Confusing Emotions

Why Did It Have To Be You?

Chanyeol was still laying on his bed. Baekhyun was small enough to fit in the space between Chanyeol's leg and the wall. His legs were over Chanyeol's legs. They've been in this position for a few hours. Baekhyun finally decided to speak. "Chanyeol?" As he expected, he didn't answer. Baekhyun decided to check in case Chanyeol was asleep. He layed his body on top of Chanyeol's. His eyes were open. Baekhyun decided to stay like that. He poked the other's cheek. "Yeollie." He tried acting cute. Surprisingly, Chanyeol didn't budge. He didn't even react. Baekhyun pouted. "Yah...Are you just going to ignore me..?" Baekhyun asked cutely. Suddenly, Chanyeol's stomach growled and Baekhyun smirked. Chanyeol got up, causing Baekhyun to fall on the bed. He left the room and went downstairs. Baekhyun got up and followed him. He followed him all the way down the stairs and into the kitchen. Suho and Kyungsoo were trying to make a card castle on the table. "Are you two the ones who were eating ice cream? You left the tubs out and they were melting..." Kyungsoo told them. Chanyeol just walked to the fridge as if he didn't hear anything. Baekhyun, who was behind him, apologized and then sat on one of the chairs. Chanyeol took out bread and stuff from the fridge. He made himself a sandwich and put everything back. He took a bite. "You're not going to eat standing up, are you?" Baekhyun asked. "No, you shouldn't eat while standing." Kyungsoo said as he went over to the boy, grabbing his arm and pulling him into a chair. Chanyeol didn't seem to mind; he just held his sandwich and ate it nonchalantly. Baekhyun watched him the entire time. Kyungsoo noticed the tension. "What's up between you two?" He wondered. Baekhyun glanced at him and went back to Chanyeol. Chanyeol was in his own world. Getting no answer, Kyungsoo went back to the cards. When Chanyeol finished, he got up and went to the stairs. Baekhyun followed him.

 

Chanyeol layed on his bed the same way as before. Baekhyun crouched on the floor in front of his face. Chanyeol looked like all of his emotions had disappeared. Baekhyun was getting annoyed. "If you stay like that forever, I'll just go with Chen." Baekhyun said with furrowed brows. As expected, Chanyeol didn't react so, Baekhyun got up and left. He shouldn't be trying to make Chanyeol feel better since there's no reason for him to be upset. Chanyeol already knew that Baekhyun didn't like him in that way, what was he expecting? For Baekhyun to never like anyone? Baekhyun went to the living room, downstairs and sat on the couch. Almost everyone is out so there is no one for him to talk to. He the TV and didn't bother changing the channel. It was on some weird drama that Baekhyun never watched. He watched it anyway to kill time.

 

After a while, some members came back home. Kris plopped on the couch next to Baekhyun. Chen followed and Lay just calmly sat on the floor. "What are you watching, Baekhyun?" Kris asked him. "I don't know." He said. There was a cheesy scene on and they were all ready to turn the TV off. Just as the guy was about to pull the girl in for a kiss, the channel changed. They all looked at Chen who was now sitting next to Lay on the floor. "No need to thank me." He said, his arm still pointing at the TV. "Put the running man!" Lay suggested. "It was on the same channel as that drama Baek was watching. Let's put something else until it starts." Chen told him as he was flipping through the channels. "Why were you watching that anyway?" Kris asked him. "I wasn't. It was just on." Baekhyun said. 

 

Two days later, while the members were all eating breakfast, Sehun and Luhan were talking about how they spent Luhan's birthday. "Oh and we went to a dance competition. The same one we went to, Kai." Sehun glanced at Kai as he said that. Right when he said that, Kai got up and ran upstairs. Kyungsoo got up from his chair, ready to run after him. "What's wrong with him?" Sehun wondered. "He's probably puking; you should have seen the way he was eating." Kyungsoo lied quickly before following the gone boy.

