Haha I haven't posted for awhile and I'm sorry for that.

almost October 21st

This year it will be 3 years since my bestfriend committed suicide

I've been really depressed lately, my cancer has gotten a little bit better and I have a lot on my mind, my brother just started his 23month korean military service.

I really need a person to talk to and lately I've been so sad At school I lost a lot of friends.

I have one friend and I only talk to him, he doesn't go to my school and I've never met him in real life.

But he is my only friend.

I lost my bestfriend Byun Soohyun on 2011.10.21

And only 3 weeks ago my cousin Aejong committed suicide I feel like I don't deserve to live anymore

All I love has left me. I feel so horrible.

I feel sorry and apologetic to my subscribers and I'm sorry my storied are so slow

I've been feeling for a long time almost 6 months now

I miss soohyun very much ~~~

So I just really need someone to talk to and let my emotions out

So thanks for reading :) Friends, haha (Yeah like I have friends)

Bye ~ for now Xx joomi