MY DONSAENG

She was my dongsaeng, this annoying kid running around pulling at my legs. She said I was her Oppa, I should treat her nicely and we would be fine. She was a pain in the next I could do without, she was fine and only bothered me until she debut. She was my donsaeng and people were mean. Only I was meant to be mean to her. 

When Amber was 14 she went to south korea and started training, when she was 16 she debut. But when she was 14 she was still just a girl looking for a friend, a big brohter and that is what donghae was, he didn't treat her differently because she was boyish he would treat her the same as heechul treated sulli. when Amber was left out he would sit next to her and give her a bottle of water over time she realised although he teased he was nice to her, although he could be annoying and a pabo he was a soft centered Oppa. She was his donsaeng and he was her Oppa.

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Amber and the memebers of f(X) prepared to go onto stage with super junior. This was as close as they would get to their own show but it was exciting the roar of the crowd and cheers of the fans. Amber knew she would never be the most popular member of f(X) but just being a member made her happy. The practices beforehand made her laugh and smile over time the SUJU oppa's had come to realise that Amber however strogn she appeared was a sweet innocent girl. Even if it did take donghae shouting at them to realise this. 

No matter how tough Ambers day she knew she could rely on donghae to make it better, her 15th birthday in korea almost when un-celebrated if it wasn´t for the small stuffed pikachu toy and cupcake donghae brought her. He was a pillar in her life in korea. However they seemed to be slowly drifting apart recently. Since Henry became close to Amber Donghae seemed to step back from being her oppa. It hurt, but then again Amber was just a kid to Donghae.

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Donghae was excited to perform with Amber for the first time, it was a new experience for the both of them, a far cry from messing around in the practice rooms in the sm building. No matter how he looked at it, it was finally an adventure both of them could enjoy. He knew s became more caring towards the young teen after serveral masculine jokes where made in jest, only donghae saw Amber fighting back the tears. 

But then AMber finally settled into the SM family she made more friends than just donghae, she found guys that had more interest in her as well. Henry was Donghae´s biggest concern even though he was harmless it seemed and Amber never joined in the flirtatious nature of henry´s approach he couldn´t help but feel concerned. She was his. He knew he shouldn´t think that way bit he couldn´t help his feelings and until he truly decided how he felt he thought it best he leave Amber alone. 

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Whenever they were on stage together the energy seemed to rise, the temperature got hotter and the whole world seemed to slow down almost to stand still. There laughs and smiles became electric not just to them but also the crowd and their members around them. They were like the main power supply to the concert. They would jump and smile, laugh and joke and the world was ina  complete array of happiness. 

"Oppa! Stop pushing me.....I´ll jump on you!" Amber teased poking out her tongue. "You wouldn´t dare and if you did I would pick you up!" Donghae retorted. "YAH!" That was it AMber was on Donghae and in one swift movement her was carrying her. To the crowd it was like a brother and sister messing around. To their members it was so much more, It was like two shooting stars burning up as they passed each other in the sky. Everyone knew this would never turn out well but they could hope. 

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When Amber turned 20 Donghae took her drinking the morning after left them in a state neither could come to terms with, Amber lay in an unfamilar bed listening to the cursing of her closes oppa as her pander around the room. It took a few moments for her to realise her lack of clothing before she rised to a sitting position to find Donghae bouncing aorund the room in just his boxers.

In a second the memories of last night came back the alcohol and the food, the chattering and the confessions not just her own but donghae admitting she was more than just his treasureds dongsaeng she was his. Like a possession but the was he stated it made her feel like she meant so much more than that to him. 

"Oppa?" She questioned the older idol hobbling around the room. "Oh, Amber you´re awake? Do you need water? Or something to eat?" He asked rushing over with a bottle of water. 

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Awkward interactions followed the pair around the SM building for a few months the feeling of change from friendship to relationship, if you could call it that was a confusing jumble of messiness. The pair for the moment had been label close sibilings however a few people labelled them lovers, the ones who knew about their more intiate relation. The pair would regularly drink together and donghae couldn't help but smile everytime her saw Amber around the SM building. He couldn't help but laugh at her attempt of acting natural either. 

"We need to stop doing this?" Amber whispered as she wrapped her hands around Donghae's torso. "Stop, what?" he spoke grogerly tired from their previous activities. "What are we oppa? what are we doing? Why does everyone say you're just using me?" The last question slipped out solemly and the room went dead quiet, like not even the two people lying in the bed were breathing. "Using you? Amber do you ever think I would use you. Have I ever made you do something you don't want to do?"  Donghae took a long deep breath. Wrapping an Arm around Ambers shoulders and squeezing her shoulder. "We are currently about to go to sleep, what we have been doing? Is enjoying ach others company, going out and having fun. Hopefully some of those times you could call dates. What we will continue to do if you want to that is, is date. Be together, enjoy each others company more. What are we? Well I am your oppa. I will always be your Oppa. No matter what happens. No matter what gets said or done. And you, you are mine." 

He nuzzled her head and enjoyed the soft vibration of her breathing, he knew her silence meant she accepted his answer completely. It was time for sleep and recouperation. The following days Donghae took every moment in his day to remind Amber that he was her Oppa, her Namja Chingu. And she was his, she meant the world to him and she wasn't just their to amuse him. He also decided to be honest, he told all s. He knew in the long run they would be the best support even if the teasing would be hard to handle and he spoke to the SM management. 

"Oi! Donghae, where are you rushing off to? Aren't you coming clubbing with us to celebrate!" One of the many staff behind the Suju group shouted as Donghae was packing his bag to leave and meet Amber. "Sorry, I am going to meet my girlfriend." He replied casualy however the whole room froze at the statement. Although those closes to Donghae knew about Amber the wider part of the company was no suppose to know Donghae even had a girlfriend incase of leaked information. 

"Ya! What are you doing? Trying to cause a scandal!" Heechul hit him on the arm. "He is only joking, Donghae has filming tomorrow so he is going home. Excuse his bad joke." the rest of the Suju members and managers laughed to try and convince the other staff in the room. "Oppa!" The higher pitch voice among the laughter caused an erry tension. "You guys were so good." Amber walked through the crowded staff to meet them. "Hello everyone." she polietly bowed and turned back to the members. "oppa are you ready to go?" Amber smiled tugging at Donghae's arm. "Yep, was the show good?" Donghae began his interaction and the mangers watch the two with a microscope. "It was Amazing, you guys really know how o have a good time." She spoke carefully. 

"Amber! Do you want to join us for the celebrations?" THe same staff member from before spoke. "Sorry, I have practice tomorrow for our comeback. But have a great time everyone." The group gave the pair some odd looks. "You guys are leaving together?" Amber began to laugh. "Of course, we live in the same building. It's easier and he told me he has a scheduel tomrrow." Amber played off the situation casually but it didn't sit well with Donghae he wanted everyone to kow Amber was his and she wasn't to even be invited out let alone flirted with. In his head all he could imagine was staff members flirting with Amber. 

"Come on, come on lets get you home." In the time Amber had spoken to some of the Suju staff, donghae had changed and grabbed his bag. He quickly slide his hand into ambers and pulled her along the crowd to the door. A string of whispers followed the action. "Bye everyone, have a wonderful evening." Amber shouted just as Donghae walked them through the door. As the exited the main building donghae didn't let go of Ambers hands, even when passing the queued fans. He smiled and waved. But didn't once faulter in the hand holding. Amber tensed and pulled her hands when the fans gave them odd looks. 

"YA! Oppa! Is Amber your girlfriend or something?!" A Fan shouted out. "Yes she is actually!" He shouted just as he climb into the car with Amber. "She is my future wife actually."