 

Kai had run into his room. He Sat on his bed and hugged his knees as he allowed his tears to fall out. "Kai." Kyungsoo called as he entered the room. "I don't know what's wrong me, I'm usually so good." Kai said, referring to his ability of hiding his feelings. 

 

Chanyeol finished eating and went upstairs. Baekhyun pretended to have finished and followed him to the bathroom. They washed their hands and Baekhyun was looking at him the whole time. Throughout these three days, Baekhyun noted Chanyeol's expression. He had looked as if his emotions left him. He didn't smile he didn't frown. He didn't move his face at all except for when he was talking or chewing. When he wasn't eating or practicing, he was laying on his bed; same way as always. Baekhyun was seriously annoyed. He tried ignoring him and hanging out with Chen, but it just doesn't work. He needs Chanyeol. He decided he didn't care anymore, he just wants Chanyeol back. As Chanyeol was laying, Baekhyun came in the room. "Yah! No more games, Chanyeol." He started. "You will come back right now." He demanded. Chanyeol didn't move so Baekhyun only got angrier. He tried to force Chanyeol up but he wasn't strong enough. "Do you want me to hate you!?" Baekhyun almost yelled. "I don't like her, it was a lie." Baekhyun tried to lie. It didn't work. "Chanyeol, I love you! I love you, okay?" Baekhyun tried anything and everything, nothing worked. He thought of an idea but immediately shook it off. He couldn't do that. But what if it works? And if it doesn't, he would waste his time. But it seems like it would work. Baekhyun was running out of ideas so, he decided to do it. He was going to kiss Chanyeol. He pecked the other's lips and he felt himself go deeper as hands were going around his body in some sort of a hug. Chanyeol was kissing him back. Chanyeol was now sitting up, arms around Baekhyun's body and lips on Baekhyun's. Baekhyun didn't want to admit it but he enjoyed the kiss. They kissed for a few more minutes before Baekhyun realized what was happening and pulled away. When they opened their eyes, Baekhyun blushed lightly as the giant's entire face turned red. He looked embarrassed. Baekhyun just widened his eyes, still processing what just happened. After a while, Baekhyun smirked. "Got you." He joked. Chanyeol widened his eyes and covered his face. Baekhyun laughed. "Are you okay?" Baekhyun asked hoping for a positive answer. Chanyeol didn't remove his hands. Baekhyun sat on the bed and forced his hands off. When the hands came off, Baekhyun saw Chanyeol's tears. "Yah...why are you crying?" Baekhyun wondered. Chanyeol just hid his face again. He was really embarrassed. "Yah! I didn't kiss you for nothing, okay?" Baekhyun yelled angrily. Chanyeol removed his hands. His face looked like a wet tomato. Baekhyun would have laughed on a normal day but, he was angry now. "Why were you so emotionless anyway?" Baekhyun asked him. More tears came out of Chanyeol's eyes. "I'm sorry..." He apologized. "It hurts, Baekhyun. You don't know how much it hurts." Chanyeol told him. "But you already know I like girls. Why are you reacting now that I like someone? Why didn't you get this sad when I told you the first time?" Baekhyun asked. "I was sad. I'm always sad. But, I can't handle you liking someone that isn't me. I'm sorry. I know I'm selfish, but that's just how you make me feel." Chanyeol said. "Just because you're upset doesn't mean you have to become a robot." Baekhyun said quietly. "I didn't want to cry." Chanyeol told him. "I think I would rather a loud obnoxious Chanyeol than a quiet Chanyeol that only eats and sleeps." Baekhyun said truthfully. Chanyeol smiled a little. "Anyway, please never act like that again. It's annoying." Baekhyun told him and he nodded. "Can we talk about the kiss...?" Chanyeol nervously wondered. "Why did you kiss m-me?" Baekhyun looked at his lips for a second before looking back into his eyes. "I did it because I didn't know how else to break you from your trance. I didn't think it would take that long." He said. "Did you like it?" Baekhyun smirked. "Of course!" Chanyeol immediately retorted. "Ah! I mean, um..." Baekhyun giggled. "D-did you..?" He asked his voice shaking. Baekhyun looked at him. "What do you want to hear?" He joked. Chanyeol embarrassingly turned his head and played with his fingers. Baekhyun didn't want him to know but decided to joke. He leaned in and whispered in his ear. "Of course, I liked it." Baekhyun laughed as he saw Chanyeol's reaction. "You're too cute, Yeollie." There it is. The nickname that always made Chanyeol's heart stop. There was something about that nickname that was so affectionate; it stopped Chanyeol's heart from beating.

