THANK YOU DAMI aka @daemyeon on twitter for beta'ing (idk how to word that oops)   ANYWAYS This basically came to me while I was watching SZA's music video for Babylon.  Everything Kibum is doing is based off of SZA's actions in the music video.  I hope you enjoy (-: TRIGGER WARNING: This fic involves implied suicide, so if this will trigger you in any kind of way.