SNSD

U see, I can't say that I'm with the girls from the beginning.. Heck, I even messed them up with Wonder Girls. I thought they were the same. And when my friend introduced me to Gee, my comment only "dude, they look all the same.. I never understand why you like this kind of group." But guess what, 4 years later, karma met me in a cruel place. I'm having a huge turn in my whole life, I can't even do anything without crying because of heartbroken. Then suddenly one of my new friend introduced me to Jessica. Yes.. Jessica our Ice princess.. Our Sergeant that beautiful is beyond a word... She introduced me to YULSIC couple.. from that day, I spent my days with them.. and I am proud to say I AM A SONE. eventhough I endup to Tiffany as my no.1 Bias, but still, Jessica held a special spot in my heart. JeTi always change the place in my heart.. and actually before TTS comeback, I kinda spazzing for Jessica for quite awhile. I completely forgotten for Tiffany for awhile.. all I can see only Jessica.. her voice. her laugh, her smile, her stare, her everything thanks to Jungsis show on Onstyle.

And then this morning. this very morning on 30th sept 2014, something happens. JESSICA LEAVE SNSD. I cant concentrate at all in office today. all I did was just staring at my komputer on my desk and keep on hit refresh button to see an update about her news. I felt so lost. it feels like someone ripped my heart from my chest. worst thing is, I cant even CRY in here [feels weird if u cried in office out of sudden --- diff between a kpop fans and ordinary people ] how I wish now I'm in my room, hugging my bolster and stared on Jessica's picture and cry my eyes out. my head keep on repeating every single moment I catched so far being a SONE. 

How can I listen to THE BOYS without her angelic voice ?

How Gee feel when we cant hear her say BABO?

How IGAB would be without our maomao?

How can I listen to COMPLETE without feeling COMPLETE anymore???????

this is the 1st time I really liked someone. or in this case 9 girls. hahha... its been a wonderful whole year with u Sica ya... tbh I never once like an idol like this.. SNSD is the 1st group that I came to love and devoted my almost all time to them.. from downloading their shows, MV, concert, anything... it is them too that made me learn korean language. they really inspired me and help me alot. 

I know this is not the end. SNSD forever gonna be SNSD. even there's no more Jessica in there, still I will forever support that Group.. THE group that helped me thru my hardest time. the voices that always accompany me every day and night. at least, I've been in Pink Ocean once. I've heard their voice live once. I saw them dancing around the stage once. doing the dorky things, and once I experience to see YULSIC moment with my own eyes. 

I will keep support them.. for the other 8 girls and ofcourse JESSICA JUNG SOO YEON.

forever u will be always in my heart SICA ya.... shoot I really like u..  hahahha... i never admit it to anyone.. even my bestfriends but really.. I really like u more than Ppani... sstt... dont tell her... i never want to let u take no.1 place completely cause I dont want to admit that I'm more to u than her.. wakakakka... ya sudah lah ya.. cuma 1 sih... pls dont date that forehead.. seriously.... -_-" 

INDESTRUCTIBLE... UNBREAKABLE.... FOREVER GIRLS' GENERATION....

**did I just really wrote all of that?? my mind is goin crazy because all of this... damnnn!!!! seriously Shane... who do u think u are????*****