In the life of jiyong it was very common to have nightmares

 

Since he was only a child, their huge desire to surpass himself, toward that at some moments ....

 

In his deep loneliness

 

The insecurity will find him

 

It have been many times that he had awakened from a nightmare in which he lost everything with blood on their own nails, because he had been clawing himself hard

 

Stress always had been with him

 

He always hated wasting time

 

this time, he had spent the entire week in the studio

 

Without getting even a gram of inspiration

 

and now His insecurity was back

 

Perhaps, it was possible that his ideas and inspirations someday will end forever?

 

And if this was true ....

 

What will be of him?

 

That week he had been arguing nonstop with kiko

 

Again

 

She wanted to break the relationship

 

Again

 

The president asked constantly the updates of the album

 

But it seemed that the album did not advance ....

 

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Taeyang woke up that night with his cries

 

As a good friend he was, and over the years he knew Jiyong, it was common for him to get up in the morning and with only see his face know that nightmares were winning him every night

 

But he never ever had awakened before with his screams ...

 

When he was leaving the hall he  saw maknae bigbang, leaning against the wall

 

- Hyung .... I do not know that we could do, this time seems worse than ever

 

Taeyang saw the worried young face as he wondered if there was really anything they could do ...

 

The house was silent, only the agonizing jiyong sounds broke the silence of the night.

 

Taeyang knew the professionalism of GD was something superhuman ....

 

Nobody could keep up

 

At least no less ...

 

Taeyang suddenly smiled while seungri looked at him with surprise

 

-chaerin! We need to chaerin!

 

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It was too late at night when a sleepy chaerin opened the bedroom door to find a nervous seungri

 

-panda...? what...? You are going to wake up the girls.

 

- Kitten we really need your help ....

 

There was only one reason for someone like seungri will need ever her help ...

 

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Stress always been able to overcome jiyong. ...

 

The always, endless work, and unjustified criticism, forced him to the to be better than ever ... no, ..... not be better, be the best.

 

When chaerin came to his door she opened it carefully without knocking

 

Jiyong had his arms full of scratches.

 

She sat next to him, covered him with another blanket and his hair trying to give him the most comfort she will able to and so she try to help jiyong with his now hard breathing

 

chaerin felt her heart lurched .., the scratches, thank God, this time it was not deep, but they were created by such desperation of not wanting to sleep , afraid of heard those words again.

 

he began to feel again that loneliness

 

He dreamed that his fans are tired of their music

 

his parents repeating the words "you are worthless"

 

His group, his friends turning their back going away from him

 

Betraying his beloved...

 

Kiko had turned away from him saying that he was an ordinary person just with luck and maybe just maybe, she was right

 

Jiyong used to wake up several times during the night gasping, and if he was lucky that night, he will wake up surrounded by calming of her soft arms and her whisper sweet words

 

Then it will came the little fight in which he would beg her to stay at his side in bed .... that she would not leave him alone

 

And chaerin would complain because that's wasn't right

 

Because people might misinterpret it

 

Because they could get into troubles...

 

but he would not mind....

 

because she would stay

 

And the rest of the night he wouldn't have bad dreams....

 

The rest of the night he would get the rest he most desired, so when the sun rises he can return to the hard work

 

Without thinking even once why he sleep so well with her in his arms, meanwhile his cruel mind reminds him that he still has a relationship with Kiko

 

He says to himself that he isn't selfish

 

He says to himself that he doesn't love her

 

He simply needs her

Is that have sense?

 

He wakes up this time with a completely lowered blind.

Plunging the room into darkness purest

 

He notes by weight of a head on his chest

 

And then remember that chaerin came last night to see him.

 

But when his hand through his hair slides discovers it is too short....

 

too straight...

 

And even with the all room in darkness he knew it.., the hair on her hand is not blonde

 

- Ji? Are you awake!

 

She stand up and placed a soft kiss on his lips and before he could respond, she leads him to the dining room

 

In which he sees a delicious meal

 

But Kiko don't cook

 

- I hope you're hungry....

