At first, it was desperate, knowing that OT9, our pride, was broken. I was being so dramatic about the matter. It's because this is my first time facing the reality that is too painful to bare. The world is cruel as . Apparently, people who give you happiness will also give you sadness. People appear in our lives and have a big influence, but then they leave us, sometimes even without a farewell.

As a SONE and Gorjess Spazzer, maybe, we should back off and accept the fact that Jessica is no longer a member of SNSD. Because this is reality, full of things that are not expected to happen. But, it will happen. We must all know that SNSD will leave and they will fade away from our lives slowly, just like how the leaves leave a tree. Do not let the delusion fool you.

Some of us are worried about Jessica, but this is her life, her choice. She must have been thinking through it a lot. We must let her go. She is old enough to think about her future. The future that is so important to her because she knows that SNSD will not exist forever. SNSD will move on. Someday.

Please embrace the moment that we have with the other 8 girls before it is too late again, because now, it is already too late for us to hold Jessica back. 

Most importantly, we must know our boundaries. We are nothing but their loyal fans. They have their own lives and we have ours. Do not love them too much because one day, there will be a farewell between us and them. It will be a farewell that will haunt us the most. Hence, try to stay back because if we love them too much, we will hurt deeply as if a knife was struck in our hearts.

What I am trying to say is that we must accept the reality that they are just entertainment in our lives, nothing else or nothing less. We have our own family to cherish, so do not waste the time. Embrace the moment we are having now because the future is something to fear for.

Do not blame anyone because we do not know anything behind the scene. We might be blinded by the lies. But, remember, everything has its own side stories and everything has reason.

I know some might disagree but this is what I feel right now.