had ended. Call it selfish, but I needed closure. I needed to see him and apologize for hurting him. I needed to see my Baekkie.