Of Faces, Facades, and Fears
- Faces, facades, fears -
Life is busy, but that's alright
Life's a struggle, it's a fight
To do the things that you deem right
So with a smile, you'll sleep at night
Hello everyone! So, poem from the top of my head (lol I wanted an intro). So I've been busy, with school and my stories and CKND, a poster and trailer shop that I started with my friend, and I'm taking a quick break to talk to all of you a little bit about faces, facades, and fears (you don't say dukkuu).
Personally, I set a facade towards most people I talk to. To most, it's my happy-go-lucky side that people think consume my whole existence. To others, it's a cold shoulder that I often switch with that happy-go-lucky side that they think they're familiar with. Honestly, both are the facades I set the most to other people, and they're both real, to a certain extent. There's then the side of my that only a few people are familiar with, specifically the people I'm close with. They see my side that nostalgic and (not necesarilly dark), em, for lack of better word, empty?
Really, there are so many emotions that I hide from the people who know me in reality. And it's all because I fear their judgment and shunment. I know that it's quite silly, because the people who matter don't mind and the people who mind don't matter (go Dr. Seuss!) but it's still a thought that lingers at the back of my head. So I choose to write down my feelings in a notebook that I've had for the last year and to express it through the graphics I make and the fanfiction I write (which is why I really enjoy doing angst-centered, fantasy-centered, and genres that go around those two). Having an emotional output like that is honestly really calming, and it's something I recommend a lot.
Another comfort I find for myself, strangely enough, is sharing my emotions and thoughts with strangers, because though I have the fear of being judged, it's a bit more comforting to know that the strangers who I talk to online are usually more accepting, or they wouldn't talk to me at all, because those conversations are usually blooming from common interest. It doesn't mean that I reveal everything to them, but they see a side of me that not many others do.
To often I let fear dictate my life, and that's something that I would really like to change.
Back to the main point of my blog, though. How do you guys face your fears? Not necessarily physical fears, but mental and emotional ones. I would really like to hear you guys out, express your thoughts freely.
Another question, how do you guys express your anguish or your other hidden emotions? Who knows, we might relate and that'll be good.
*psst, I'm in no way trying to ba a theraphist, I just enjoy listening to other people*
So, that's been dukkuu today. Please comment answers ^^
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