Chen's POV

Last week was so hectic, I found an evening shift as a band player in one of the city's clubs. I barely had the time for Natalie, and I think she is mad at me for this.

I don't know what's really wrong with me, I have really changed alot, since the time I saw Lilian. Like seriously, We aren't even together,  it's just uncomfortable.

I know I was a bad guy before, but that's only before. I kind of betrayed Natalie, before she comes to Seoul. 

Two- timing you call it?

Yea, I was two timing. But no one really knew how I hated myself except Kris. He was the only one whom I told him everything. 

We decided to seal this topic, because I really decided to return to the Generous Jongdae I was. 

But, I still dont feel fine. Whenever I am around Natalie, I hate myself. I am a liar!

I wanted to tell her, everything, but I am just too scared. What if she misunderstood it all? I don't want to lose her.

It was late at night when I went home, but what I found strange is that she wasn't even home yet. 

I talked to Kai about it and made my mind to go change my clothes and then, search for that big baby of mine.

And so I did, but when I was about to leave, kai told me that she is already in her room. He said that she was tired. I wanted to talk to her, but I decided not to, at least for now, she is tired and I also