It’s finally been 1 year. Exactly 1 year since he finally confessed all his feelings he had which he had successfully concealed of all those years in high school. He finally gained some courage to ask his best friend whether she felt the same way he felt. He had always been that person you would turn to whenever you needed advice and you would always have those really serious conversations after your own mother. You knew deep down that you felt different around him, you felt better and most importantly you felt loved around him. He always seemed to be the shoulder you would need whenever you had any problems, whenever your grades seem to be tumbling down he would be there to guide you. Whenever you were confused with your life, the great taehyung would be there to show you the route.

Taehyung was practically there for you whenever you needed him but deep down you were always unsure whether you felt the same way and you would never reciprocate his feeling. You felt like a heartless soul who was giving him the wrong signals. You still remember that day. It was raining quite heavily and Tae called and told you he wanted to say something. That was the fourth time he had done that, previously you actually thought he was being serious when he said he wanted to talk but all he wanted to say was that he missed you. You knew behind his jokes there was this side of him which was hiding something. How can he miss you when you practically see him everyone day. Maybe he was too nervous the other three times.

“I really like you, and I will always do”. He said, it didn’t seem new because you always knew this. You were always aware of his feeling yet you pretended your didn’t like a fool.

“Tae, I really like you too but only as a friend”. You said and that was the only time when felt you rushed into Making a decision. Did you really not like him? Or just like a average teenager who was confused. But you know now that these decisions can hurt you in life later on. He had now moved on and this pained you way too much when you saw a class mate of his constantly hanging out with him and he would always lie about his whereabouts, saying he was at the library when you knew he was at the coffee shop you two would always go to.

It’s time you ask your friend what’s really going on, and why he’s lying to you over a girl he has merely known for 6 months. You called called Tae over and over again thinking he would pick up the next time but all that came back from the other side was

“The number you have dialled cannot pick up”

He had never been like this and neither have you. You have become so restless and easily frightened with the possibility that you might potentially lose your best friend.

You hear a knock and your door and you immediately rush to get the door because your intuition tell you it’s him.

And it is! There he was standing in his grey hoodie and white converses and his hair messier than ever, but you loved it and you somehow felt your heart beating even faster every time he looked you in the eye.

“Are you okay” you mumbled to break the ice.

“Shouldn’t I be asking that.” His voice firm as if he came here with a motive.

“Why shouldn’t I be okay?”

“Do you think I am a fool? Do you think I don’t know that I’ve been noticing you follow me. Last week you were there, weren’t you? When me and Sara went to the coffee shop.” You had no answer to his questions, you didn’t want to tell him that you were jealous of this Sara girl.

“Can you at least come inside.” You said and surprisingly your tone was quite low.

He entered your house and instantly sat down on your sofa that hasn’t felt his presence since forever. You remembered those days when he would come knocking your door at 2am because he couldn’t sleep and you would end up watching movies and falling asleep on this very sofa.

“I still haven’t finished yet, you’ve been acting so different lately.” Those words he uttered just made you a little mad because you weren’t the person acting weird, it was him. Although you followed him but why did he lie about him being at the coffee shop?

“I haven’t seen you in days and the moment you see me you accuse me of acting different when you’re the one who’s changed. You were the person who was always there for me but now I rarely get to even hear your voice, you hardly ever pick my calls and if you do, you say you’re too busy and then you hang up straight after.” You were so close to tearing up but you didn’t want to seen so weak in front of your friend so you suppress all these feelings.

“I was compelled to change and you know this too.”
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