Its only been some weeks. Really, I don't think I'm going to try and speak up face to face. Not anymore. I'm ashamed of myself. My dumb actions caused this to happen. Its my fault. But I'll let it be. I'll let things stay as it is. I'll apologize on message. Just won't speak anymore. To them. It hurts to even speak to them. I don't deserve to say a word after what had happened. Its hurts yes, but the pain simply goes away once I do that routine. The routine that takes the pain in my heart away. The only source now. To tell someone about my problems now, its such a pain. But I smile it off and cry about it later. Yet, I know this is punishment for me. It'll be for my own good. Its a lesson and something I won't forget. Now its time for that routine of mine. May it take the pain away from this cold windy night.