A year and 9 months without Changmin will be unbearable. My first love, my precious little brat, my half, my crush, the voldermin Shim Changmin. I know he will never notice me. But I just want to let put my feels and I wish someone can let him know about me, but I am really sure, no one can. I am not worth him.       So, here is my diary. A diary of unknown fan of Shim Changmin. Let the time passes as I will loyally wait for him.