So regarding what has just happened I wanted to write and express my opinions on the matter of Luhan leaving EXO and generally SM Entertainment and all the that's been going on this entire year.

I feel that 2014 has really opened our eyes to the mistreatment and hard work idols are condemned to when they sign their contracts. (It's also a really ty year.)I haven't been into kpop for that long, nor do I know anything or much about SM Entertainment or lawsuits or contracts but seriously, I'm pissed.

I'm pissed because we only know to a certain extent what idols truly experience as artists in the industry. I'm pissed because no matter how badly treated the idols are, we can do close to nothing to stop it. There's boycotting the agency, of course, preventing the agency from gaining anything financially but if we really think about it idols - idols that we love and look up to - need the money. If we boycott will it solve anything? Won't the agency just push their idols to greater lengths to gain more revenue?

I'm not against boycotting, in fact, I would happily do it. I would happily leave the KPOP fandom and stop obsessing over the idols and just appreciate their music. But I can't. KPOP has literally taken over more than half of my life already. I spend hours and hours thinking about my biases, whether in reality or in a fictional world that I created. But hey, that's besides the point.

I really do feel like SM Ent. is just pulling bull here and there and everywhere. But what is happening right now makes me want the agency to go under, with the exception of it's artists. They could abandon ship and hop into another agency that's willing to take them right? Or they could create their own. I wish for this a lot but I don't think it's going to happen. 

Wu Yi Fan leaving really dented my perception of the kpop world - actually it ruined it. Specifically the way I looked at SM. I wasn't there to experience the things that happened to SUJU and DBSK, but to have it now happen with EXO twice and SNSD and I fear f(x) too ... I don't know what I'll do when something happens to SHINee. I love all of SM's groups, and I just hope they'd stop beating around the bush and actually sort their out, you know?

I just recently became a Luhan stan and now I kind of regret it - not that it would've made me care less. It saddened me to see that EXO will now just consist of 10 members and EXO-M, the part of EXO I love the most, now only consists of 4 members. FOUR. The stage will feel even more empty - Can you all imagine EXO-M's songs without Luhan's voice? Truly just cut out Luhan's voice? The China-Line has been cut down by a half, and 2/3 of the eldest in EXO have left. It's ridiculous.

I'm not upset over Luhan leaving, I'm extraordinarily happy he did, and Yi Fan too! The sooner they get out of that place the better for them. If it means they will feel better and regain good health and be free to do what they want, then good for them. What I am upset about though is that Luhan had to leave because he was mistreated and not given what he deserved, same with Yi Fan.  I kind of wish that Luhan and YiFan had taken Zitao and Yixing with them, and I do fear that they'll soon follow and EXO falls down to 8. But if they do then I hope they all remain good friends with the remaining members of EXO, I mean come on THEY'RE ONE. ALWAYS. Even if not physically actually together as 12, they still are. The memories are there. The pictures are still there. The bond, I hope, is still there.

I have many thoughts on this but I struggle to communicate them in a way that will be understandable and not just a bunch of angry gibberish being yelled out from my mouth. I'm pissed, and I'm doing all I can to not fly to Korea and burn things because heck I'm too young to go to jail. This probably doesn't make any sense, I can already tell I jumped from one thing to the other too quickly. But whatever, at least I got it out of my chest. 

I'm still going to support EXO, Yi Fan and Lu Han in the ways that I can. I can't wait to watch their films, I anticipate it every day. I'll still write fanfics as OT12. I'll still love and put faith into the KPOP industry because frankly I can't stop loving it. 

But yeah, I just wanted to say things even if they didn't make any sense. Just my opinion, I know I must be wrong with a lot of things I stated here but ... meh.

Wishing Lu Han, Sica and Yi Fan well in their future ventures.