An annoyed groan left Sugas' lips for the milionth time as he scribbled out the words he had just written.

Nothing sounded right, everything that he wrote down seemed awkward and didn't make sense, or it felt like he tried to hard that the lyrics were just overwhelming all together. Sighing softly he placed the pen down before propping both his elbows on the table and covering his face with both his palms. He wasn't sure what was wrong with him, of course writing lyrics wasn't an easy task, but it never caused such a hassle for him before.

"Yoongi! If you want to starve you better come out!" Seokjin yelled from the kitchen. Opening up his mouth to respond and say that he had to finish up his work, his stomach growled in protest. It wasn't surprising though, being that the rapper had already skipped dinner last night, his body was practically begging for any sort of nutrition. 

Slowly getting up from his seat, he made his way to the kitchen where all the members were already seated at the table. From the looks of it everything seemed fine and pretty merry. The youngest members having a playful argument about who knows what, while Seokjin and Namjoon were just smiling and telling them to calm down, and Hoseok was simply involving himself in the arugment, making the scene even more hectic by taking sides. 

Suga let out a lighthearted chuckle as he watched the members goofing around with each other. Just watching them, it felt like all his worries and troubles had been lifted off his shoulders. Making his way to table, the ends of his lips that made a smile fell down a bit as he noticed that Hoseok was actually in his usual seat, which was beside his boyfriend. "Yo, Hoseok-ah move. You're in my seat," Yoongi pointed out as he flicked the side of the youngers head. 

"Ow," J-Hope winced as he brought his hand up to the same spot the other flicked. "Yea I know that hyung. It's just Taehyung asked me to sit here," he explained, only to get a confused looked from the older.

"Tae?" Suga asked, bringing his gaze to the second youngest, only for him to lock his gaze to the ground.

"Yea... I asked him to sit here," Taehyung admitted with a slight nod of his head. A short silence overcame the two as the older tried proccessing his words. Did he hear him right? Yoongi blinked, as he blankly stared at his lover. 

Sure, it's not like they had to sit beside each other or anything and be with each other constantly. But the fact that Suga was so busy and barely made time for V, it was odd that he didn't take any offer given in order to be near the second oldest. Also, sitting with the vocalist during every meal was just a thing they did, it was out of habit now to sit in that seat the Hoseok was currently sitting on. 

"O-okay," the rapper replied, his mind still foggy with confusion as he moved to sit in the only empty spot which was in between Jimin and Namjoon. 

Suga his lips as he simply shook his head. He had to just eat and get his work over with. He could contemplate and solve whatever this was after he was done, he couldn't tackle both things at once. Besides, it should just be normal that Taehyung had grown more attatched to one of the other members. The rapper was busy, and it would be a lie to say that he wasn't pushing the other away. But it didn't worry Yoongi nevertheless, he knew that he was still first in Taehyungs heart. 

The rest of the day, Yoongi was locked inside his room. He was scribbling lyrics nonstop and he would only come out to go to the bathroom but nothing more. All the memebers were getting worried at this point about the second oldests health, it was no doubt that he was overworking him self much past the limit. 

"Tae, don't you think you should do something?" J-Hope asked, looking at the time. Suga was locked into his room for about 6 hours now with no breaks at all.

"What am I supposed to do?" Taehyung replied ratherly coldly. "He'll just yell at me like always." He scoffed, remembering about all of the times he attempted to talk to his lover and tell him he was working way too hard, but he was always given the same treatment. A cold shoulder and a scolding.

"Oh c'mon don't say that. I'm sure he's just stressed out," Hoseok tried to assure.

"I don't care if he's stressed out!" the younger suddenly exclaimed. "That doesn't give him a reason to be an to me! I'd be fine if he just told me he was busy and not to bother him, but he literally curses and yells at me to leave! Who the hell treats their boyfriend like that?" 

At this point, the second youngest was screaming, his pent up frustration being released. He had been dealing with this for about a month, maybe even more. Yet, despite it he always kept his mouth shut and it up, then pretend like he was fine. But, something just snapped last night. He wasn't sure what it was, but he just knew that he was far past done with the olders behaviour. 

"Calm down..." the main dancer sighed. The duo was currently in the living room, and with all the screaming it was obviously going to attract attention from the other members. Luckily it didn't, so he continued their conversation. "But does he seriously treat you like that? I thought you're relationship was going fine honestly, you looked happy. Same with Yoongi hyung." he shrugged.

"Well we aren't fine! At least I'm not... Hyung I can only handle so much, and I already broke past that limit a long time ago." He whispered the last part, his heart swelling up as the only think of was the pain of their relationship.

