Yes, my nightmare that I really scared that it come true now just......

When SNSD decided to renew their contract, I hope...I hope that they will last at least until their 10th anniversary. Just hold for 3 years, after that maybe I will not became like crazy person right now. 

9th anniversary with 9 ladies, it seem my dream just blew right away. 

Their lastest Japanese single " Divine" made realize how much the lyrics related to SONEs and SNSD. 

"A top the ground that grew cold,
I’m going to walk barefooted
And your warmth
Will support me "

" When I’m with you
I can become stronger
There wasn’t supposed to be anything I was scared of and yet..
Hey.. I don’t want to lose you "

 " The journey we both walked together
We’ll make that our proof, forever
We are always one
What will we say we’re capable of
Once we stand before the waves that give their loud roars?
We’ll meet this distress, with a gentle intimacy 
I believe 
We can be divine
Our feelings are ONE "

I wanna be a SONEs like that, shared the joy,pain, together.  

At first, I thought, " SNSD will not be the same ", " There's no reason to me to listen K-Pop anymore"

Just....It's hard to accept this and it always be ...... I rewatch, replay all SNSD songs,video in my playlist but I can't accept it!. It's hard to believe that our own Ice Princess will not with us for next comeback....   

But still, whenever decision that have been made, I still want to support both of them.Even, I don't why which side were true. 

I don't know how to say anymore. 

" FOREVER 9 "