I can't...

Not because I don't want to... but because I simply cannot do it.

I'm not trying to play a hard to get here, I'm just stating my resolve... and I say NO. I don't wanna sing in that freaking stage ALONE, for it would take great amount of courage from me more than they could ever imagine. I have my fair share of past that I don't wanna remember anymore and they aren't helping me to forget it all.

I know they are starting to be annoyed with me, for I keep on turning down their offer. But heck! The song isn't even close to the genre I'm confortable of singing! The Eff??? Urgh!! They keep on pushing me into it as if I don't have a choice...

...Indeed I don't. T_T My performance in the office is at stake. TT_TT

Fine, stop beating around the bush Mina... just state it straight. I have a ing stage fright. T_T I got it way back school days, when I STUPIDLY went out of tune while singing in front of the whole damn school. Yeah right, freaking unfortunate.

And now they wanted me to sing in front of the whole Company? Including Bosses, Leads and Colleagues?? What if history repeats itself? I might resign in no time!!! TT_TT

I may have a low self esteem... but all of us have weak spot right? And that's mine... I just hope they can decode that.

Sorry for ranting... I don't have a friend right now... T_T We don't stand on the same sides.

-MINAMI-