 

Sehun came over to the couch and saw Chanyeol laying on Baekhyun's lap, playing with his hand. He then realized Kai was next to them. He was staring at the TV screen. Sehun was sure he wasn't paying attention to what was happening on the show. "What are you watching?" Sehun decided to ask. "I don't know." Kai simply answered. Sehun rolled his eyes. He sat on the couch and changed the channel. He came here to watch his show and Kai is definitely not using the TV. Sehun's been acting indifferent towards Kai. Kai doesn't care or, it seems that way. Having nothing better to do, Kai got up and was headed to the kitchen. "Can you get me a drink?" Sehun suddenly asked. Kai just entered the kitchen and saw Suho cleaning. "Where's hyung?" Kai asked him. He didn't even have to precise who. "Out." Suho told him. "He'll be here soon." Kai nodded and decided to get Sehun his drink. When he went to him, he handed him the Orange soda he picked out. Sehun didn't take it. Kai waved it in front of him to catch his attention. "I don't want soda." Sehun said. Kai rolled his eyes and went back to the kitchen. He took a grape flavored juice since it was right in front of him. Another wave in front of Sehun's face. "I don't like grape." Another trip to the kitchen. "I'm not in the mood for lemonade." And another. "Apple juice is too sweet." And again. "Hmm..." Sehun started. Kai was getting annoyed. Why was he even doing this? Sehun was now examining the strawberry juice Kai was holding. "Actually I think--" Sehun started but was interrupted. "No, you know what, Sehun? You either take this or go get one yourself." Kai finally let out. Sehun blinked twice before continuing. "I was going to say I want strawberry." He told him. "Oh." Kai gave him the juice and was about to go. "Actually one more thing, Kai?" Sehun said and Kai turned around slightly. "Why do we have so much juice anyway?"

 

 

Kai stomped into his room and shut the door. ""Why do we have so much juice, anyway?"" Kai imitated Sehun in a weird high pitched voice. "Damn you, Sehun. Why do you have to be so cute?" Kai growled. "Who's cute?" Kai jumped when he heard that. Who was in his room and why didn't he notice him? He looked and saw Kris on Kyungsoo's bed, using the said boy's laptop. "What, Kris hyung what are you doing here?" Kai asked still a bit shocked. "Not important. Did you say Suho is cute? Because if you did, I'm telling him." Kris said. "Umm no... I didn't say Suho." Kai quietly claimed. "Who then?" Kris asked. Kai mentally slapped himself for getting himself in this situation. "I said Seohyun..." Kai tried his best to keep a straight face. "SNSD sunbaenim?" Kris asked and Kai nodded. Kris seemed to have believed him as he just went back to whatever he was doing on Kyungsoo's laptop. "I'm so telling her." Kris then said. Kai sighed, annoyed. Whatever... Kai thought. He doesn't like her so it shouldn't matter if she misunderstands. "What are you doing?" Kai asked. "Nothing important." He repeated. "Why are you on hyung's computer?" Kai wondered. "Because Xiumin is in our room and he won't shut up. And downstairs is the noisiest place ever when the members come home. Kyungsoo usually lets me use his things anyway." Kris told him. "Kai!" Someone was heard calling from downstairs. As soon as Kai heard it, he sprinted to the source. He went inside the kitchen and there he was: Kyungsoo. He ran up to him and hugged him. "Finally! I was so bored!" Kai exclaimed. "Sorry. I should have asked if you wanted to come." Kyungsoo said. "No, I wouldn't have wanted to." Kai told him as he helped him put away the food. Sehun then came in looking inside the bags. "What'd you bring? I'm hungry." Kai glared at the younger boy. "What?" Sehun asked, noticing the boy's gaze. "Nothing." Kai said as he turned his head away. He went back to glaring when the younger drifted his attention. Sehun felt it again but knew he would deny it if he asked him about it so he decided to ignore him. After Kai helped Kyungsoo put away the food, Kyungsoo started to cook. Sehun was just sitting on the table watching them the whole time. "The food will take a while; you should go do something until it's done." Kyungsoo told Sehun. "What about Kai?" Sehun asked, pointing a finger at the boy. "Don't worry about Kai." Sehun reluctantly agreed. "You honestly seem more like a person who hates him rather than love." Kyungsoo joked. "Yeah well, I do kind of hate him." Kai agreed. Suho entered the kitchen with a crumby plate and an almost empty cup of juice. "I finished cleaning." Suho told him. "Well, I was until I found these in Kris, Xiumin and Luhan's room." Suho said as he went to the sink to wash them. "Thank you." Kyungsoo thanked him.

