So maybe you actually clicked this. Thank you though, so im going to ramble.

I've been going through a confusing time these past 3 days and I honestly say, Im close to shedding even more tears. 

So the story goes like this, here's a bit of background. 

so Friend A and I have known each other for 11 years but friend a and i never became friends until 4 years ago. So within the 1st year there was a problem between us and Friend B, it was resolved later on because A ended up having a memory loss or what A says, A was being rude and harsh towards me but not to B and it was ridicilous. The 2nd year was when I drifted apart from Friend b causing me to get awkward with everyone including Friend A. I became a bit depressed or non-existent and honestly a mood-killer because of personal reasons in which just bad thoughts because I've had all my closest friends leave me because of moving reasons and it hurts me even to this day other friends left. So then, I made up with Friend A/B because Friend A gave me a chance as well as B. 3rd year, Friend A ends up dating Friend C and I became closer with Friend D. Friend D and I had many adventures meeting many friends and there is this group of friends which I'll call Group G. Because I had academic studies after school, Friend D got closer to Group G than me during the time so after my academic studies were over I felt like a total fifth wheel. I tried to consult Friend A about this but Friend A was always not answering or A was busy putting Friend C as his first 10 priorities literally. Friend A and D were my only closest friends. One time hanging with Group G with friend D, I saw Friend E. I ended up talking with Friend E the whole time and it led to talking about Friend A and I cried so hard that night. It was not even funny. All my worries and rants were said. Everything vented. Then Friend A and I resolved that then we had our first class together since kindergarden, it was a hilarious class and we got closer again but then Friend C and A's relationship was going unsteady because of me. Which leads to this week(4th year). Everything might seem stupid but know that I know Friend A almost inside out while Friend A knows me inside out.

So it is the beginning of 2nd semester and Friend A and I have 2 classes together. A and I have the same letters for our last name and our two classes were set in an alphabetical seating plan. Im sitting 2 seats behind A in period 2 while in period 3 I sit beside him. So on Wednesday, Period 3 we were having an assessment and A went to a corner desk to my right but didn't say hi. A has told me, " I'm getting a bit more stressed lately in the morning" so I knew something was off with A. During lunch, I went up to A who was using its phone txting someone near my table and I went up to A but A jumped and ran away as fast as it could from me. So that was just weird. After school, I was txting A about how A's dad was at the laundry and how A told me " I should go to the laundry more often to see you" and A txted me back after each txt with a word and just ... after it. It was awkward texting as well. I thought I was just wrong that something was off with A, so I just didn't ask anything and used doing laundry as an excuse. But then, later on I figure out A was watching Kill me, Heal me and then I msged A on facebook and we were totally fine. WTF. but then next day. Waiting infront of Period 3 we had this awkward distance infront of each other and A gave me this awkward face as I put my eyebrow out as A didn't even try to push me or say Hi. Then A went back to the corner spot from the day before which was to my right away from me. I thought maybe A was mad again? but then another friend joined A beside and A was acting fine towards that friend. I got a bit mad and worried. the next thing that happened pissed me off, A dropped a pencil and I tried to pick it up cause it was at my feet, I handed it to A but A just held its hand as if A didn't want it cause I touched it so I tried to play it off a bit a joke and say "oh you don't want it okay fine I'll put it back on the floor :" So then, after class I spoke with friend d trying to ignore the pencil but i passed by to see that Friend A never picked it up so i got mad and I kind of crushed it on my way out in a clenched fist. so then Today, I go to my usual meeting spot with a group of friends I'll call Group H. I yell out a name and turn a corner to see friend A look at me awkwardly once again but then converse with friend D so casually. I try to ignore the fact and just put on my hood and try to shut my eyes cause I was tired but then, A was acting normal with me, trying to at least. Period 3, A was talking to me, asking me questions and such, making jokes and A handed me this paper thing to play with but it's absurd.

I know I must be thinking some next because it's an on and off two face. But it worries me because Friend A and I are just like really close and I don't wanna lose A. but then, it's pointless and worthless to be so stressed enough to post this as a blog post asking for help but Im doing that anyways. Im that worried I want other opinions. Maybe I'm thinking something wrong. Maybe it's not right. Maybe A being germaphobic to me is just a prank or is it because of A and Friend C? Is Friend C jealous again. I want to consult Friend A about it but the problem is that it is their Anniversary on monday and the timing isnt right.

What Should I Do?