Yes, I don't know what tittle I should put here. It's been long time since my last update right, I know, for sure, because I planned to not making update anymore, to decline all my promise, to leave. Indeed I had planned it since I deactivated my account 2 months ago. The reason of my comeback was Eunji's birthday project a month ago. Thus I said to my bestfriend, Ena (Muchlovegyuji), that I was planning to leave aff before I updated my One Shot Parade.

I said this plan to some of my friends too and it was funny that Lil (kksuperman) the first one whom I shared this plan had left aff first and being on long hiatus. Then, I guess you have read Ena announcement today. And, she has decided to leave too.

I understand. Yes I understand any of their reasons because I have my own too. I respect them.

Being a writer is not an easy task. What I said here is being a true writer, a writer who does love not only kpop, ship, idol, but also love writing itself. Without us noticing being writer demands so much attentions. And this which somehow has power to make us forget some things in our live. In my case, maybe you didn't realize such thing existed but I am indeed addicted on writing. And I somehow grow as anti social girl who gradually lost friend, not that I don't want to be friend with my real live friend anymore, no, but writing indeed demanded my time as human being. I was too immersed in this world when in reality I have a real live that I should handle. I admit it.

And one day, I realized that I have to choose, I have to decide. And I need my live back.

And through this post I have to tell you that I'm also leaving. I won't deactivate my account right away, but I will do it in time being.

Thus I want to say sorry for not finishing Shield, for starting Pretense, for telling you about my Interview Post. I am sorry, I won't update it, I cannot. I am sorry. I am sorry for you who always support me, who give visit to my story, who chat with me, who randomly shout in excitement with me, who truly understand me. I am sorry for disappointing you. I am sorry.

Even though I am not around, I wish you will remember me as one of Eunji's fanfic writer. And I wish I can comeback someday when I can eventually manage my live.

I genuinely apologize to all of you, and thank you, I sincerely thank you for being my friend, I can never be bluesjuice without you. Thank you.

Best regard, bluesjuice

( @ItsBluesJuice)