Been quite a while guys!

Dukkuu is really tired today, but I need to find a way to stay awake until my partner finishes his part of the homewrook that we were assigned. So, I've had about 1 month of school and I guess it was more or less okay. The new kids are nice, I missed my friends during the holidays, a lot of funny moments, I exploded once, but other than that school's been going pretty well. Except I almost always fall asleep every Monday. Life with only about 4-5 hours of sleep a day for a month, I know it's bad for me but I just can't sleep anymore than that.

I've been trying to keep my self busy a lot, if not through writing than through graphic designing. My friend and I started CKND (a graphic and trailer request shop) so that's been new a fun. School hasn't been killing me too much (except for math. I love math but it's killing me). Basketball has been killing me, my first matches of the season were both on the same day and I still have blisters on my feet from the games. My body's tired, my legs hurt, and I always feel like sleeping, but I try to fight it.

On the other hand, I really just wanted to talk to you guys about how fanfiction is usefull in school, no matter whoever tells you otherwise. Reading and writing the right fanfiction will often help you in times of crisis when it comes to analizing and creating imigary. For example, for my Bahasa Indonesia (yes I'm Indonesian and proud) test it was a written test on a chapter analysis, and the last question asked us to voice out our appreciations towards the author (which was quite difficult seeing that neitheir I nor much of my friends enjoyed the book we were assigned). So I talked about how I appreciate the rawness of life that the author portrays in the book, how nothing lasts forever and beautiful things also rot away.

Here's an excerpt from my answer (translated to english):
- his words tell people of the reality of life and human nature. There will come a time when all beautiful flowers will wither, and sometiems the stars in teh sky will be hidden by clouds. Likewise, this chapter illustrates the concept that not many beautiful things can last forever if not fought for, and the brightest things, too, can be overwhelmed by darkness. Reality isn't something that's easy to discuss, and I give my appreciation towards the author for taking this topic and highlighting life's true reality

If not for fanfiction and my constat habit to write ever since I started writing fanfiction, that short segment wouldn't have ever been written down and shared to others, let alone as an answer to a test. A lot of people think is really bad, and that it "ruins" your ability to speak properly and that nothing "good" ever comes out from it, when really it's the opposite. I know that the short excerpt I shared with you isn't at all that impressive, but it's proof that something can indeed surmount from fanfiction.

Moving on, secrets and sanctuaries. My words and my art are my secrets, and the sanctuary where I live and breathe. There are a lot of things that I reveal through my words and poems (the ones I keep to my self), and unless you read them carefully you might not realize what's hidden between the lines. I personally think that every person should have a way of vaguely expressing their secrets; it helps a lot. The excerpt that I shared with you guys above is, in itself, a not-so-secretive-secret. Meaning everyone knows it to an extent, but the people who know me in real life often do not realize that's how I view the world. My words are my sanctuaries where I share my feelings and emotions, and my personal view of the worlds, as well as scenarios that I either dream of or have nightmares of.

A sanctuary is also something I deem really important to any person, whether it be a concrete or abstract sanctuary. I have both, to be honest, the abstract one being my words and my art and the concrete one being my room, where I could literally lay on my back for hours (on the floor or on my bed) and simple reflect on life, writing down things on my poetry/words notebook that I bring with me anywhere. It's nice to have a sanctuary where you can clear out your thoughts.

To end on a happier note, what else have you guys learned from fanfiction?
What's your way of subtly and vaguel uncovering personal secrets?
Do you guys have a concrete or abstract sanctuary?

This is dukkuu, and I know this is a really long blog posts but I hope to hear your answers ^^