I'm so tired today cause we PINK PUNK have perform in 5 events today and it's really tiring. Thanks God we already in the way to our dorm while our cute maknae already sleeping soundly beside me followed by Hanna and Jinny while Jenny still check our schedule for tomorrow and Jisoo unnie still remove her make up

 

“Girls we arrive “ manager oppa inform us

 

“Neh oppa “ I say while oppa nod and get our baggage

 

“Sua, we arrive babygirl “

 

“Jinny a , Hanna , we arrive “Jenny call then while Sua already open her eyes

 

“Come on babygirl “I say while she still rubbing her eyes

 

I go out from the car and help Jisoo unnie to get our baggage

 

“Thank you for your hard work oppa “we bow while manager oppa smile

 

“Thank you also for your hard work today babies “oppa say while pat my head

 

“Mirae unnie already waiting you guys “oppa say make me nod while I notice all my members already walked towards us

 

“Thank you for your hard work oppa “they say while bow make oppa chuckles

 

“Neh~~”

 

“I will pick up you guys at 10 tomorrow, get a rest babies “oppa remind us while we nod

 

When we enter our dorm, Mirae unnie already help us get all the baggage

 

“Did you guys eat? “Unnie ask

 

“Not yet omma “Sua answer while hug Mirae unnie

 

Because Sua is the youngest in our group, we like to pamper her like baby and even Mirae unnie also treat her as a baby that's why Sua get so much love from us

 

“Aigoo , my poor baby “unnie say while caressing Sua cheek

 

“I already make the dinner just warm it Jisoo a “unnie say while Jisoo unnie nod and walk towards the kitchen

 

“Guys just take a bath first I will help Jisoo unnie “I tell them

 

I help Jisoo unnie preparing our dinner and after set the table I call the girls to take their dinner before we have to practice our voices

 

“Jisoo unnie try the higher notes its sound flat if you do like that “ I say while unnie nod

 

“Sua try more concern about the pronunciation “I say make Sua nod

 

“I think we done tonight, thank you for today girls you guys amazing “I say while bow make they smile

 

“Thanks for the hard work “I bow while the others smile

 

“Thanks to you too rinnie “Jisoo unnie said while she walk out

 

This how we end our day , we always want make our sajangnim proud of us and we also don't want our agency ashamed cause of us

 

After I tuck Sua in the bed , I back to my bed while checking my phone and find there so many messages

 

From: Jiyongie Oppa

 

Babygirl, when you finish your schedule please call me

 

From: Chaerinie Unnie

 

Nirin a, unnie have back to LA tomorrow can we meet today?

 

From: Mino Oppa

 

Rin , why don't you come to YGE today? Did something happen?

 

From: Omma Kwon

 

Uri rinnie ,

Omma miss you uri agil

Omma Keep praying for you baby

 

From: Z oppa

 

Vi, how are you?

 

“ Aigoo,I have to call Chae unnie “

 

N: unnie

Cl: finally you call me rin

N: mian unnie, we just finished our practice

Cl: aigoo you guys should be really tired

N: that's our duty unnie

Cl: did the girls already sleeping?

N: neh

Cl: it's okay for you if I pick up you now?

N: that's fine for me Unnie

Cl: be ready girl

 

Honestly, I'm really tired but I have go cause Chaerin unnie will back to LA tomorrow

 

N: hallo?

Cindy : wae?

N: where are you?

Cindy: apartment

N: get ready, pick up you in 30 minutes

Cindy: where to ?

N: Chaerin unnie condominium

Cindy: got it

 

Actually, I live with Cindy ,Jenny and Yoon unnie cause Jiyong oppa brought a new apartment for me as a give for PINK PUNK debut but when we have a tight schedule I will stay at PINK PUNK dorm

 

Cl: Rin , we already outside

N: coming unnie

 

I get my bag while walk out from my room

 

“Where you want to go rinnie?”Mirae unnie ask

 

“Chaerin unnie invite me to her condo “I answer

 

“Do you want me to waiting you?”Mirae unnie ask

 

“No need unnie, I will back to apartment “I answer

 

“Remember you have schedule at 10 to sbs, don't be late “Mirae unnie remain me

 

“Neh unnie “I say while hug her

 

“Na kanta “

 

I notice Jiyong oppa car parking beside our dorm

 

“Miane , I'm late oppa “ I say while enter the car

 

