does anyone have any suggestions to overcome sleeplessness//restlessness because no matter how tired i am when i actually want to sleep i just end up staring at the ceiling endlessly and its becoming a problem. i know tea is supposed to work, but the tea doesn't really do much but make me feel a little emptier, so save for listening to music to try and calm myself, im at a loss for what to do. 

send help, lmao.

on another note, to explain the semi-hiatus.... its my senior year and my father is being really strict with me, so i have all of my stuff essentially taken away. 

that being said:

i really wish i'd have more time on the computer- as it is, im supposed to be doing a poetry project and instead im on here, writing listlessly in a vague attempt to both sort out my feelings and to get my stories updated. unfortunately, for the next x amount of weeks, months, etc, my computer time is HEAVILY limited, and i dont really know what to do with myself haha...

life is a metronome of numbness and sorrow currently, and not having much contact with anyone is killer.

it not being able to talk to my friends (my phone is gone too, lmao), but im really crossing my fingers for some grace over the break next week. 

do you guys have any plans for thanksgiving?

i hope yall are all doing well and are smiling a lot (genuinely), because thats so so important, honestly. i think we underrate smiles far too often. 

i really dont know what im getting at here, or what type of turn this blog is taking, but it's arrived at a weird little stop and i feel a little nauseous, so ill leave it here. 

stay safe and make good, healthy choices guys. 

if you ever need anyone to talk to (i feel like this is what everyone says, haha), im here always. i may not be able to WRITE much, but i can get on aff on like. my 3ds or my dsi, so messaging isnt a problem. 

til next time.