I remember watching Ladies' Code MV for Hate You. My head cleared of every thought and I was instantly soothed by the calm voices singing through my ear phones. I had a couple laughs at the music video despite the dark mood it gave off. I smiled at their Pretty Pretty MV because it was so bright and the song was so cute.

I hadn't watched them since.

One person on twitter had tweeted, "Omg... EunB.."

Confused because of the familiar name, I slowly saw one by one, each person on my twitter feed tweeting about this girl named EunB. 

I suddenly saw the tweet, "#RipEunB" Then I realized it was Ladies' Code EunB. Soon enough, every one of my tweets were along the line of "Omg, EunB is really gone."

Quickly, I did my researched and realized there was a horrific car accident with a the girl group Ladies' Code.. And that EunB had died on impact along with the driver.

I didn't believe it, I couldn't believe it, I wouldn't. EunB was (is) an entertainer, a KPOP idol, and the thought of death had never crossed my mind. Idols and death just don't fit together in my brain.

Of course, I refused to believe it at first. I was gonna wait for an official statement.

An official statement came out.

She really died, she's gone.

And to make it even better, two other members were sent to the hospital in critical condition. Sojung and Rise. I was up very late that night, staying up to date with everything that was happening with Sojung and Rise.

When it was said Sojung's surgery had completed and she was in stable condition, it felt like I could finally breathe. Sojung was going to be okay.

And after nine hours, it was spread around that Rise's surgery was complete as well. I went to sleep after that thinking "They're going to be okay."

It was a lie.

I woke up and saw that Rise's surgery had not been successful. They had to stop her surgery because her brain was swelling too much and her blood pressure was too low. My heart had broken so many times.

I went to school that day which didn't make it any better. I tried so hard not to think of the girls but everytime they popped into my mind I would tear up. I reminded myself they were strong girls and they could pull through, but my heart hurt.

It was said that even if Rise was to pull through, she would go into a vegetative state, meaning she would be alive, but not responsive. I figured that was better than nothing. I'd rather let her live than let her die, even if she isn't responsive.

So many people from all around the world, whether they liked kpop or not, prayed for the girls. Kpop idols went to EunB's wake and sent their condolences. It was amazing to see all the support for Ladies' Code.

As of now, Sojung is awake and talking. She apologized for not being able to continue her schedules. 

Rise is still not awake.

Please, keep Rise in your thoughts and prayers. She's a tough girl.

I'm sorry I wrote so much about this. My emotions were building up over the last couple days and I really need a way to let it out.

Please pray for Ladies' Code.