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Dawn. July 4, 1997. Filipino. Canada. Amateur writer.

Hi, I'm just a really miserable fangirl living in Canada ;A; Um, English is my first language...? I understand, for the most part, Tagalog, French, and (a little less than the first two) Korean. lol, I know some Cantonese, Mandarin, and Japanese.

 

Infinite is my bias group. Kim Myungsoo is my ultimate bias. Inspirit fo' LIFE. #110801

 

I'm thinking about becoming a writer (of some sort), an architect, a fashion editor/person thingy (I don't even know what it's called XD), a travel journalist, an english teacher, a botanist...maybe I'll change my mind one day. And if anything, an idol in Korea...LOL, no. Kim Myungsoo's wife...? Infinite's best friend who isn't an idol...? An english teacher in Korea...? I'm so unrealistic :D My goal in life right now is to meet Infinite...unrealistic again?

 

I like reading romance, fantasy, fluff. Stuff like that. I can't really handle mature :S LOL. I really love oneshots and oneshot collections, too (: You should definitely recommend some nice romantic, supernatural and fluffy fanfics to me. 

 

 

 

 

Kim Myungsoo.

My bias of a little over a year. I don't think I've ever liked any other bias like I have Myungsoo. It's not exactly love, but I do know I love Kim Myungsoo. I refuse to believe that it is infatuation, but I might be that, too. I don't know how to explain my feelings for him in words, but I'll try my best.

Kim Myungsoo has been important to me since 2011. I remember watching the variety show, "Oh My School!" and the last few episodes were sports specials. I remember Myungsoo how caught my eye. Being an ace on his team and bringing them to victory. Although there was one time where he fell and was defeated, I couldn't help, but think how cute he was. His eyes were barely noticeable when he flashed a smile of embarrassment. It was all cute to me. But all I knew about him was that his stage name was L and that he was a member of Infinite. Being a fan of Simon and Martina had brought even more happiness into my life that time. They reviewed the song and music video "Be Mine" by Infinite, and I knew I had to check out all of Infinite. And so, I watched it. My heart was beating fast when I did. Their dance moves were so crisp, fresh, and clean. I was able to recognize some of the members, but it was Myungsoo who I didn't want to look away from. 

Now, here I am. Claiming that Myungsoo is my husband. It's not much of a realistic way of thinking, but a girl can dream, right? Whenever I see Myungsoo, I can't help, but smile. I hate to admit it, but even when he is crying. When he smile himself, I was always feel my heart exploding my chest. Although many people on first impression would think Myungsoo is quiet and possibly cold, I can't see him that way anymore. To be honest, I thought he was like that, too. Myungsoo's different though. "Myungsoo is like a pineapple, rough on the outside, sweet on the inside." What Sungjong said was true. Myungsoo seems like the type who doesn't open up his heart to others easily, but he isn't a close-minded and reserved person either. I don't think I'll ever know Myungsoo truly, but what I know about him now gets me going.

Kim Myungsoo has brought happiness to my life. It's not a physical relationship I have with him obviously, but I think that if I ever met him, or Infinite even, I would be at the peak of my happiness. Myungsoo is like the moon. I guess that's how a lot of girls like me think of their bias. He's far away, but he shines the brightest despite all the other stars. He's a little scary, but he's beautiful. He never really looks the same, but I will always know it's him. I'd be able to recognize him from a distance far away.

He's quiet, but after a while, he start to open up. It surprises me sometimes when I see him yelling or raising his voice. He smiles a lot, too, and his smile is the nicest one out there to me. If it's for a photoshoot, or something like that, his smile is perfect and neat. When he laughs, it gets crooked, but I know it's heartfelt. Myungsoo's heart isn't easy to read, but I think I've been getting better at it. He seems very happy despite the tough schedules and long days he goes through with Infinite. He isn't always looking for attention, but I don't think he's the type who likes to be alone. He's pretty awkward and stiff, but that's what's cute about him, too. He tries his best when he performs, but offstage, I feel like he's a little lazy. Even though I don't know him in real life, as much as I would like to, I feel so close to him. Watching the variety shows Infinite is on late at night makes me feel so comforted and cozy. They give me all these wonderfully warm, fluffy feelings, and it makes my heart hurt sometimes.

I remember at the beginning of my first year of high school, there was an orientation for all the first years. We would sleep at school for one night. I thought, "Oh my gosh, I'm going to have to spend a whole day with these people?" I was really homesick, and I just hated everyone around me. How much older than me they seemed to be. It surprised me. They had such shallow conversations, nothing I wanted to hear. I had Sesame Player on my iPod, and I knew that I would have to watch it to make me feel better. That's exactly what I did. I felt like they were right beside me, and I felt a LOT better. Every time I feel down, I always go back to Infinite. Throughout the past year, there have been many other idol groups who have caught my eye. I would watch their variety shows, listen to their music, and there would always be some kind of pain in my heart when I would come across Infinite during those times. It wasn't until their comeback with "The Chaser" I realized how much I missed them even though I never abandoned them as my bias group.

You know those really cheesy pickup lines? "If I had a dollar for every time I thought of you, I'd be rich." If I had a dollar for every time I thought of Myungsoo, I'd only have one. Even though I'm not entirely aware of it, Myungsoo is always on my mind.

The feelings I have for Myungsoo are probably no different than other fangirls who have biases. It's an unexplainable feeling yet we all know it. It's like I always want to learn more about Myungsoo. I want him to know who I am, and even though I probably have no chance of being with him like a "girlfriend," I still think of the possiblity. Myungsoo's my everything. It must sound either absolutely revolting, absolute adorable, or just plain weird. I think it's true for me though. Well, he may not be EVERYTHING, but it's close enough. My heart seems to always ache when I see his face. I get a little stupid, too. When I see his face, I have to smile. When he talks, the only thing I can focus on is his voice. There's no one else I can imagine being with besides him. I know, I sound so delusional, right? It's just that I hate all the guys I actually know. The people who meet Infinite are blessed and are lucky. If I was them, I don't think I'd ever be able to let go.

If I ever met Kim Myungsoo, I really wouldn't know how it would go. I don't know if I'll be totally composed and try not to look like such an idiot. I don't know if I'd cry and squeal and jump up and down. I know that one thing I'd try to get out of my mouth to him for sure would be, "Thank you." How would I be without that boy? Without all seven boys of Infinite? 

Thank you, Kim Myungsoo. Although you haven't even been in my life for that long, I still love you with my whole heart.

I love you, Kim Myungsoo :3 I love you, Infinite <3  

 

 

If you actually read that whole thing, bless your soul. I don't think I'm done writing it yet though.