Taehyung felt utterly useless, like a burden to Yoongi. Sometimes he just wished he could disappear so he didn't have to bother the older anymore, because the rapper was obviously annoyed with him. It came to his mind so many times to just break off the relationship, since both of them seemed nothing more than frustrated with each other, but V knew better than that. 

If he was to dump him now, what would happen to the older? Even if he wanted to end the relationship as the younger suspected, Sugas mind would be clouded by the break up. And with how much he was beating himself up to finish lyrics for the album, it wouldn't be the best if he was distracted by something like that. So Taehyung did nothing more but sit back and take whatever the other was throwing at him. He thought he could handle it by the time the rapper was done with the album, but now he was doubting it.

"Then why don't you just end it?" Hoseok asked, bringing the second youngest back down to earth. Blinking at the other, he tilted his head to the side while showing a confused expression to the main dancer. 

"You want me to just flat out dump him?" V asked, somewhat shocked by the olders straight forwardness.

It stayed silent for a bit as it seemed J-Hope was contemplating on which words to use to answer the other. He wanted to answer the other honestly, but he also didn't want to reveal too much of his real emotions. Bringing a hand up to comb through the youngers soft brown hair, his eyes then moved down to lock his gaze with the others. "Tae... I mean, if you don't feel happy with him, what's the point of being in a relationship with him? You deserve all the happiness in the world."

Hoseok gaze was so intense. Taehyung could tell that the other was far past being a genuinely concerned friend that was simply comforting him, he could feel all of the olders emotion just by his words and his eyes. He didn't want to deal with it though, not now of all times. The last thing he wanted to do was get into some sort of affair with the main dancer, he'd rather break up with Yoongi before even bringing Hoseok into the equation. 

Breaking eye contact with the older, V brought his gaze to the ground, automatically getting J-Hopes fingers out of his hair. This silence wasn't anything like the one a few seconds ago, no this one had a strong sense of tension to it. Taehyung couldn't help but his suddenly dry lips as he tried to think of what exactly to say to the others remark. Yet, his train of thought completely crashed when Hoseok grabbed the younger chin and forced him to look into his eyes once again. "Hyung? What are you doing?" he asked, confused by how much their conversation was escalating and becoming a complete mess by this point. 

"It's just better if I do this now instead of waiting later," J-Hope said, his voice falling as quiet as a whisper. The second youngest could only blink as more confusion washed over him. As millions of thoughts ran through his head, he barely noticed the older leaning in, closing the space between their lips. It was only when he felt the others breath playing against his lips was when his registered exactly what was happening, but it was already too late. Even if Taehyung wanted to pull away, he couldn't because in an instant his lips were connected with the rappers. 

However, even after their lips were pressed together, the second youngest didn't pull away. Why not? Even V couldn't answer that question for himself. He only knew one thing though, and that was that he was actually enjoying the kiss. For a second he thought he was going insane, but honestly it wasn't because he actually had any feelings for Hoseok. No, his feelings for the main dancer were completely platonic. 

It was just the kiss itself that he was craving and keeping him from pulling away. In the whole month or so, he had missed out on this. The warmth, the love, the intimacy. He missed this, and he wanted nothing more but to ravish on it. He was just so desperate to feel it again. Even if that meant earning it from another person, he didn't care. He just wanted to remember those times, those times when he could easily do this with Yoongi.

Just wanting to last in the moment, despite it being empty and consciously absolutely nothing to Taehyung, he didn't move from his spot. Not pushing the other away, nor exactly responding to the kiss, he let Hoseok do all the work and show how much love he really did have for the younger.

Yoongis headphones were plugged in as he listened to the instrumental for the last song he had to work on. He was practically done at this point, he just needed to add a line or two to fill up the song and make it have a perfect ending.

'Taes voice would give it a perfect touch' He thought to himself as a small smile formed on his lips. After this song was over then he could finally spend time with his lover. Despite being ridiculously harsh to the other, he really didn't mean it. All the pressure simply pilled up and he didn't know how to control himself, trying to spurt up lyrics from the top of his head while trying to listen to Taehyung and whatever he had to say simultaneously was just too much for him. But he made sure that after this he was going to pamper the younger and treat him the way he was deserved to be treated. 

Looking over the lyrics one last time, a soft sigh escaped the rappers lips. Despite the song having a catchy beat to it, the lyrics were fairly depressing and very deep. The song he had just finished writing was about the comparison of a broken relationship to the leaves during the month of autumn. Sure, that alone made it sound somewhat ridiculous and he knew if he explained it like that to Namjoon or the other producers they were most likely going to mock him. But he knew that when they were to look at the lyrics they would instantly love it.

