You asked me why I was so harsh. I was never harsh, the truth is harsh. You asked me why the older twin would always be smarter than the younger twin, because you are the younger twin and your grades weren't as good as your older sibling, I presume.

My answer? No one is smarter than anyone. I'm just more driven, I know what I want. I won't blame you for not having such innate motivation, but who are you to think that you aren't talented enough? You had that potential, but you hardly worked. If you worked hard, then you have not done enough. If you really wanted it, you would devise ways to get it. You have the power to get anything you wanted, pain and suffering would be insignificant to you, perhaps even normal, if you work for something.

Don't ever think that you are dumb, if you think like that, then you are dumb. And the stupidest thing of all is that you subject yourself to such thoughts when you can be a better version of yourself, you could be anything you wanted.

You failed your A-math exams, I presume. And I told you I have not failed any major math exams. And while the teacher was explaining the solution to a problem, she says, "I hope that you have tried one plan and failed. You have to keep trying, keep failing before you can succeed."

And you twisted those words, told me that I can't always not fail. I tell you that I am enrolled in the Kumon programme, and I have failed many times in there. The programme requires discipline, perseverance. Maybe you wanted to spite me, I'm okay with that, I'm sure many others would want to spite me. But I'm never a genius, it was just that you really . Why did you ? It's because of your thoughts that limited your potential.

You may not be first in class after working hard, but you are the one who decides what you want to do. You chose this path, don't regret it, I chose my path, I shall never regret mine no matter how hard it is.

I have been hiding the fact that I studied, hiding my grades from everyone's view and only revealing my marks when asked, because I was so afraid that I would be alienated even when I didn't have any close friends. Because I felt that I'm just a normal student who studied and maybe had a bit of talent in me. But now I realized that I should be proud, not ashamed of my grades because I worked for them. And they didn't work for the grades they wanted. I worked in math when I was young up till now, they didn't. I'll still coach my classmates if they want my help, but they didn't want any, didn't even want to try. I'm going to shine so bright so that people can have a role model, not hide my talents just because I wanted to conform to people who didn't even try.  

I don't care, I'm going to be proud of whatever I've worked for, I didn't laze around and get such results.