Song Jaeeun is a Lost Legend ♛
nickname
Birthdate May 17, 1995 (24)
Birthplace Jinhae-gu, Changwon, South Korea
Ethnicity Korean
lANGUAGE(S)
♛Korean - Native language
♛Japanese - SHe's studied this on and off during her time with pandora as they keep toying with the idea of a japanese debut but have yet to follow through. Her pronounciation is alright but her actual grasp of speaking is shaky at best
♛English - Studied in school, she's as good as you would expect a highschooler who's never been immersed in an english environment to be. That is, she can ask where the bathroom is, say 'hello' and 'goodbye', and knows a few other random phrases, mostly from Kpop songs if she's honest. Also her pronounciation is atrocious. (See Mr. Bang Bang)
fACECLAIM AOA Mina (Formerly)
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Neutral: Idealistic, Internal, Sensitive
Positive: Loyal, Hard-working, Diplomatic, Cautious
Personality
On the flip side of her judgemental nature, Jaeeun's idealism drives her to be a very hard worker. If she does her absolute best she believes she will absolutely be rewarded, so she's always going to put in 100% when starting something new. This includes putting her emotions 100% into it - and while as a child this never really backfired on her the entire fiasco that has been Vista has left her quite scarred. Jaeeun is extremely emotionally sensitive, taking things to heart no matter how they may have been meant.
Her sensitivity isn't all negative though - it's made her quite a loyal person. So long as you don't betray her (in her own eyes) she'll stand by the people she considers her friends, or who at least she perceives to be on her side. She has learned, however, to be more careful about who she trusts with her loyalty. She's good at putting up a smiling front, but she studies people before making decisions about them, unlike in her youth when she always assumed the best of people. With time and exposure to the cameras she's gotten very good at playing the diplomat, saying exactly what people want to hear - what she's supposed to say. Which is quite a valuable asset since she developed her bitterness.
Jaeeun has always been stubborn and had a bit of a temper, but both traits have been exacerbated by Vista's failure. She sticks both to her darker views as well as her childhood idealism. She turns her back to her old groupmates, but can't let go of the company that caused the mess. And she's almost always struggling against an underlying current of absolute fury at the world, at herself, at how unfair everything has turned out to be. And it makes her cold and bitter where once she was bright and curious about the world and what it could offer. At her lowest point it can cause her to physically and verbally lash out at anyone who tries to help, and at herself if there's no other easy scapegoat to go after.
She keeps it all inside though. Jaeeun has learned that it hurts when you let yourself be seen, when you let yourself hope. So she pushes down anything she thinks might make her suceptible to being hurt again. Tells herself that the boxed off emotions don't exist anymore, that she's wiser now, that she knows the world is cruel. But for all her desperate attempts to change her core, it will always be there, lurking just where she refuses to see it.
Background
Jaeeun fell in love with idols rather young, rocking out to Fin.K.L and H.O.T in her youngest years and moving on to Wonder Girls, Super Junior, and Big Bang as she aged and they came onto the scene. And at thirteen years old she decided she wanted to be an idol too. As always her parents were fully supportive and helped her look for schools in Seoul. She had strong enough grades to get into Bosung Girls' High School in the Youngsan district of Seoul, and she and her mother moved to a small apartment in the Jungnang District of Seoul.
Once Jaeeun had settled into a routine at her new school she started auditioning for idol companies. Naturally she started with SM, JYP, and YG but was rejected from all three. She moved on to CUBE, Starship, and other second-tier companies but found no luck their either. She stopped for a while to focus on her exams, but immediately went back to trying once they were complete. She moved to small, no name companies but still never heard back after her auditions. The simple fact was that Jaeeun for all her passion had no real talent to stand on. It wasn't until her sixty eighth audition that a brand new and rather desperate new company thought she might just be pretty enough to take a chance on. That company was Pandora.
