Hello everyone ouo

Yes.

It's me.

I was M.I.A for a few months.

I doubt you noticed lmao.

Anyway, I have a reason why. I'll tell you at the end. 

But first! I must announce.

It is my kpop anniversary!

I've been into the kpop fandom for 4 whole years now! It actually feels pretty lame. I don't know where I'd be or what I'd be obsessing over if kpop wasn't in my life. I'm glad it is. Even if I get frustrated a lot with it. C;

But yeah. This month is my anniversary. I'll be celebrating by eating cake, watching old music videos, and reading more fanfiction. If you have any you'd like to recommend, please do. Only and I prefer kaisoo ^u^

I hope you all are having a wonderful year so far.

Now to explain my M.I.A status.

It started back when Kris left EXO. I actually fell out of kpop for a couple months because of it. It made me rarely get on here. I also couldn't write stories anymore without stopping within the first paragraph. So I never finished anything. But as months went on, I got back into kpop and wanted to write more. I have so many ideas. But I'm still having trouble with actually finishing anything. I have so many started things that will never be finished.

And it makes me sad.

But I'll try my best. I only hope that'll be enough. If you subscribed to my 'author's stories' then you'd notice I did write things. But all of them are drabbles and barely oneshots. You can go read them if you want. Most of them are angst. But yeah. I did write. Just barely. And I'm still writing. But drabbles. I have things I'm working on, but I'm so scared of never finishing it, that I'm not going to post it until it's completely finished. I've deleted so many stories because I could never finish them. I don't want it to happen again. So it may be a while until I post another ongoing story. In the meantime, I'll post drabbles and oneshots. My writing has also taken a turn for the worst due to being inactive for so long. But I'm trying to fix it.

I should also mention. Things about me have changed quite a lot. My ultimate bias is no longer Taoris. My ultimate otp is no longer Taoris. My ultimate bias is Kris(but sometimes Kyungsoo) and my ultimate otp is Kaisoo. Basically my relationship with them is im married to Kris and our son is Kyungsoo. Jongin is our son-in-law. Basically. We're a happy family!!!!! Lol But yeah. That's changed.

Also, I like Boys Republic now. I still can't tell who's who and I don't remember their names. I'm barely into them. I probably shouldn't even have mentioned it Lol I'm trying to learn because I love their songs and their vines are perfect uwu.

The only bands I currently care about are exo(ehhhhh?), vixx, block b, and boys republic.

ANYWAYYY, personal life update:

still hate myself lol but now also my personality.

How wonderful.

I hate everything about me.

I'm desperately in love with Avery who is my best friend.

He likes me too, but doesn't want to date.

Sarah thinks he's aromantic.

He probably doesn't even know what that word means.

He's also the bane of my existence :c

I'm incredibly obsessed with Sims again.

My weaknesses are Cats, Kaisoo, and Ceci photoshoot Kris(still lol).

I live and breath Kaisoo.

If I'm going to post any ongoing . It'll be about Kaisoo.

I also use tumblr 24/7 and basically spam post. I reblog so much per second. Like don't follow me because you'll be scared at how fast I reblog things.

I'm a demigirl, panromantic, and biual.(Want to know what these mean, please do ask u3u)

I'm also highly into the whole 'aesthetic' movement.

Black and white contrast is my favorite thing ever.

I love fog and snow.

I only wear black nowadays.

My hair is black and staying like that for a while.

Black clothes, black soul. ;)

Lol but yeah.

I'm still lame and I hope you stopped reading this a long time ago. If not, please comment with 'ouo'.

Haaaaah.

Anyway to end. I will link you to my current favorite songs. Half of these will probably change in a weeks time. I'm sure of it. Anyway I'm off for now. I love you all u3u

Not in any particular order:

Eternity by VIXX(Kpop)

Error by VIXX(Kpop)

Valkyrie by Hansel Thorn(EDM/Dubstep)

Reality by Xilent(EDM/Drum & Bass)

The Fall by Seven Lions & Xilent(EDM/uhhh?)

Awake by Tycho(EDM/Ambient)

Actually anything by Tycho(EDM/Ambient)

Anything by Glitch Mob too(EDM/Glitchhop)

Tell Yourself by Clazziquai(Kpop)