I just wanted to write something 'cause I feel... I don't know how... empty? It's not because of Jessica's thing, I just don't know what happens with me. Sometime ago, my haven was coming here to AFF and read and read fanfics, or write or just scroll down on Twitter and fangirl over my bias and like that I was filled with joyce, I guess? But I don't know what has happened that... something changed. I don't know if it's related to the fact that kpop is having a hard time now due to all the scandals and accidents and tragic things that are happening or maybe because I'm too grown up? I really don't know.

I just felt the need to write how I feel and I chose to write it here because this is the only place where people actually don't know about my real identity (which I don't need to reveal). And I don't know, I just feel down, empty, sad, hollow... I just really don't know.

Thanks for the ones that read it, LOL, I know I should not write this here 'cause this is supposed to be just about kpop and fanfics as the title of the webpage is actually asianFANFICS. But I just felt to do it. Thanks anyway! Haha~