 

When lunch was ready, all the members came in the kitchen to eat. Kai was angrily chewing his food and glaring at Sehun at the same time. Sehun felt his gaze but ignored it. Kai went upstairs to wash his hands. He was mentally planning what he was going to do later. Suddenly the door opened and Sehun came in. Sehun didn't bat an eye and washed his hands normally. It was coincidence that they were both washing at the same time but, Kai suddenly got angry thinking Sehun came here on purpose. He glared at the boy for the nth time. He doesn't even know why he's so angry with him. He just was. Kai wasn't even washing now. When the other boy came in, he stopped washing completely and just stared at him. Sehun finished washing and left. Finally, Kai was able to breathe. "God, I really hate that boy." Right when he said that, he froze. "I...hate him?" He asked himself. He decided to be sure. He ran out the bathroom and followed Sehun. Sehun was closing the door to his room and Kai quickly slid through the opening. When Sehun noticed him, he widened his eyes before putting on an annoyed expression. "What are you doing here?" Sehun asked him. "What are you doing here?" Kai retorted. "This is my room." Sehun told him. Kai slapped himself and Sehun eyed him weirdly. "Uhh..." Kai started, wondering what he should say. "Can you leave now?" Sehun asked him and Kai suddenly felt hurt. Sehun seemed to have noticed. "Sorry...but I see no reason for you to be here..." Sehun deadpanned. Kai didn't know why but he was actually hurt. Sehun did break their friendship a few days ago so there was nothing for him to do. He wanted to get it back. "I...don't hate you..." Kai realized. "Uh, okay..." Sehun was starting to get weirded out. When Kai realized he said that out loud, he slapped himself again. Sehun was starting to seriously question Kai's state. Kai had to think of something. He didn't have much time so he went for the first thing he thought of. Kai went over to Sehun's bed and layed comfortably on it. Sehun eyed him. Kai didn't say anything, he smirked. Sehun crossed his arms. "What are you doing?" He asked him. "What am I doing? You're the one standing around in the middle of the room, sit down." Kai countered. Sehun looked annoyed. He rolled his eyes and left the room. Kai's plan did not work out. Suddenly, D.O was heard calling from downstairs. Kai went to him. On his way to the kitchen, he passed Sehun, who was on his way back upstairs. He entered the kitchen and saw D.O leaning on the table Suho was sitting on. "What did you do?" D.O. asked him. Kai cocked his eyebrow. "Sehun came and complained." Kai widened his eyes. "What!?" He was in disbelief. "He said you were bothering him." Kai couldn't believe this. He was trying to make Sehun like him again. He sat on the table and dropped his head. "What were you doing?" Suho wondered. "I didn't do anything!" Kai complained. 

