Nothing's stopping you. I may have been a burden but I want to do my own things. You say your heart aches when you see me copying the team rules, but I understand that it's for my good. You had always tried to give me the best, but the things you gave me was good, too good for me, and I ended up suffering from trying to differentiate your expectations from his.

Get that divorce you've always wanted to, nothing can stop you. Nothing can hurt me, unless it's about expectations again. I can't love you and love the other, you choose one or the other. I will not choose any. My instructors say you will support me in my dance career, but I know you don't have the ability to.

If you wanted, go and work for that body you've always wanted. No one is stopping you. Don't tell me that you aren't living your life because I am living mine, there are many things I want to do and experience for myself before I can live my life. I want to take the bus to the dance studio every week with these team mates or instructors. I want to suffer the pain in the pre-professional programme to get the kind of happiness that I worked for. I want to feel the euphoria of performing, the joy of teaching (though it's not always joy), the choreographing.

You had tried to give me many things, and you made many wrong decisions, but I think the best decision you made was to send me to that dance studio just a few blocks away, though they have moved a year ago and I've gone with them. They are nice, they live a few blocks away from us, and it so happens that they choreographed for some local drama series that involved lots of dancing and we watched and enjoyed it.

Go and get the things you want, the only thing stopping you is your mind. Don't remind me of how the local dance industry don't have many prospects and I should go overseas, I have decided that I should stay to let others know more about professional dancing. I want people to not -shame dancers who do "y dancing" because it isn't as easy as it seems. You can remember choreography easily but you can't exude the confidence, the y that you want from them. I'm young and I may have exaggerated expressions but I'm trying and I'm always finding ways to be better.

I know he is the kind of guy that frowns at y dancing and high heels and revealing clothing. I want people to know that iness isn't a sin and young dancers who do y dancing aren't "forced" by their instructors. They know what they are doing and they are good at it. It's hard to perform without knowing what you are doing, by the way.

Do what you want, they may frown but they can't stop you. They may leave you but it gives you the freedom to do the things you desire to do.