If You Even Noticed-- Back Story
If You Even NoticedAnna's Perspective
Today in class, it was a self-study day.
As I had been trapped in the world of my book and it's beautiful mysteries, a man known as Lee Geun Won a.k.a one of the top guys in school came up to my desk.
He broke out in a nice smile.
Geun Won: Hey, Anna-ssi, would you like go to the dance with me?
"Weren't you going with Kim Yoo Jin?"
Geun Won: We broke up, and yeah.
I rolled my eyes and went back to my book.
Geun Won: Come on, it won't hurt for you to go and dance with me?
I hesitantly considered, I mean I do like the guy but I'm friends with Yoo Jin and its, like, in the girls' code.
Ugh, I feel so bad for what I'm about to do but I am way too old to still be single.
Plus, highschool is the time to be making mistakes, in my opinion.
"Sure, why not."
Geun Won: Cool, I'll pick you up at 6.
The dance was in a week and that week was officially the worst week of my life.
The next day, I had entered into school and tried to talk to my friends.
Yoo Jin: Anna, how could you go to the dance with my ex-boyfriend?!?
"I'm sorry, but I also had a crush on him."
She had slapped me in the face and said: Backstabbing B*tch
I had to go to the nurse and get and ice pack, man, she hit me so hard it left a red mark.
I had skipped a class and stayed at the nurse's office but when I had gone back, whispers emerged in the room.
I had walked to my seat only to be tripped by Yoo Jin.
Whatever, this was somewhat expected.
I went back to my seat and pulled out my book.
It looked normal but as I went through all the pages, it had been scribbled on.
Traitor. B*tch. Liar. You deserve to die. Trash. . . Worthless peice of sh*t.
Every page I went through, numerous writing on it.
Tears formed and threatened to fall.
I closed the book and wiped my ready to fall tears.
Classmate #1: What a faker, acting pitiful by crying. Why don't you apologize for what you did to Yoo Jin?
Classmate #2: Yeah, Anna, you caused all this.
Yoo Jin: Everyone, please stop.
Classmate #3: Why?
Yoo Jin laughs: Because, trash like that doesn't deserve my forgiveness.
People in class started to snicker and then...
Someone threw paper at me.
I felt so humiliated, I got up and left the classroom and school only to hear the classmate shouting multiple hating comments.
Don't come back! Drop dead!
I went to a library and deep in a corner where books were surrounding me, I cried with all my heart.
The clerk had noticed when she went to arrange the books and comforted me.
Clerk: Are you okay?
"I-I did somet-thing h-hor-rible and the s-school is bul-ly-ing me."
I say in-between cries.
Clerk: Oh, it'll be okay, I promise. Here, sit down on a table and I'll make you some tea.
I had stopped crying, thanks to the nice clerk, but I was still feeling really depressed.
Later, I went home and into my room, to cry more.
It had felt like every emotion I had pent up or anything that I had to accept had just exploded.
I had a severe case of anxiety when all this happened.
So, my mother went to the pharmacy and got me some pills.
I layed onto my bed and grabbed my pillow to muffle my crying.
I suddenly heard multiple beeping messages on my SNS page.
Die. Pig. . Ugly. Fake. Fall off the face of the earth. Kill yourself.
I turned off my phone for the night and skipped school for the week.
The next morning, I had woken to see my eyes puffy and cheeks red.
My phone had constant messages but there was one from Geun Won.
Geun Won: Hey, Anna. I have to stand you up, sorry. I was using you. Yoo Jin got so jealous that she finally got back together with me! Thanks for your help.
I dropped my phone after reading that.
My heart had crashed in a million peices and grounded into dust.
Picking up the phone, I looked even further on my SNS page.
Loser. He only used you to get to back with a girl. Pitiful. e.
That was the spread of a new rumor.
I had apparently become a to the school.
In reality, I've never had a boyfriend.
Why even tell them though?
To hear that I'm just some loser?
Whatever; I'm heading into town.
I had stopped by the bookstore once again.
The clerk was really concerned but I went to show her I was okay, and to get a new book.
Clerk: Hi, are you feeling a bit better?
"Yeah, thank you for caring for me. My family called the school so I could have the week off. Also, they had ruined one of my books so I'm hear to get another one."
I unconciously went into the 'Psychology' aisle.
There were many books that really stood out.
I had grabbed them all.
'The positive side'
'Symptoms of an unfair life'
I went to grab one that said 'Ways the mind works' but someone else had grabbed it.
That's where I met someone that changed my life and help me cope with school.
His name was Hunter.
He says he had gone through the bullying process before.
This was apparently a method.
Hunter, basically, became my psychological guru.