Yet, even though he was proud of the song, he couldn't help but feel a slight ping of sadness as he revised the lyrics. It reminded him so much of his current relationship with Taehyung, it hurt. How much was Taehyung hurting currently? Suga was the one who was busy and caught up with all the work, but V had nothing this whole time. He must have felt so lonely.

That thought alone got something to snap in the second oldest. He had to be with Taehyung in that instant. He had to apologize about his ty attitude, he had to rekindle their relationship which had been breaking over the past month. He had to make it up to the second youngest, he had to show him how much he really meant to him.

Closing up his notebook, Yoongi pulled his headphones out of his ears before getting up from his seat. His bones cracked while his body ached in protest since it had been so long since he moved at all. Groaning softly at the slight ache, he excused it as it wasn't all to bad, but it definitely wasn't the best feeling. After unlocking the door and opening it, the first thing the rapper noticed was how awfully quiet the dorm was.

Usually there would be some sort of playful argument, or conversation bustling in the living room, but it was absolutely silent. Making his way deeper into the complex, he could already see that the living room was practically empty. That at least somewhat answered his earlier concern. 

Making his way into the living room, Suga completely froze in his tracks as he stared at the two figures on the couch. He wished that he was just going crazy, maybe he was hallucinating, maybe he was just exhausted so he was just seeing things. Yet, that would make no sense at all. Why would he just subconsciously imagine his boyfriend kissing one of his best friends?

A shaky breath left Yoongis lips as he tried processing the scene in front of him. He couldn't move at all as shock was the only thing that could be felt at the moment, but it wasn't long until the other emotions started kicking in. Pain was the second thing he felt, it made him feel sick.

His stomach was churning, nausea being the only thing he could feel clearly besides. He wanted to feel angry, angry at both of them honestly. He wanted to be mad at Hoseok because he was one of his closest friends, but here he was kissing his best friend, shattering the second oldests trust right in front of his eyes. Yet, he couldn't help but want to feel mad at Taehyung too, because he seemed to be motionless, calmly taking the kiss, accepting it. 

Yoongi felt like he was standing there for ages. It was as if time itself had stopped, just so he could live in this excruciating moment forever.

It was only when the two had finally pulled away that they seemed to notice the presence of the third party. Both of them seemed to be beyond shocked, however a milion other emotions seemed to flicker through both their eyes. 

"Hy-hyung..." 

That was the only thing that could leave Taehyungs lips. Too many emotions and thoughts were clouding his mind, he didn't know what to say nor do. 

Suga in the meanwhile, finally found control in his body. The first way he reacted by instinct was simply clenching his fist to contain his anger to keep himself from hitting someone or something. His hand was balled up so tightly that his knuckles had turned even more pale than they originally were to begin with. His blunt nails were also harshly pushing against the skin of his palm, and he swore that if he kept this up he might end up breaking the skin and bleed. But he could care less about that, right now he was too angry and hurt that he didn't care about the damage he was doing to his hands.

The room fell in a stiff atmosphere. None of the three males said a word, the two on the couch were waiting for some sort of outburst, while the eldest of the three was just waiting for some sort of explanation. Seeing that this was getting nowhere, Yoongi was the first to move, making a hot trail towards the duo. 

Hoseok was expecting some sort of beat up at this point, but frankly he would deserve it if the older actually did decide to punch him. Yet, that's not what happened, the rapper had actually stopped in front of his boyfriend. It was Taehyungs turn to be scared now. He had practically flinched when he saw the second oldest move his arm by a fraction, thinking that he would get a slap to the face. 

It was never Yoongis intention to physically hurt either of them. He was still trying to take in this whole situation. Bringing his arm forward, the rapper grabbed his boyfriends wrist harshly. Pulling the second youngest off the couch, Suga threw hateful glare at J-Hope before dragging V to their shared room. 

The first thing the rapper did when they got into their room was slam the door with all the anger that bubbled up in his being. Taehyung flinched, he knew that he messed up, he messed up badly. But suddenly Hoseoks words slapped him in the face and he had to remember, Yoongi was the one who had screwed everything up in the beginning. V was the one who was suffering, when he deserved happiness. 

"Explain yourself," Suga said coldly, the hurt from earlier never fading away. 

"No, you explain yourself hyung!" Taehyung suddenly yelled, causing the older to get taken aback. 

"What the hell are you talking about? I wasn't kissing someone else, was I?" He shot, not bringing his guard down.

"I'm not talking about that!" The younger continued to scream. His hands started to ball up into fists as his frustration started coming back. "You ignored me for a whole month! You treated me like , you didn't care about whatever I did and locked me out constantly! And now, after a whole month has past you care?" He didn't even realize that tears were already falling from his eyes, but he could care less about that. He just wanted to voice all his frustrations, and end this all.