 

He directs his gaze from the table to her face

 

- but Kiko you don't know how to cook hahahaha

 

- Hahaha ... well ... chaerin ... she did it... actually I just help her...

 

Jiyong laughs and looks at her

 

He loves her?

 

Yes

 

But he loves her just as a good friend

 

That was all, and now he knows it

 

- I've missed you, and when she called me ... I came running... I literally took the first plane I found ... I haven't come to Korea until a few hours ago .... I had to be with you .. . I love you ji .... I ... I'm so sorry ... for everything ... we need to start from zero please babe

 

She looks me in the face and expect me to answer

 

She expects me to tell her i love you too

 

she expects me to also say that I missed her too

 

- What happened when you came here? I'm sure Chaerin came here last night ... didn't she?

 

- You don't have to worry about that anymore,  it's true that I have been a little with her, but I was really jealous .... you .... she ... but she explained it everything to me, and I understand it now ... but you aren't going to need her anymore , I have asked two months of vacations, Ji ..., so I can stay here with you now ji ... we can make it work ... I know we can ...

 

A shiver ran the back of jiyong

 

- What you have done?

 

- I...

 

- Kiko ...

 

- when I arrived to see you, I was so happy, we finally going to have time to talk and solve it everything .... but when I arrive, I came here and I see her in your bed, and you two were hugging each other and the ...

 

- Kiko I had a fever and I was very cold, she stayed to take care of me but she was also very tired, what you wanted me to do?

 

Jiyong heard murmured kiko but he didn't get to know what she said ....

 

- answer me!

 

She avoided his gaze and looked down

 

- Kiko what have you done ?! Answer me!

 

- I Hit her ... but .... but then she explained me everything, and now it's all okay ji ...

 

- You have done .... what?!?!

 

He ran, ran with his life

 

When he arrived at the apartment 2NE1, he ring the bell urgently

 

A one bomnuna angry opened the door and hit him with a slap

 

- How could you ?!

 

-unnie leave him .. annyeong-haseyo oppa

 

Chaerin cheekbone was swollen red and she had a really tearful eye

 

Helplessly he ran to her and hugged her tightly

 

- Chae I'm sorry, hunchae, I'm really sorry

 

- Oppa ... are you crying?

 

She tender touched his cheek

 

- I'm sorry ... I'm so sorry

 

- Oppa I ...

 

He kissed

 

He kissed her hard

 

He thought she depart him but she held him tightly and kissed back

 

- I'm sorry

 

- Eh ... I know I know it now...

 

- Kiko and I ...

 

Jiyong shut up but chaerin prompted him to keep talking

 

- Kiko and you ....?

 

- I swear you it's absolutely over

 

- Of course it's over! You! You told me she was nothing for you! And you! Do you said you didn't feel anything for him!

 

- Kiko our relationship is over since long time ago, and now you've outdone yourself!

 

- Ji... but I love you!

 

then bom exploded and she pushed kiko to the door

 

- You have not heard? get out!

 

- You're bom right? the junkie !, so you better shut up! Okay? shut up!

 

Chaerin saw, as the eyes of bom the first tears began to be created and that really got to her

 

- Get out of my house. now

 

- What's up? blonde?, now you dare to take out the claw?

 

- Get out of my ing house! now! You're nobody to come here after hitting me in the face and now pretend that I'm the guilty one, least come here to insult her! Do you hear me! out! You are nothing out!

 

When Kiko left the apartment chaerin turned to see bomunnie

 

- Chae thanks .... you know I never cared what people like her, think ... but thank you for being you .... in times like these is that none of us could have had a better leader best sister and best friend ...

 

Chaerin do not know what to say so she just nodded as the tears streamed down her cheeks, the girls embraced each other, and when they separated bom looked at her and smiled

 

- Now I'll leave you alone a few hours, okay? Hihi love you clroo

 

- And I unnie ..

 

The door closed carefully, and chaerin, turned to look at jiyong

 

The two looked at each other and smiled

 

They knew things were going to change

 

And they did

 

Each night they slept together

 

And this time, jiyong do not have bad dreams

 

And if he had a nightmare, when he woke, chaerin, was always there

 

Always.