We sat together at a table.
Hunter: I'll have to admit something first. I was actually the bully.
"Doesn't really matter. The past is the past and the present is how you make of it."
Hunter: I think of myself and righting the wrongs. Which is what I'll help you with.
"How will you do that?"
Hunter: It's a simple 3 step process. The first step is Depression. Knowing about everything all one can do is cry to relieve the pain.
"Check."
Hunter: The second step is Recovery. After all the crying one must realize it is a waste of time to just cry over it.
"Working on that."
Hunter: And the final step is Acceptance. Overcome what has happened and, instead of moping around, shock them with a powerful change. The guy I had bullied used these three steps and he stood up to me. If you saw him, it was like seeing a whole new student. New hair, new style, new personality. We became friends and now I am passing on his ways.
"That's amazing! But, how did he overcome that depression?"
Hunter: He thought of everything he would be leaving behind. Hell, the little rascal even thought of me.
If I thought about it, I'm leaving behind: Mom,Dad, music, myself...
"Your right."
I immediately stood up.
"Thanks Hunter, this was really helpful and I'm going to go complete stage three."
Hunter waved his hand up: See you around, and cheer up munchkin.
Then I came back.
"Right after I buy a new book or two."
Funny. The books I bought this time weren't the ones I had.
'Way of the bird'
'Metamorphosis'
I had gone to the beauty salon.
"Do what you want, I want a full transformation. I'm looking for a rebellious feel. I put myself in your care."
Few hours later and I was finally done.
Stylist: Do you like it?
I got up and looked into the mirror.
"Like it? I love it, if you do this good, I should keep coming here."
The stylist laughed: Ooh, just wait a while longer for your hair to dry, if we use a blowdryer, it will give a damaged look.
"Ok, thank you."
While I was waiting, a couple of classmates with Yoo Jin came into the same salon.
Doesn't seem like they recognize me, which is good.
Yoo Jin: That witch really thought Geun Won liked her? She must have been a few sticks short of a hint.
Classmate #1: Yeah, it was obvious that he still like you.
Classmate #2: I heard that she skipped school to go e herself.
Jesus, don't they have anything better to talk about.
Stylist: Alright, you hair is dried and you can go now.
I put on sunglasses.
"I'd like to apologize for what I'm about to do and I'll pay for the damages."
She gave me a questioning look as I walked over the girls and Yoo Jin.
As I did, I kicked each of their chairs over.
Yoo Jin: Ajumma! What the ?!
"Get a life instead of talking about someone else's."
Once I walked out of the salon, man, that felt so good!
I should really thank Hunter for all he has done.
The sun is so bright, it was a perfect day for my metamorphosis.
My family had also been pretty shocked with what I did but none the less, they didn't dissaprove of it.
The next day, I went to school.
As the wind blew my hair and, for once, I had never been this confident.
I walked passed people as they talked about my appearance.
In somewhat annoyance, also to finally stand up for myself, I banged on the locker and glared at them all.
I went into the roudy classroom that soon became silent with murmers and whispers.
I sat at my desk and began to read the book.
And, oh, here comes the clique.
Yoo Jin: Well, well, well. Look who decided to show up.
That's when someone cough-whispers. ""
I remained silent, she can't hurt me anymore.
Yoo Jin started touching my hair.
Yoo Jin: This color looks really familiar.
I slapped her hand away.
"Oh really, from what I see, you guys look like the grandma brigade"
Student: Watch your mouth... or should I say clean it.
People snickered a bit and I let out a sigh.
"That's what you do behind you boyfriend's back."
The student banged on my desk at which I got up.
"What? Afraid I'm gonna spill it like you did."
She pushed me back.
Student: What do you know?
Another push.
Student: I can make sure you don't live to see another day.
Another push.
Student: Hell, I can hunt you down and make you suffer.
Right, when she was going to push me again, I grabbed her wrist and twisted it.
Student: Augh!
I dragged her back to her desk and smashed her head against it.
"If you wanna play it that way, fine, from now on you're trash that will do my every bidding...whether you like it... or not."
I went up to the desk, I even got to skip a bit.
I punched down the table as it made a dent.
"Any that tries anything with me again will end up like her."
Then, the teacher walks in.
Teacher: Hey, Heo Anna, what the hell do you think your doing?
I gave her a look and smirked.
Then, I pointed to the girl with a nosebleed and tilted my head ever so slighty.
"Would you like to know? Like your precious student there?"
He looks fightened.
"J-just take your seat. And someone take her to the nurse."
After I sat down, I let out a sigh of relief.
I'm not often- I'm not ever that violent and... well evil but....
I have a feeling this will finally be a great year...
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