I have nothing to say and I'm terribly upset. I cried for real... I shouldn't be crying over this when I'm having my exam in two days but seriously? Do you think I'll be able to focus when this is all I think about?

no.

when kris left, I didn't cry. I was still upset but I didn't cry. That's because I understand that he's tired of his life at the time.

im sorry that I cried when luhan is leaving this time around. That doesn't mean idc that kris left or whatever but you know... Those feelings. Those empty feelings....

I know I should be prepared for all of this when I started to stan them but I'm not. I'm not prepared. I told myself when they debuted that I shouldn't like them too much bcs they're from sm and u know how sm is. 

But they were just too talented and cool and awesome (and they still are) to not like them. I ended up being their hardcore fan after my cousin became one too. I've liked them since their debut how can I not be upset. Two members left and rn I just can't take it anymore. Sm really doesn't know how to take care of their artistes. And people just love making rumours don't they?

it . I didn't believe this at first but...yeah.

i think he's doing this for his own good. And I think kris did this for his own good too.

if being with/in sm is torturing them, then I like it that they decided to leave. 

Why should we force him to do something that he clearly doesn't want to do? So, I think it's better that he leaves. If he is tired being in sm or in this industry... It's good for him. It's their own life to decide their future. I'm still upset and I'm literally crying.... For the updates that I promised.... It may be delayed for a while. I'm sorry. This is too much. I'm still missing kris and luhan leaving is adding salt to the wound. I'm sorry. 

I understand luhan. And I understand kris.

this will not stop me from stanning them or stop me from being an exo-l. I loved them before. I love them now. And I will love them forever. They're my source of strength.... 

To all EXO-L, let's give each other a hug.