“I like it like this..” He whispers, body shaking from the ice cold water enveloping him like a wave, crashing hard and cracking his bones with every ripple from breathing. “Didn’t you know, Hyung? The skinnier you are the more water can fit?”    His small tired eyes flutter to my own and out of everything I’ve been through in life, everything I’ve ever seen, anything I’ve ever heard, nothing prepared me for the heart break that I felt in this very moment.

He used to never really worry about his size before, sneaking in snacks when on a diet and always up for ice cream. Now, whilst eying himself, he could see some fat on his tummy and his slightly sloppy arms. Thighs thicker that most of the other members. He shook his head, turned away from the mirror and said to himself, “I don’t care, I’m not fat”. Later that week, he came to conclusion that he did care. … Also posted on AO3 & Wattpad (CherryLovesRainbows)