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With coffee in my hand I sat down at the corner of the café,
it is still same small and cozy place I used to hang out,  nothing had changed for past three months,
except me…

gazing at the large window, that was covered with droplet of rain,  with both of my palms I hugged the warm cup of coffee embracing the little warmth and comfort it gives,
sun is still hidden behind the rainy clouds,
 it wasn’t heavy rain, just small rain, like sky was letting out quiet tears,

tearing away my gaze from the silent rain, I looked at the counter,  there was a person who was waiting for his order,
this is the first time we met after three months, 
three months of my disappearance,   he never noticed,
and the funny part is I was the one who make sure he didn’t noticed,


but today is different, I had to come out from the place I was hiding,

I had no choice but to meet him,  I didn’t want my secret to come out,
 thanks to someone’s blackmailing I had to come out today….

maybe its better this way… because this might be the last time I see him….


I turned my eyes away from him,  and looked at the clouded sky
part of me wanted to open up to him, tell him everything, but  I can’t do it,
because I know too well about him,
 I know how he will react,


but sometimes I wonder
Why can’t he just stay quiet and listen… was it too hard just to listen…   why he have so many things to say for every single word I say… why he have to give his opinion to every word I say,

was it too hard just to listen at least once and give me hug and say everything will be okay..
It is okay to cry, it is okay to let my guard down and cry,
it’s okay to let out everything that bottled up in my heart…. 

 

Or…
am I expecting too much…. ?
 

Was it wrong to expect it from a friend…. 
 

yes, friend…..

We were just friends; it’s the line I can never cross….....









“Yah….. “
“You’re spacing out again….”   Voice shook me up from my thoughts…. 


I growled and glared at the owner of the voice….


“Easy girl…. easy…. , clam down…  don’t bite me….”
as a reply to my glare,  with teasing voice that person held his hand up and smirked.


“JUNG YONG HWA
am I crazy dog to bite you,” I glared at him,


he sit in front of me, with coffee in hand,
“You sure not a crazy dog...”  He took a sip of his coffee..
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“You’re the cutest Chihuahua I ever met….”  He calmly said it and took another sip…








For moment I wasn’t able to catch up what he meant,
Chihuahua- loyal, active, and…., And tend to be fiercely,  Smallest......................................


My eyes went wide with realization,  he dare to joke my small height

“Yah….”  I looked at him and glared…

he was trying hard not to laugh…., eyes that glistening with tears and lips were holding tightly in to straw,
 he was trying too hard to hold his laugh, but miserably failing at it…


his loud laugh spread across the café we were in,  I looked around and bent my head,
 Thank god it wasn’t crowded….
I might die from embarrassment…  

“Ha.. ha  ha ….. You are definitely cute little Chihuahua….. 
Ha … ha ….” 



I look at him, ready to shout at him, but sight that greeted before me make my heart skipped a beat..


His face was slightly becoming red beaming with happiness.. And his childish self was coming alive with his laugh;
it was spreading  warmth, and happiness…

Slowly without realizing my lips curled in to smile, it always like that, just his laugh was enough to make me smile
after few minutes
His laugh calmed down to a heartwarming smile that can make me blush,


“Finally you are smiling…”,  he said while looking straight in to my eyes,
unknowingly I got lost in his glistening brown eyes, but suddenly I realized that I was staring back at him and avoiding his eyes I quickly brought my warm cup of coffee in to my lips…


“How are you ‘Shorty’?,
you seems different…” after short silence he voiced out, leaning close to the table and bringing his face close to mine,


“Where is jonghyun Oppa? Didn’t you said he was coming too?,” I looked away at the falling rain outside… ignoring his question.


He followed my gaze…  “H-He had something come up with c-college” he stuttered a bit and
leaned back in to his chair.

“I think you have grown smaller” he turned the topic

I shot my glare at him and playful smile spread across his face.

“Oh.. Shut up yonghwa… “

“Woha…..” 
“ it’s Oppa to you…..”

I scoffed…   

“Why….
You call Jonghyung - Oppa and why not me….”  He complained but
his voice comes out like a whining ….  Of 5 year old..

I shot him a blank look
“if you ever act like a one… “

“Oh… Point taken…” He grinned… 


“Okay…”  I give him stern look
“Why did you want to meet up…?


For moment he froze…
“W- Why… do I need a reason to see my best friend…” I felt my heart sank…


“Oh come on yonghwa…
You and I both know there was reason every time you call and wanted to meet up, especially if it was morning …”
 yes that’s the bitter truth

I put back the cup on my hand. folded my arms staring at him…

his face become little bit red and he awkwardly rubbed back of his neck…  looking everywhere except me
it surprised me, this was the first time I’ve seen him acting like this…

“I.. I…”  he stutter…  it gives a bad feeling….

“Come on spill it…” 


He let out a sigh….
“there is a girl… and .. I-I…”


My heart was screaming with pain, but I forced a smile, and looked at him…
I knew.. I knew one da