“Kwencana babygirl, you must be tired don't you ?? “Chaerin unnie ask

 

“I'm dying unnie “ I say while hug unnie from behind

 

“Hold on little longer babygirl, I know you can do it “ unnie smile

 

“You guys make me like a driver “Jiyong oppa joke

 

“We love you oppa “ we say unison

 

We continue tease each other until we pick up Cindy

 

N: we outside

Cindy: give me 5 minutes

N: neh

 

“So, oppa when we go to Miami you promise me last year “

 

“When you guys finish the comeback? “Oppa ask

 

“Maybe 6 months until we release the full album “I answer

 

“How about we go to Miami at Christmas?”oppa suggest

 

“That's good for me “Chaerin said

 

“I will tell manager hyung to clearing your schedule in November to January babygirl “oppa said make me squeal

 

“Miane , I'm late “Cindy said when enter the car

 

“Kwencana Cin “oppa said while Chaerin unnie hugging Cindy

 

“How work ?? “Chaerin unnie ask Cindy

 

“It's fine unnie” she answer

 

“Why don't you become PINK PUNK stylish Cin???” Chaerin unnie ask

 

“Yoon unnie already become their stylish unnie and I have responsibility take care Ikon and winner oppas “Cindy explain

 

“That's must be hard for you Cin “Chaerin unnie said

 

“Sometimes that's hard unnie but thanks God that all the oppas know to make we enjoy “Cindy said make Chaerin unnie smile

 

We heading to Chaerin unnie apartment

 

“The rookie idol finally come “ Harrin unnie greet me when I enter the condominium

 

“Don't say that unnie “ I say while hug her

 

“We miss you little baby “ Harrin unnie say

 

“I also miss you unnie but you know “ I tell her

 

“I know , keep fighting Nirin I know you can face it “ Harrin Unnie cheers me

 

“Hi Cindy “Harrin unnie greet Cindy while she bow

 

“You look beautiful more day by day “Harrin unnie

 

“Unnie “Cindy shyly say

 

“Aigoo , I miss the younger me “Harrin unnie continue

 

“You still 21 unnie “I said

 

“But you guys just 18 “Harrin unnie whine

 

“I miss you unnie “I change the topic cause Harrin unnie sometimes can be so dramatize

 

“But most of all Zico oppa miss you so much Rin “Harrin unnie whisper

 

“Unnie “ I whine

 

“I'm swear Rin, we meet last night and he tell me he miss you crazily “ Harrin unnie continue

 

“I think so unnie “Cindy added

 

“Unnie, he just kidding “

 

“How if he say the truth ?? “ Harrin Unnie ask me While I can't answer her question

 

“You not a baby anymore Rin, its okay if you date him “ Harrin unnie say

 

“I agree with that unnie “Cindy said

 

“Look even Cindy agree with me “Harrin unnie continue

 

“Date who ?? “Jiyong oppa suddenly ask make Harrin unnie shock

 

“Oppa”Harrin unnie shout

 

“Who want to date Lee Harrin?? Kwon Nirin??” Oppa ask both of us while Cindy already talk to seungri oppa leaving both of us

 

“No one Oppa “Harrin unnie answer but oppa rolled his eyes and face me

 

“Kwon Nirin??” Oppa ask me

 

“No one oppa “ I answer

 

“Oppa, Jiyong oppa “Chaerin unnie call

 

“Both of you pass today “ Jiyong oppa tell us while leave

 

“Unnie don't say that again , Jiyong oppa will angry for sure if he find the truth “ I say

 

“Just be calm Rin , we have Chaerin unnie “Harrin unnie tell me

 

I just can't tell anything to Harrin unnie, she will never stop tease me

 

“Via, I think you can't make it today “Bobby oppa say while hug me

 

“I will come no matter what oppa, I can't miss this party “ I say while oppa smile

 

“When you come Rin ? “ Mino oppa ask while hug me

 

“Just couple minutes ago oppa “I answer

 

“Zico hyung will come today “ Mino oppa inform me

 

“Assaaa, this will be perfect “ Harrin unnie happily say

 

“Wae Harrin a ?? You look so happy “Mino oppa smile

 

“You know oppa” Harrin unnie smile

 

“Aigoo this baby “ Mino oppa say while Harrin unnie already sit beside Bobby oppa

 

