Forgive me for making Yeri this way... ; - ;

Yeri x Joy

I crave your touch,

oh, the adrenaline rush.

Abuse me,

use me.

Do anything,

anything at all.

For I crave your presence,

too.

I'm afraid that my sanity is gone,

and you're at fault.

For you have been hanging out with him.

for you have abandoned me.

Is it just all in my head?

Do you still love me?

Wait,

you never had..

Or at least,

you've never told me  you did.

I am the fool in this love triangle,

or so it seems.

I am the third wheel,

it is meant to be,

or so I deemed.

Jealousy,

hate,

I am the definition of optimism.

Sarcasm. :)

Greed,

I want you all to myself.

Am I disturbing yet?

Probably.

Good,

let me send chills down your spine.

Giving you bad vibes,

Let me be the bad guy,

that committed multiple crimes.

I love you.

I hate you.

Why can't I be the one embracing you?

Why can't I play with your hair lovingly?

Why can't I comfort you?

Why can't I be the one kissing those

beautiful,

soft,

lips.

Why can't I help you.

Oh, 

I can't even help myself.

As I drown myself in liquor,

I should be doing my homework.

You're a huge distraction,

you have the spotlight in my view.

I feel your presence,

when you're near me.

I feel your absence,

when you're not with me.

Why don't you give me a chance?

I'm blinded in love and hate,

you're blind too.

Forgive me for my harsh words.

For you can't see through my armour,

I'm collapsing.

Shattering.

Gasping for air.

Let me breathe in your scent,

but all I'm breathing in is the smoke,

from my cigarette.

I have vices,

that you probably despise.

For you have warned,

adviced,

but I have breached the rules,

and did otherwise.

Good.

Despise my vices,

despise me.

Detest me.

Hate me.

Associate me,

with the dark clouds

that people will assume,

that it represents depression and gloom.

As long as I'm a line in your chapter;

he probably is a chapter in your life.

I'm begging you.

Remind me that I'm alive,

that I'm not just surviving.

That I'm strong,

but I'm lying.

I'm a disgrace.

A coward,

for I have never confessed.

I'm scared of what I've become.

No one is here for me.

I'd love to change,

for the better,

but you're changing me into a mess.

A wreck,

I would call myself.

Have I gone far beyond my limit?

I've forgotten.

Forgotten how it feels like to be loved.

To have someone care about me.

Why can't you accept me?

Love me,

as much—

no, more than you love him?

Is that too much?

I know I'm not as good.

I'm competing with someone

that I have no chance against.

I'm laughing,

at how dumb I've become.

I'm crying,

at how I twinge in pain

as I see you with him.

It feels like I'm dying.

Call me insane.

Crazy, I am.

For you,

I can be the hero.

For you,

I can give you the good vibes.

For you,

I can bring you out on dates.

For you,

I can rid of my bad habits.

For you,

I will drown.

Drown in sadness,

no water is needed.

Let me pass.

Why

do you still care about what I do,

when you truly don't?

Why

do you keep stopping me when I'm about to go?

He matters more than me.

He gives you the love you need,

more than me.

Now go,

let me remain as the villain

in this nightmare.

As I watch you from afar,

admiring you.

I hope he reminds you that,

you're even more beautiful

than what you think.

I hope he showers you

with kisses and compliments

like I'd always wanted to do.

I hope he hugs you tightly

whenever he can,

like I'd always do.

I hope he loves you with a burning passion

like I always do.

I hope he is good enough to deserve you,

unlike me.

Let me go this time.

Continue forgetting about me.

Think about him,

and the future both of you will have.

Have fun,

I deserve the consequences.

Though I remind you,

as I cry in the corner

in despair,

every tear drop,

every breath,

every hope I have left,

is for you,

to ease the pain.

I admit it.

I have gone insane,

but I still love you the same.

I promise,

I will be there for you,

if he ever dares to leave you,

if he ever dares to hurt you,

I will hunt him down.

Kindest Regards,

Yeri

 

 

 

 

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-Problematic-

It saddens me too. ; - ;

A happy chapter will arrive soon enough.

Enjoy your day~

Keep smiling :)

-Problematic-