Tag #2: Debo

Hi sweethearts~! It's Nara~! 

I'm back for another round as I was tagged twice! 

Let's see what my mind stirs up this time, shall we?!

1. I can speak... 8 languages!

I initally learned them for business since my businesses aren't specifically US based, I work around the world- and upon learning the first couple I found that I really enjoyed learning new languages so I kept going with it! I can speak the following fluently; English, Spanish, Hindi, Japanese, Korean, Mandarin, Russian and "Arabic". I've recently started learning Tamil and I'm wrapping up advanced Latin classes! I'm hoping to start Thai and Dutch soon! 

2. I technically... proposed to my fiance!

Very modern century of me, eh? Hahaha~! Aiden's probably fretting up a storm right now in heaven but it's okay, he was super cute and cuddly when he'd do that.

Super, super, super long story cut somewhat short, before Aiden left to serve his enlistment, we were already flirting with the idea of getting married. Some say we were moving too fast since we'd only gotten into a relationship months before but actually, Aiden and I were emotionally involved for many years before we finally got together. I kept my distance from him for those years due to my phobia and long list of other issues- I didn't want him to carry the weight that I already was, it was exhausting for me and I didn't feel like he deserved to deal with my baggage. He kept his distance because he didn't have time for a relationship, he was just starting his business and that means a lot of traveling, long nights and broken promises and plans so he decided to keep his feelings to himself. Funny enough, he was just as involved in my life even then, but back then his attention was more focused around my daughter, Nadia. (She wasn't my blood daughter for those who are curious, she was technically my baby sister from my adopted father. I couldn't let him raise her after everything he did to me, I had to protect her, so I talked with her mom and after some time she made the tough decision of passing Nadia onto me once she was born.) Since Aiden was the only man I had in my life, and one I knew I could trust without hesitation, I let him into her life in a hearbeat. Aiden was very much Nadia's father figure when she was alive. She ended up bringing us closer, somehow, and when she passed away from cancer, it left Aiden and I to comfort each other... which ultimately led to Aiden and I getting into a relationship. Now that you know the backstory, let's fast forward. As difficult as it was for me to entertain the idea of marriage at the beginning of our relationship because of my issues, I could never see myself marrying anyone else but him. When he left to serve his enlistment it gave me a lot of time to think of my future- and all I could think about is him, even stronger than before. I just knew it was right. I started looking for a ring immediately and I found it one week before falling victim to a car accident. Aiden wasn't supposed to return home for at least a year but because of my accident and the state it left me in, they granted him a week's leave and at that point, I was clearheaded enough to understand my feelings and his feelings as well. I asked him to marry when Taro and I went to retireve him from the airport. I don't know why but they moment just felt right- and it ended up being perfect because to my surprise Aiden was planning to do the same thing. There I was, kneeling with a ring, and all of a sudden he kneels too, pulls a small box out of his bag and wallah- a beautiful self made engagement band set was waiting right there, for me! (But I did ask first though, so ha, jagiya~!) 

3. Forests and the Ocean are my favorite places in the entire world.

I think this one is pretty self-explanitory? I can't get enough of either of them! My affection for both runs so deep that when chosing my homes, they have to be close by. My house is surrounded by a thick redwood forest in the mountains of California and my penthouse is a pure ocean view. (I have two because traffic is hell in California, especially when traveling between the valley and San Fran and I go between those two places a lot for local business. After awhile I get tired of hotels and the drive.)

4. I am... a basis for one of my OCs!

I'm not going to say who because that would ruin the fun but I did pull a lot from my past and present when it came to creating that OC and she means a lot to me. That doesn't mean I love any of my other OCs any less! Love equally! She's just a bit different because of how much of me I put into her. It's probably pretty obvious who it is for most who have read my stories but don't ruin other's fun! Let them explore and come to find the OC on their own! She may be based off of me but let love come to her naturally, she deserves love all her own, not someone else's! ^~^

5. I know how to play... the harp! 

Taking classes to learn was a spur of the moment thing but I'd always wanted to learn how to play. It's probably one of my favorite insturments if not my favorite, alongside the piano! I can also play the flute and the violin but I don't practice those as much because I don't have those instruments at both homes like I do the harp. I'm working on getting a violin though- I just hope I'll be able to play it well after what the car accident has done to my hands...   At most I can say I definetely don't have a musical future ahead of me anymore. 

6. -- (Removed for personal reasons, will replace with another fact asap!)

7. My ability to sleep... is extremely screwed up! (Hahaha~.)

I've got SO much going on when it comes to sleeping. Insomnia, sleep paralysis and some really, really, REALLY bad night terrors. I get around 5-10 hours a week at most and yes, that does include naps. I make up for it by eating a lot and drinking a lot of water, tea and coffee. My doctor constantly says he has no idea how I've lived for this long, he thinks I'm an alien or something. Lol!        [Shoutout to my adopted father- you're the best. Thanks for the night terrors! -.- ] (Don't mind me guys, I'm just being a little salty. Lol.)

8. I am not perfect.

This isn't a shocker, nobody is perfect, perfection doesn't exist, but I feel a need to stress this because so many people say this to me so often and it's so far from the truth. 

To be candid, I am extremely ed up. 

Like most of you I'm battling a lot of demons. I have Anxiety disorder, Panic disorder, major PTSD, Persistent depressive disorder, Androphobia, Philophobia, Haphephobia and Anthropophobia. (And I'm still leaving some out...) 

When my doctor says he doesn't know how I've made it this far he means it. To a certain extent I can't make sense of it either, I never saw myself as strong or able but once I got away from home I found that where there's a will, there's a way. I'm not trying to be a spokesperson for anything, I just want to say that it can get better. No matter what you're facing it can get better. You can get better. You have to work hard at it and come to accept that these things won't leave you fully, you have to learn to live with them, and then, only then can you start to grow. I am as far from perfect as can be but I've worked hard to get to where I'm at and maybe that's why so many of you always say that I'm perfect and if that's the case then that's fine. Know that you can make it too. Nothing is impossible! Just don't give up. I made and I know you can, too.

And for what it's worth, know this- I won't give up on you. 

Everytime you feel hopeless and/or helpless, lonely or useless, remember me and my words. Reach out to me or someone else you can trust. Don't be afraid to come forward and face what is troubling you- and know that when you do, you are never alone. I can't speak for anyone else but know at least this much, I will always be beside you. I will always support you. That's my promise.

I hope everyone is safe and well. Please take good care of yourselves! 

Part 2 feels a bit heavier, hm? I hope I gave you all some good facts! 

Stay well, safe and snuggly warm everyone~,

Love, dulcedewildflowers~! ❤❤❤❤
Mwah~!

P.S. I'll answer all of your comments on the first page soon! I've noticed some come in while I've been working on this post and I'm sorry for the late replies, I just wanted to get this out as soon as possible to make a special someone very happy since she's eager to get to know me better~. (And the rest of you as well~!) ^~^