Well, Bobby oppa and Harrin unnie already date for 3 years since Bobby oppa trainer until now . Even at first Jiyong oppa don't approve their relationship , thanks God now Jiyong oppa already give his blessing for them

 

 

“Anyong haseo “Zico oppa greet Jiyong oppa when he enter the condominium

 

“I thought you can't come Zico a “ Jiyong hug Zico

 

“I can't miss this hyung “Zico oppa say while Jiyong oppa smile and they heading to living room

 

“Hyung “Mino oppa hug Zico while followed by Bobby oppa

 

“Hi oppa “Harrin unnie smile while hug Zico oppa

 

“Aigoo such a baby “ Zico oppa say while pinch Harrin unnie cheek

 

“Anyong oppa “ I say while bow

 

“Don't treatme like that Nirin a “ Zico oppa tell while hug me

 

“Miss you “Zico oppa whispers make me smile

 

Honestly, since my trainer days I already know Zico oppa cause he's so close to Mino , Bobby and Jiyong oppa , so he always visit YGE in his rest day  that's how we meet each other. And before my debut he confesses his feelings to me , but he don't push me to answer . He don't want burden me .

 

Actually , I also have feeling towards oppa , who don't love him?  He is the hottest rapper in Korea , he is the charming Leader of Block B , he also one of the producer in cube entertainment, how can I date him ??

 

“Thank you for coming today guys “ Chaerin unnie said

 

“Tomorrow I will back to LA for finishing my whole album there and maybe one years I can't back here “Chaerin unnie continue

 

“Please take care of my babyboy when I'm away “Chaerin unnie joke but Jiyong oppa already back hug her tightly

 

“And take care of my little baby also , she still leaning in this industry , I know it's hard for her but I know she can through this “ Chaerin unnie smile while my tears already flowing down

 

“Ah also please give much love for PINK PUNK “

 

“And last but not least, I want to thank my wonderful members for supporting me in every single things since we are debut until now , you guys are the reason why I'm still standing here right now “Chaerin unnie continue

 

“Aigoo our charismatic leader “ Bom unnie said

 

“Thank you also for coming this night Teddy oppa , Dok2 oppa ,Zico oppa, Nuthang crew , Xin , SooJo, Soohoc, and my fellas . I love you guys so much “Chaerin finish while we give applause

We continue the party, some of us enjoy the music, the others talking each other while the rest enjoy their food . Meanwhile Chaerin unnie and Jiyong opp nowhere can't found, maybe they need their privacy

 

I sat beside Harrin unnie with Bobby oppa , Mino oppa and the rest winner and ikon oppas .

 

“Vi , can't we talk ? “Zico oppa ask

 

“Make a fast move oppa “Harrin unnie tell Zico oppa

 

“Just keep it low Harrin a “Zico oppa say while smile

 

“Can I go unnie? “ I ask Harrin unnie

 

“Just go babygirl, I will take care of Jiyong oppa “Harrin unnie say while I nod

 

We walk to the balcony and both of us keep silence but it's not awkward moment

 

“Vi”Zico call make I face him

 

“I miss you “ he held my hand while I smile

 

“Na do oppa “ I say make he smile

 

“You must be tired don't you? “He ask while I rest my head in his shoulder

 

“It's hard oppa “I tell him

 

“I know babe, I know “he caresses my face

 

Babe ??? You guys must be wondering why he call me babe right?? Well actually both of us are dating but no one know even Harrin unnie and the oppas don't know about this cause we know Jiyong oppa will against if he knew and Ji ho oppa also scared it's will effect my career so we agree to backstreet yeah I call him Ji ho oppa cause I more like to call him that than his stage name cause it's make me small when I call him that

 

“Just hold on to me babe , I know you can do it “he tell me while I nod

 

“I love you so much babe, so much “he kiss my forehead while I hug him tightly

 

We already dating before I'm debut cause this charismatic oppa finally can persuade me and yeah we love each other and we still learning to make this relationship can more stronger

 

“Did you back to your dorm this night? “He ask But I shake my head

 

“So?? You stay here ?? “ he ask again but I shake my head again

 

“I back to apartment oppa, I don't want disturb Jiyong oppa and Chaerin unnie “ I tell him

 

“I will drive you there “ he tell

 

“Cindy will come with me oppa “ I remind him

 

“She will go with seungri hyung , babe “ he say

 

“But “ before I continue he cut me

 

“We don't meet each other for one month babe . I'm dying for missing you “ he continue make me hug him

