Hate school, Hate life
Sometimes I wonder "Why do I even bother?"
I just get so much stress from school and at home to study and get good grades, it just makes me lose concentration on everything. Today my Chemistry teacher got angry at me for not completing my homework and he complained at me how bad my grades was. He said that he's not seeing me put in the effort for getting good grades... So he sent an email to my parents about it. Now my parents have just scolded me for not working hard enough at school. They keep telling me at this rate I'm not going to pass my exams and get into college.
Do they think I enjoy being like this!?
All my teachers are complaining at me to prioritize my work. I'm trying so hard to do so, but it always gets to me. I mean I'm still stressed and upset over my mock exams I did in November. I had a ing panic attack during my Graphic Design exam! In front of hundreds of students, I felt so humiliated and angry.
I also have a deadline for my art coursework tomorrow and I haven't finished it yet... I'm so dead. I just want to disappear. I hate it when all the people in my classes see me getting scolded by my teachers.
Ah, now my mood swings are kicking in, I'm crying to myself and it doesn't help me with the whole depression and self harm issue I have.
I'm sorry for my rant... I just... I really just want to say my emotions to someone. I feel like I can talk well with you guys. I find it easier to talk to you instead of my family and best friends.
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