After a while of Suho and Kyungsoo talking to each other about something Kai decided not to listen to, they checked up on him. "Kai? Are you sure you're okay? What happened?" Kyungsoo asked him. Kai didn't answer. Kyungsoo put his hand on Kai's back. Kai slowly raised his head. Suho was also looking at him with concern. "I'm fine!" Kai angrily told them as he left upstairs. He entered his room angrily. He saw Kris there again but ignored him. He stomped over to his bed and layed on it, crossing his arms. He sighed. Kris eyed him. "What's up with you?" Kris asked him. "Nothing." Kai angrily claimed. Kris didn't believe him but decided not to provoke him. Later, Kai wanted to use the bathroom. He went and was about to open the door but he heard it lock. "Yah!" He yelled angrily. "I won't be long." He heard Sehun yell back. Of course it was Sehun. Great... Kai thought. He waited with his arms crossed. When he was finally done, Kai glared at him. Sehun ignored him as he walked to his room.

 

Later, at night, Kai couldn't sleep so he decided to go downstairs. He was on his way to the kitchen, to eat a little midnight snack, but stopped at the bottom of the stairs. He suddenly didn't want to eat anymore. He couldn't sleep though, so he decided to watch TV. When he the TV, he heard weird noises. He was about to lower the volume but realized the TV already had really low volume. The noise was coming from reality. He turned his head and saw the lights in the kitchen were on. He guessed someone else had the idea of a midnight snack. He put on his favorite channel and watched a show until he fell asleep.

 

The next morning, he was woken by Kyungsoo. "Kai. Why are you sleeping here? Is there a problem?" Kai just looked up at him. He tried to remember what happened. He couldn't really remember much so he just shook his head. "Breakfast is ready, if you're hungry." Kyungsoo let him know before going back to the kitchen. Since he was already awake, he decided to go eat. He entered the kitchen and saw everyone there. They were all already halfway done. He must've slept in. He sat down in one of the two empty seats and put food on his plate. He looked around and saw Sehun. He got a weird feeling in his stomach. He kept looking at him for some reason. He remembered being angry with him yesterday but couldn't remember why. He kept looking at him without a reason to. He immediately shifted his gaze when the younger boy looked up. When he thought it safe to look back, he saw annoyance in his face. He suddenly lifted his head quickly and looked straight at him, annoyance deepening. Kai widened his eyes slightly. Their eye contact lasted a least a minute before Sehun broke the silence between them and got everyone's attention. "What's your problem?" Sehun openly questioned him. Everyone looked at them with curiosity in their eyes. Kai shook his head slightly and sadly looked back on his food. He didn't dare look back at Sehun the rest of the time. He just ate his food quietly. When Lay left, Suho, Kai and D.O were left and the latter decided to see how Kai is doing. "Kai." He called him. Kai looked up, he looked clearly hurt. "What happened?" He asked him. "I just...looked at him..." He answered in a whisper. "Why would he get so upset?" Suho wondered. "I guess...I looked at him a lot...and yesterday... And every day before that..." He realized. Kyungsoo nodded, in acknowledgement. Suho kept looking at him. "Why?" He asked him. Kai didn't answer. Suho looked at Kyungsoo who was looking at him. Kyungsoo didn't answer him either. Ignored and confused, Suho got up and went to the fridge to grab a drink. "Is he really angry?" Kyungsoo asked. "He's been angry since yesterday." Kai told him. "I don't know what's wrong with me, every day I have a new emotion." Suho was listening while drinking his water. He was trying to come up with a conclusion but couldn't think of anything. He walked back to the table and sat back down. "Like what?" He wondered. "Like, yesterday I was so angry with him. But today, I was just curiously watching him." Suho thought for a minute. "Wait, aren't you and Sehun friends? You're always together." Suho said. "We were. He broke off our friendship a while ago." Kai told him. Kyungsoo rubbed his back in consolation. "Why?" Suho continued to ask. Kai thought about it. Could he tell him? Is it too much? He looked up at Kyungsoo for an answer. He shrugged. He decided to tell him. "He broke it off because I wouldn't tell him who I liked." He admitted. Suho looked at him expecting for him to continue and tell him who he liked. When he didn't, he let out an "Ah~!" as he understood everything. "So you, Sehun!" He exclaimed, pointing at him then at the wall that the stairs were on the other side of. "He's your...?" He couldn't seem to understand, maybe he shouldn't have been told. Kai nodded. "Ah...umm..." Kyungsoo then got up and looked at him. "There isn't a problem right?" Suho shook his head. "I just didn't think I would meet a--" he got interrupted. "Finish that sentence and you won't live to meet anyone!" Kyungsoo threatened him. Suho just nodded. "Right. Sorry, Kai." Kai nodded. They heard noises of something falling. Then, Sehun came in, slightly limping. Kai couldn't stop himself and started laughing. "Hahahaha! You idiot! You fell down the stairs again, didn't you!?" Kai exclaimed loudly, still laughing. Sehun looked embarrassed as he blushed lightly. He kept walking to the fridge and grabbed a juice before turning and leaving again. As he was about to leave, Kai cackled behind him. Sehun furrowed his brows as he exited. Kyungsoo and Suho were looking at Kai the whole time that Sehun was there. "If you treat him like that..." Kyungsoo started. "...No wonder he hates you." Suho continued. Kai looked at them and widened his eyes for a second before returning it to normal. "I only started being this rude to him after the break up." Kai told them. "You think it's a reflex?" Suho wondered. They looked at him. "Because you're upset?" Kai shook his head. "I don't know, I've changed so much since then."