Likes
♛ y concepts. It's completely antithetical to any part of her image but good gosh she adores y concepts
♛ Praise. I mean, who doesn't like praise right? But Jaeeun absolutely thrives on getting positive feedback from other people
♛ She enjoys most kpop groups but she'll always have a soft spot for SNSD in particular as her bias group
♛ That she's getting more singing parts in VIsta's songs - she's worked hard on her voice even if it's been very slow going so she's proud of the parts she's given
♛ Though not her top groups she also has strong admiration for Girls day and exid for achieving what she wants for vista
Dislikes
♛ People who don't put in full effort. And yes, most people dislike it when their coworkers are lazy but Jaeeun's standards for what counts as 'lazy' are a bit extreme
♛ WOrking out. She does it, but she absolutely hates every minute of it
♛ She's not great at hearing things she doesn't want to know - for example trying to explain that it's not her groupmates' fault that vista is doing well, or that hard work doesn't always pay off
♛ She's not a fan of scales or scale-like textures, they weird her out
♛ I mean, herself to a pretty large degree. And her groupmates. and especially her former groupmates
Habits
♛ If someone is getting mad, regardless of if it's at her or not, Jaeeun apologizes (this is more prevalent when she's playing the role of 'jez' which she generally will be on the show)
♛ She automatically greets every new person who enters her line of sight, even if it's just a quick bow
♛ She tends to brush her hair into her face when she's feeling overwhelmed in an unconcious attempt to hide
Hobbies
♛ Rehearsing is probably the obvious hobby - if she's not at home Jaeeun is usually in the practice room
♛ She listens to history and science podcasts at night before going to sleep to relax
♛ She sometimes watches popular groups' youtube vlogs to try and discern what they're doing right - and what she's doing wrong.
Special talents
♛ She can recite the entire list of seoul subway stops in order from memory if that counts
♛ Her more conventional talent is that she can drop into the splits with no effort whatsoever (other than the years of effort it took to get to the point where she can do that. She needed a special talent after all)
Random trivia
♛ On music shows during the endings, Jaeeun would always make sure she was smiling and congratulating everyone nominated. At first it was because she genuinely wanted to tell everyone they were doing a great job, but it evetually just became something she did because it was part of her image to do it.
♛ While not actively religious Jaeeun does believe in a God, though she hasn't really put enough thought into her faith to be able to define what exactly that means to her. She does sometimes pray when things are really going sideways in hopes some external force will fix her problems for her.
♛ Since Jaeeun took a twenty minute Subway ride to school every day for all of her high school career, and also takes the Subway to the company for rehearsals she never learned how to drive. So she gets around with a combination of public transport and walking.
♛ Jaeeun has suffered from a few dissasociative panic attacks in the past, usually due to the intense stress she put on herself during and after the group's initial hiatus. She had somewhat gotten them under control on her own after the disbandment but with the intense stress of a survival show they're definitely going to be back
♛ She listened to the entire roster of JYP artists' songs and watched all their interviews when preparing for the show so that she would know everybody from the company
Choi Soo Jong + Ha Hee Ra
Parents ♛ SOng Hajun and Kim Eunji ♛ 57 + 49 ♛ Actuary + House wife ♛ Supportive, Just, Oblivious ♛ 8/10 (kind of)
Song Hajun and Kim Eunji are about as perfect as parents can get. And when she was little Jaeeun adored that she could ask them anything and know they'd be honest with her. She loved that she knew they would support her no matter what, and that all they want for her is for her to be as happy as she possibly can be.
Now, although she still loves her parents more than she does anyone else, Jaeeun sometimes begrudges them their kindness as it's the primary motivator that's kept her at Pandora desperately clinging to a shattered dream. She doesn't want to go home a disspointment, and it makes it all the worse knowing they'd never blame her - because she blames herself.
