I know, the title itself is crazy, but really when I hear or read or see how SNSD feel without Jessica, I start to cry because I have done what they did to Jessica - left her, pushed her away - to a friend of mine.

Remember my first post? I said about my friend, but now, I couldn't even talk to her, even if she calls me seven times a day (She did once). Truth is, I don't have the courage to face her after cutting all contact with her for three months. I still remember her perking up when I said I'd be coming to school soon (which sadly, didn't happen), like in a week. Then after it went foiled, she'd call me and say about how the others told I was just fooling her, but she did believe me, at all times.

I remember my 10th grade days - We two had another friend, and we three akways walked to the bus stop where they would get on a bus and go home. A pizza shop had opened in the last two months of school, we gathered our money everyweek and ate one 60 rupees pizza, and would fight for the fourth piece. It wasn't Dominos or Pizza Hut, just a simple Vegetarian pizza shop. I would help them during English tests as according to them, I'm pretty good in English than them. I'd tell my first best friend all the stories I write in here, and she also said to write a story with us two as the lead female character. She helped me with Mathematics,  and I helped her with English. Een though we fight, we get along soon, we have bought each other many gifts.

I used to made hand-made greeting cards for any of my friend's birthday, and when my birthday comes, they'd give me a gift. We even bought a set of rings, which I still have with me as a smal chain (coughTTBYcoughMinhocough). They got me a small necklace too, with a hand and a Key, as they know I like Sherlock Holmes. 

I-I feel so bad for not talking to her, I fear that if I talk to her now, she would break our friendship. I'm really crying rigt now, really. I want to talk to her, but for some stupid reason, I couldn't press the 'Call' button. I want to beg forgiveness from her, but I fear if she'll cry the moment I talk to her. 

Thanks for reading this rant friends, I feel like I have someone to support me...

CUD's....... Annyeong~!!! ♥