Sorry it's late. It's actually been done for like a week or something. i just didn't have time to update also because i was worried of its horrible ending. Actually i don't like this chapter very much but, some parts are important. I'm in the process of writing three different parts. I don't know how to put them together but, i think next chapter will be about baekyeol. Are you all annoyed? A hunhan fic sure has a lot of baekyeol, right? They're a side story but i like their story. I hope you dont mind. But, i am still writing Xiuhanhun drama. I am also trying to figure out how Sehun will ever forgive Kai. I mean, obviously, Kai has to tell him who he likes. But, Kai is never doing that.

Thank you to Sanafatima  for helping me think of a title.

I seriously don't know what else to write. Sorry if something's unclear. Look forward to the next chapter?

 

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1lover
#1
Chapter 19: NOOOOOOO DO NOT END IT!!!!!
Sanafatima #2
Chapter 19: Noooo I have been waiting for a chapter !!! But honestly it is up to you and if you can't continue it I understand completely.


I write occasionally ( for my self not for others) and if I am not feeling the story I find it hard to complete it and make it good and it turns out to be rushed and all over the place it's better if you find inspiration and then come back to it if not quiting is the option your gonna take.
Pandagurlz #3
Chapter 19: No don't delete it I really like this story. Please continue.
JuliOnyx
#4
Chapter 1: the story format is kinda disturbing though... convo's should be not part of the paragraph... it should only be sentences only..
Sanafatima #5
Chapter 18: Awee layyy poor him I am loving his Charecter
I feel sehuns pain awe bless him
I can never hate Xiumin
Luhan needs to accept the truth that he's gay!!!
Sanafatima #6
Chapter 17: I am Guessing the sounds from the kitchen was Xiumin aweeee poor xiu I feel soo bad for him
At least sehun and Kai went down better than expected
Poor lay tho I want some sulay action now :OO
Sanafatima #7
Chapter 16: I am dieing to know what the sounds are ands who's behind them !!
Sanafatima #8
Chapter 15: You should call it "death glares" or " confusing emotions" with the whole chan and Kai being emotional/ emotionless
Sanafatima #9
Chapter 14: Please do Kaisoo and I really want luhan to like seuhn but poor Xiumin :'(