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Groupmate ♛ Im Bomi ♛ 27 ♛ idol ♛ Single-minded, curious, stressed, Caring ♛ 5/10
As with all her groupmates Jaeeun keeps Bomi at a distance. The older woman is the new leader since jooeun's departure and while she's doing her best she's honestly not great in the new role. And Jaeeun definitely holds that against her. For her part Bomi just finds Jaeeun to be mostly self-sufficient so she doesn't give the other girl much thought, instead focusing on the problem child that is Hyomin and doing her best to just keep the group together through their second hiatus. (Dal Shabet Twin: Serri)
Minzy
Groupmate ♛ Cha Hyomin ♛ 25 ♛ Idol ♛ Bold, (over)Confident, honest, sarcastic ♛ 3/10
Hyomin honestly thinks she's god's gift to girl groups and it drives her nuts that Vista isn't doing well. She's actually rather similar to Jaeeun in this regard, but where Jaeeun has developed a decent mask for the cameras Hyomin has just gotten angry. She has no sense of filter and is always eager to call out anyone and everyone on anything she considers to be BS, whether or not it actually is. Jaeeun really dislikes Hyomin if she's honest, which she never is, but even if she doesn't say it they're rather clearly not very close. She recently released a solo that did okay-ish. (Dal Shabet TWin: Subin)
Girls DAy Hyeri
Groupmate ♛ Lee Kaeun ♛ 25 ♛ Idol ♛ Cheerful, awkward, Quiet, Passionate ♛ 6/10
Kaeun is the visual of the group but she also works hard and Jaeeun can respect that. It helps that Kaeun is a bit of a mouse, easily overlooked and content to just sing and dance without needing any extra attention. Kaeun never seems to judge anyone, and she is pretty. Jaeeun's fairytale logic dictates that quiet pretty people are automatically good, and so Kaeun gets the most benefit of the doubt of all Jaeeun's groupmates. They still don't talk very much though (though that might be because kaeun is so awkward). (Dal shabet Twin: Woohee)
Fiestar Linzy
Former Groupmate ♛ Kim Jooeun ♛ 30 ♛ dance teacher ♛ Clever, Observant, Descisive, Particular ♛ 0/10
Jooeun was formerly the leader of vista, but she left in 2015 shortly after their hiatus was announced. The simple fact was that being an idol just wasn't everything she thought it would be, and she didn't see the point of wasting her time continuing down a path that just made her miserable. She's moved forward with ease and confidence and now teaches at a dance school in downtown seoul and she couldn't be happier. Jaeeun, however, doesn't see things like that. Instead she sees Jooeun as a horrid traitor, a captain who left her boat to sink when the crack was more than managable. ANd for that Jaeeun will never forgive her former leader. (Dal SHabet TWin: Jiyul)
AOA Mina
Former Groupmate ♛ Lee Yeji ♛ 26 ♛ House wife ♛ Loving, Determined, Relaxed, Narrow-minded ♛ 0/10
Despite Jooeun's leaving logically (well, by Jaeeun's logic) being the greater betrayal of the group Jaeeun possibly hates Yeji even more. Because before leaving, Yeji had easily been the groupmate Jaeeun was closest to in a time when she was still open and friendly. As the group's rappers the two of them spent a lot of time together rehearsing and Yeji made it her mission to improve Jaeeun's skillset as much as was possible. Then the hiatus came and Jooeun left and Yeji started focusing on other parts of her life. Most notably, her love life. When her long-time boyfriend proposed in late 2015 Yeji decided that being a wife and mother was more important and would be more fulfilling than continuing to cling to vista. And so she left it all - including Jaeeun. Thus the final blow was dealt and jaeeun's perceptions of the fairness of the world were forever altered. (Dal Shabet TWin: Gaeun)
So... What made you want to be an idol? Jez beams. "I've always wanted to be one! I honestly can't remember a time when i didn't. Being onstage has always been my dream." And add a wistful smile, not too long not to short. Good. You can do this jez.
What´s your best skill? What´s the thing your´re best at? Don't say nothing, don't you dare say nothing. Jaeeun thinks to herself firmly even as Jez blinks and gazes at the camera with wide eyes. "I think my rapping is my best skill, but i'm best at rehearsing! I love learning new things so I spend a lot of time whenever I'm learning something new." too repetitive, you're losing your touch. Come on, jez is cheerful and polite, how hard is that? jaeeun berates herself, carefully maintaining a smile to hide her inner turmoil.
What would you consider the concept you´re personally best at? Dunno if it's my best but... "we've done a lot of girl crush and y concepts but I think cute is the one I'm best at!" Jez declares, far more confident in the answer than Jaeeun is. I prefer y though.
