actually, my grandpa passed away last week.. the one who took care of me since i was little. it was a hard time for me tho.. I'm not the type of girl who can easily cry, i only cry when I lost someone who's really important in my life or when there's something that make me remember things I don't want to. 2014, what a big year isn't it,,2014 took away people that I love, got me into so many breakdown, crushed my bright appearance and got me haters. and NOW does those things explained you why I've changed this much? do you now get it why I'm not a bright happy girl you used to know? I ING LOST ALMOST EVERYTHING I LOVE, are you still blaming me for 'ruining' your heart? it's like I really had ruined your heart,,OH PLEASE. I didn't ruined your heart because you didn't even in love with me at the first place. I'm loosing so many things this year, I'm loosing so many trusts, I'm loosing so many friends, I'm loosing a love of my life, I'm loosing my grandpa, I'm loosing my reputation and worse, I'M LOOSING MYSELF. Are you happy now? Are you happy that I'm confessing how broken I am? thanks a lot.,THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. Austin