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Confession #21
 
i want to tell ppl to please, please not mix ic & ooc, & i want peace for my mind, so i'm ranting here. if a person wants to leave & tells u before going, remember they have a good reason to do so. if u don't know both sides of the story, stop assuming things & talking like u know everything.

i felt like i did wrong when i left her. i had depression irl & i had to leave bc i wasn't in the right mind to rp. i lost motivation to live & even more so, to write. my depression started affecting my ic chara. so i knew i had to leave before i hurt ppl. i tried to write my chara as smiling & happy but writing even one sentence took me literally 15 minute at that time. our r/s was becoming distant bc of me. (before this, we once had a fight bc my chara didn't smile, so i made sure to include the word 'smile' or 'laugh' in my rp almost always.) i was tired of putting up a fight for this r/s. i told her my reason, thanked her for everything & apologized in ooc. the way she acted overdramatic made me think i should've just ghosted her. i wanted to separate on good terms but she had other thoughts. i know it was wrong of me to leave but at that time i thought it was for the best. the things she posted on her fb wall made u think she was a victim of abuse.

i also admit i was immature. i hurried into being in a r/s, tho it was ic. i hope ppl will not be like me. i hope ppl make rational decision even tho it's only rp, bc rp can affect real life & vice versa.
 
admin's note

your ooc health and state of mind is very important. you did the right thing to inform her about your reason. you did nothing wrong and i applaud you for taking your time to inform her about it as much as you were stressed.

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