just my personal opinions.
okay, I feel that I have to let out everything about the Jessica issue. it's making me feel so uncomfortable and disturbing and since I have to take my national exams in one day, I have to say everything that's bothering me so I can take my exams peacefully (lol).
I know many people are taking sides with Jessica after the issue broke out and to be honest, me, too. I refuse to believe anyone who said bad things about her and I only believe Jessica and I trusted her. keyword - trusted. it's not that I no longer trust her, but I don't trust her COMPLETELY now.
many sones still support Jessica even after so many things have been revealed. they rather they remain ignorant about all these issues than to be hurt by the truths. but not for me. if she's in the wrong, she's in the wrong and I will not not blame her just because she is in SNSD, just because she is my third/forth bias, just because I love her a lot. even though the issue was not addressed properly and clearly but judging from all the things Jessica had done, do you all still think it's SM's fault, completely? who can confidently say Jessica is not at fault, AT ALL? I think she has to bear for most of the responsibility.
Jessica said SNSD is her priority, if she really priorities SNSD more than anything else, in the first place why would she start BLANC? why would she want to start a business? why would she want to enroll into her school that is so far away from korea, so far away from her eight sisters? the choice to want to keep everything - continue being in SNSD, being a CEO, wanting to study to be a designer and want to continue dating - is just truly a selfish decision.
yes, I agree, everyone is selfish. but there's a limit to it. what Jessica is doing is really pissing me off. I trusted her, I blamed sm for her departure from SNSD but what has she done behind us?
leaving all these behind, she is dating Tyler Kwon, everyone knows it. their relationship was exposed together with her departure news. remember Jessica once said that if she has a boyfriend, she will reveal it rather than being caught? look what she did. she hid it from us. she hid it for so long. how can I still put all my trust in her? I don't want to be bias, I don't want to take any extreme sides. I want to take whoever's right side but I couldn't because the issue was not addressed clearly thus it's hard.
everyone knows Tyler Kwon cheated on his ex-girlfriend Gillian Chung. I'm sure Jessica knows about this, I'm sure. to be very very honest, if one day Tyler Kwon cheats on Jessica, I won't feel sorry or pity Jessica. I won't even feel sad for her. she chose this so what can I say? I don't like to hide my feelings, I'm pissed off with Jessica and I will say it out. I don't want to support her just because I love her but I want her to know what she did was so selfish and so wrong. but apparently I won't make any difference by posting it here on AFF.
and everything she said about going on for a long time with us, with SNSD is so contradicting. why would she say so much about going on for a long time together or staying together forever as girls generation if she knows she is going to leave? the girls know she's going to leave, sooner than anyone of us, they know it sooner than anyone, than any of the k-sones. I know. they couldn't tell us.
To be honest, I wanted to give up, leave the fandom and stop supporting SNSD when many things has been revealed but I couldn't. I couldn't let them go. what is making me hold on to them, to sone, is their friendship. if one day they show us their friendship and whatever they say is fake, I will say bye to SNSD, for good.
if I said anything wrong and you have anything to argue with me about what I wrote, you can comment or pm me. I'm just stating my very personal opinions here.
have a good day my sones.
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