Hearing this, Yoongis eyes softened up a bit. The betrayal, hurt and anger he once felt had reduced by a great amount, and was now replaced with guilt and remorse. However, he still didn't find everything the younger said to be a good enough reason for his actions. "Alright, Tae I'm so sorry for treating you badly and I'll make it up to you," He started. "But that doesn't give you the right to go around kissing people."

"And did the album give you a reason for you to treat me the way you did?" He barked. 

Suga only blinked as he tried to grasp the situation. What was happening? Wasn't he the one that was supposed to be mad right now? Wasn't Taehyung the one who was supposed to be defending himself? Why did it feel like the situation had completely turned over? It was Yoongi that was being put on the spot now.

"Tae, what happened, happened. I finished the album, so now I'll treat you the way you deserve to be treated." The rapper assured bringing a hand to hold the others. However, the second youngest harshly got himself out of his grip and only scoffed. 

"Oh? And what about when the next album comes around? And the next? Huh? Then what? You'll just say the same bull and expect me to be fine with it?" The vocalist shot. 

"I-..." A soft sigh left his lips as he felt completely defeated. He couldn't defend his actions, suddenly the whole kiss from earlier didn't seem so bad compared to how he treated the younger. "What are you saying? Making it up to you is obviously not enough. What do you want Tae? I'll do whatever you want." 

"I want to break up."

There was no more screaming or arguing, it had all died down in an instant and there was now only a tense air. Yoongi didn't know how to react. His emotions were being thrown around harshly in the past few minutes when he was supposed to be happy right now. He didn't imagine things to turn out this way. 

"Wh-what?"

"I want to break up!" Taehyung repeated in a scream. "I'm so tired hyung, I can't anymore!" He exclaimed, streaks of tears falling along his cheeks. "I just want to be happy. You're supposed to be happy in a relationship, but why am I suffering alone?" At this point, the younger looked like he was going to break down. The tears seemed endless and he was sobbing by the time he was done talking. 

Suga only stared at the vocalist, his guilt only growing more. He never meant to hurt the younger, he didn't mean for things to get so out of hand. There was nothing he could say, he didn't know what to say. 

Taking a step closer to the younger he brought both his hand up to cup the others cheeks before leaning in a giving him a passionate kiss. It was his last push in attempt to show Taehyung that he really did love him and that everything was just a mistake. Yoongi made sure to kiss him with as much passion and love that he had for the other, but it seemed that it failed nonetheless because he was pushed harshly. 

Before Yoongi could even do or say anything, the next thing he knew he was slapped across the face. Bringing a hand up to the cheek that got slapped he looked up at the younger with a mix of emotions. Shock, hurt, anguish. 

"Why are you doing this?" The second oldest asked, barely coming out of a whisper. 

"I-I... I don't want to give you a chance. I don't want any second thoughts, I just want to leave you like this," Taehyung said slowly, his voice trembling greatly. 

Sugas hand fell back to his side as he stared into the others eyes trying to find some sort of hope, but there was none. The only thing he could see was pain. "Is this really what you want?"

"Y-yes."

Yoongi only let out a shaky breath as he bowed his head down in defeat. It was really over, that last strand of hope that dangled and barely kept their relationship had now been broken. There was absolutely nothing now. Nothing else was said between the two, and soon enough Taehyung made his way out. 

"Goodbye hyung."

Why can't I move? 

Suga clenched his fist as he watched the younger leave, his feet objecting to move. He wanted to chase after him, he wanted to stay with him, he didn't want him leaving. 

Why can't I speak? 

Despite the fact that he opened up his lips, no noise left his mouth. He wanted to plea for the other to stay, he wanted to beg the other not to leave, he wanted to scream that he meant to world to him.

It was only when Taehyung was fully out of his view that Yoongi extended his arm out in attempts to reach out for him, but of course it was completely useless. Bringing his hand back, a shaky breath left his lips as the first tear finally fell. 

Suga couldn't even remember the last time he cried. But then again, he couldn't remember the last time he felt so much pain and sadness at once. His heart felt like it was tearing, and he could feel every fibre breaking. It was like someone threw him into an endless pit of darkness. There was no happiness, no hope, no love. Even if he was to pull out every single strand of hair on his head, or shatter every single bone in his body, it wouldn't compare to how much pain he was feeling. It was an unbearable pain, he just wanted to die in that moment. 

Everything was crumbling, and he didn't know what to do. Why wasn't he breaking down in tears? Why wasn't he destroying something? Why wasn't he tearing out his hair? Why was he just stuck there motionlessly? 

Only one thought made it's way into his mind.

I lost Taehyung

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Ugh, kind of sloppier than I imagined it to be

So yea Taegi broke up in the end :(

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