 

“Sorry oppa, I'm to busy for the debut “I apologize to him

 

“That's fine honey , but now please let me drive you home “he say make me smile

 

“You make me crazy cause miss your beauty smile babe “he say while smile and caressing my face

 

“Don't fall in love with other idols “he remind me make me chuckle

 

“I'm serious “ he added

 

“ I know oppa and don't worry bout that “I tell him

 

“Kwon Nirin “Jiyong oppa voice calling me

 

“Just go babe, love you “ he quickly kiss my forehead

 

“See you later oppa “ I say while run to find Jiyong oppa

 

“Kwon Nirin “ Jiyong oppa shout again

 

“Neh oppa “ I answer

 

“Aigoo where are you from babygirl??”Jiyong oppa ask

 

“I calling Yoon unnie oppa, remind her I back to apartment “I answer

 

“I will drive you babygirl, just call when you want back “ Jiyong oppa said

 

“Hmm, oppa I can back with Cindy “ I tell him

 

“She also can't drive babygirl, both of you are my babies I can't let something happen to both of you “Jiyong oppa said

 

“I will drive them home hyung “seungri oppa suddenly said

 

“I don't believe you maknae “Jiyong oppa said

 

“Hyung you know me , I'm so scared of you and I can't do anything to them I promise “seungri oppa beg

 

“I will kill you for sure if something happens to them “Jiyong oppa warned

 

“Neh hyung “seungri oppa smile

 

“Just enjoy the party first “Jiyong tell while leaving me and seungri oppa

 

“How can you know what we talking bout oppa?” I ask him

 

“Zico tell me to help you little rinnie”seungri oppa smile

 

“And you can back with him while I will drive Cindy home “seungri oppa inform while smile

 

“Don't scared I will keep this alone, promise “ seungri oppa said make me nod

 

 

 

The party going smooth and everything so perfect now, Epic High oppas already leaving cause they have schedule in morning, the winner and ikon oppa also already leave beside Bobby and Mino oppa, minzy unnie also already leave cause she have class tomorrow morning while the others still dancing in the bar

 

Jiyong oppa and Chaerin unnie just watching from the couch while cuddling and I'm not kidding about their passionate gesture, Harrin unnie even have to cover my eyes cause you know the PDA

 

Jiho oppa sat beside me and he interlock our hands while he put our hands in his pocket

 

“Don't you have schedule tomorrow little rinnie? “Bobby oppa ask

 

“I do oppa at 10 “I answer

 

“Just go back first rinnie, get some rest “Bobby oppa tell me while Zico oppa nod

 

“Cindy and seungri oppa already outside “Harrin unnie added

 

“Just tell Jiyong oppa and go Rin “ Harrin unnie tell me again while I walk to Jiyong oppa

 

“How can you leave me alone for a long time babe??” Jiyong ask Chaerin

 

“ I have finish the album oppa you know it “ Chaerin answer

 

“But I will crazily missing you babe “Jiyong oppa said

 

“I know oppa and I also feel that but this is the consequence of our job “Chaerin unnie softly say

 

“Hunchae”Jiyong oppa just keep hugging Chaerin unnie

 

Hearing their conversation make me tearing already, both of them love each other so much but they can't even walk together freely, they can't even show the world how much they mean for each other. They have face all the rumors and they have to deny their relationship in every interview. How they can endure all this pain until now??

 

I notice the tears in Chaerin unnie eyes but she quickly wiped it before Jiyong oppa notice. Chaerin unnie always show her fierce and her bad girl images but no one know how fragile she is, since her debut until now there so many people hate her and bashing her with the negative comments but she never crying in front her members or in front us . She always become a tough woman but I know how many times unnie crying at her bed , I even have caught unnie crying in bathroom after the controversy of MTBD , but she begged me not to tell anyone and I keep my promise until now but in the deep of my heart I pity her.