Any JYP Artists you´re a fan of? Good, we prepared this answer. Don't mess it up jez. "I REALLY LIKE ALL OF JYP'S ARTISTS! BUT I RECENTLY STARTED LISTENING TO STRAY KIDS AND THEIR MUSIC IS REALLY POWERFUL, SO I THINK THEY'RE MY FAVORITES AT THE MOMENT. IT'S REALLY HARD TO CHOOSE THOUGH!" SHE BEAMS INNOCENTLY TO THE CAMERA. AND SCENE. GOOD JOB JEZ, WE'VE GOT THIS. VISTA WILL RISE FROM THE ASHES. THOSE OTHER GROUPS WON'T KNOW WHAT HIT THEM. JAEEUN PROMISES HERSELF, SMILE FALTERING AS THE CAMERA TURNS OFF AND SHE'S DISMISSED FROM THE INTERVIEW ROOM. JEZ THANKS EVERYONE PROFUSELY AS SHE LEAVES, WHILE JAEEUN QUIETLY FRETS OVER EVERYTHING THAT COULD HAVE GONE WRONG - AND PLANS FOR HOW TO PREVENT ANY FURTHER FAILURE IN THE FUTURE.
Stagename Jez - Jaeeun thinks that stagenames are sophisticated so she knew she had to have one. However all she could think of was 'jae' so she edited it slightly to 'jez' so it would be familiar enough that she's respond, but to her it sounded cool
Group name Vista
Twin group Dal Shabet
Position in group Lead Rapper, Vocalist, Maknae (Ahyoung)
Discography
♛ Mr Bang Bang - 2012
♛ Have, Don't Have - 2012
♛ Be Ambitious - 2013
♛ BBB - 2014
♛ Joker - 2015
♛ Someone Like u - 2017
♛ Fri sat sun - 2018
Trainee and idol life
Jaeeun trained with Pandora for almost all of it's three years of existence, joining in late 2009 and training hard every day. It became clear early on that she was never going to be a dancer or vocalist so she was steered towards rapping instead, where she found some proficiency. She worked hard throughout her training and remained steadfastly optimistic that things would turn around as soon as she got a debut. And she'd certainly get to debut - hard work always pays off, that's what she's been taught for her whole life.
2012 saw that debut occur, but things weren't the sunshine and rainbows Jaeeun had envisioned. She was constantly exhausted, and as she was in her last year of high school she already wasn't getting much sleep. Her grades slipped as she focused on the group and their failing career, thinking she just needed to put in more effort. But for the first time it didn't work. And Jaeeun found herself thinking: if she was working hard enough, then it must be one of her groupmates who wasn't. Then the hiatus came and everything crashed in on itself for Jaeeun.
The hiatus was a living hell for Jaeeun. Everything she'd worked for crumbling around her, and to her mind none of it being her fault. Not realizing that sometimes no one is at fault, she buried herself in improving herself. She had failed her final exams in her final year, and she wasn't attending university so she had nothing else she could do. She tried getting into song and lyric writing, but she never really got the hang of it, still being much more scientifically minded and not having the creativity for it. It was during the hiatus that her walls really started growing, shutting out her groupmates as she curled into herself in an attempt to protect the softest parts of herself. The final brick in the building came when Jooeun and Yeji left. Jaeeun completely closed herself off from other people. She couldn't trust anyone anymore she decided. No one but herself.
And even her faith in herself ended up shaken in the end. She always had a string of hope - a stubborn remnant of the idealism she was trying so hard to destroy - that the group would turn out to be like Girl's Day or EXID, rising from the ashes of defeat to become famous. This hope flared when they came back and their song actually charted.
Then that hope flickered and died as they once again fell into anonymity with their following release. Pandora was once again on the ropes and the girls went into yet another hiatus, and Jaeeun began to forget why she bothered to put in any effort at all. Only an ever-present sense of guilt kept her in the practice room late into the nights when her groupmates were all busy looking elsewhere for opportunities. To her they were traitors. And then Lost legends was announced and Jaeeun found that in the end her hard work really had paid off.
She was going to save her group, and she was going to be a star. She just knew things would work out - all she has to do is win. aNd how hard can that be?
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