 

“Oppa, unnie miane disturbing you but I have back now “I tell them

 

“Why you sorry bout that babygirl? “Chaerin unnie ask

 

“Don't do that again Kwon Nirin, you know I hate it , you're the part of my life , you're my beloved sister how can you think you disturbing us ??”Jiyong said

 

“Come here  babygirl, oh gosh I will miss you “Chaerin unnie hug me tightly make me softly crying

 

“Take care of your oppa babygirl, reminds him to eat and to take care of his health “Chaerin unnie tell me while my tears already flowing down

 

“Also you have to take care of your own health, don't catch flu or fever, always wear your masker , eat your vitamins don't skip your dinner just to diet “unnie continue

 

“Be more stronger in front your members, motivate them and take care of them “unnie say

 

“I know you can babygirl and I always know you can “unnie finish and broke the hug

 

“Why you crying rinnie ?? “Unnie ask while wiped my tears

 

“Unnie “I sob and hug her

 

“Aigoo my baby “unnie smile and hugging me

 

Jiyong oppa just keep silence watching both of us hugging each other but I know he also feel like me , but his ego don't let him look weak in front Chaerin unnie

 

“Come to LA when you finish the comeback rinnie “unnie said make me nod

 

“I love you so much rinnie “unnie smile

 

“Please be careful in there unnie and I love you so much “I said while unnie nod

 

“Oppa, na kanta “I said

 

“Be careful Rin “Oppa remind me

 

When I leaving Chaerin unnie condo and going to basement, I find seungri oppa and Cindy beside seungri oppa car while talking to Zico oppa and Mino  oppa

 

“Finally “Mino oppa smile

 

“Don't cry little Rin “Mino oppa hug me

 

“Chaerin Noona will be fine, we know it “Mino oppa continue

 

“Are you okay turtle?” Cindy ask

 

“I'm fine “I answer while she nod

 

Cindy never burned me to tell her about my problems, she wait the right time to ask me the questions and comfort me

 

“How about we go now?”seungri oppa suggests

 

“Okay “Zico oppa agree

 

“Don't back home to late Jiho a , Nirin have schedule in morning “seungri oppa say

 

“You can count on me Seunghyun a ”Zico oppa tell make seungri nod

 

“We going Mino a “Zico oppa say make me bow

 

“Be careful hyung “Mino oppa said while pat my hair

 

In our way back, I keep thinking about Jiyong oppa and Chaerin unnie, until I don't notice Zico oppa stop the car

 

“Babe “

 

“Babe “

 

“Babe “he held my hand make I look at him

 

“What are you thinking honey??”

 

“I don't know oppa, I can't thinking straight “I answer make he hug me tightly let me crying in his embrace

 

“Everything will be alright babe I promise “he kiss the top of my head

 

“Don't cry anymore babe” he wiped my tears

 

“Where you want to go now? “

 

“ up to you oppa “I answer while he cares my cheek

 

“Okay call” he cheers me

 

Zico oppa bring me to Han river and lead me to a simple café

 

“It's so beautiful oppa “I tell him while he back hug me

 

“Like you babe “he say

 

“Such a sweet talker “ I smile

 

“I tell you the truth babe “he just hugging me tightly

 

“I make a song for you “he confesses

 

“Really ? What song oppa? Rap song? “I ask

 

“I still don’t finish the song but I finish the lyrics “

 

“Sang it for me oppa “

 

“Kiss me “

 

“Don't want “

 

“Really? I will keep my song alone “

 

“Oppa “

 

“Kiss me “I just really curious about his song make me don't have a choice but kiss his cheek But when I want remove my face from his, he grab my face and it's just few inches between my face and his

“Can I ? “He ask me , I know what he mean well we already dating for 2 years but he never kiss my lips cause he don't want take advantage from me but now I don't know how but I feel the butterflies in my stomach

“Kwon Nirin can I?” He ask again

“I can wait babe “he smile and move his face from mine

“I love you oppa “I say while pull him towards me make he smile

“Can I?”he ask the same question make me nod

When his lips touch mine I just feel the electric in my body make me quickly separate our body while Zico oppa smile and hug me

“Thank you for believe in me babe “He said but I just keep silence and hug him tightly

 

The night end so fast when we're together, don't know why but his embrace was the best place for hide from the hectic schedule and the crazy world. He know make me laugh and forget the hard world .

“I'll miss you babe “he kiss the top of my head

“Na do oppa “I smile

“Take care “he said make me nod and going to my apartment

I enter the code and walking towards my room but I stop cause the light turn on

“Unnie “I call Yoon unnie

“I thought Cindy but it's you rinnie “unnie said before hug me

“Cindy still not arrive unnie? “I ask

“I don't know maybe she already in her room “ unnie said make me nod

“Go take a sleep now “unnie smile while I nod and enter my room

I lay my body in my soft bed