(it's still 2015 for me at the time that i am writing this but i know that it's already 2016 for most of my readers!)

hello to all of ur beautiful faces!! how are you? good? good! it's 2016!! wowza! 2015 flew by so quick i don't even remember much of what happened during that year. i hope everyone's year was good ! and if it wasn't, i hope that this year is better! whatever you're going through now will pass as time goes on and you will become happier in the future - no matter how difficult it is to imagine, it will happen eventually! sadness is needed for you to recognize the happy times. :) (thanks, bob ross).

this whole blog post will just be me ranting/venting about my year and it's more for my own benefit (i need to get this out SOMEHOW) but wow aren't you lucky you get to read this! you can click off at anytime or you can stay and read the whole thing for the fun of it i really don't care :p

i started my first year at high school this year! it has been pretty fun so far! my family situation has slowly been improving which is always a plus! i've noticed a change in myself that is for the better. i've become more social and more open with those around me. i'm not afraid to compliment people anymore and i don't blush nearly as much as i used to. (i'd literally blush every time i spoke it was so bad) and i also took up a new sport!

i started track this year which is so new to me because i've only ever REALLY done basketball. (swimming and volleyball weren't as serious to me). the season has only just begun and it's been pretty fun. it allows me to have a distraction whenever my family situation plummets for some reason. it's pretty tiring, though. BUT IT'S FUN! i wouldn't say i gained friends from it but i've met some pretty cool people! 

but back to school, my freshman year has been pretty ordinary. nothing too special. i'm friends with a few upper classmen which is cool - they talk a lot to me about what it's like in the upper grades and what i should expect. speaking of friends, i've lost contact with lots of people but i've improved friendships with lots of people as well! i've never really been into the whole 'hanging out' thing but recently i've been loving it. my friends can be a handful at times but i'm thankful to have them.

they'll never read this blog post and that is exactly why i'm going to write about them here. 

B: thank you so much for being your silly self. you can be too much at times - you take your jokes too far - but you always listen to me when i tell you to stop because it makes me uncomfortable. and you always apologize (even though you do it again and again) you're improving on that so .. thank you. and thank you for listening to me during music technology as i rant on and on about my family (even if the teacher yells at you for switching your seat to get next to mine) and for letting me hug you whenever i need it. thanks for letting me hold ur arm in the halls whenever i get cold. thanks for listening to kpop with me even if you might not enjoy it. thanks for being there and comforting me when i need it.

M: ah you big bear! you're so funny your dark humor is hilarious. thanks for hugging me out of the blue in the hallways and thanks for teasing me playfully. thanks for being the big dude in our friend group that acts like a tough dude but is no where near being a tough dude. thanks for being the one person who is able to hug everyone in the group hugs at once with your long arms. you're a smart dude and i know you'll go far in life

T: hey whattup, c?! you're dating the girl i've called my bestfriend since second grade so if you break her heart, i'll break you. jk. you're as much as my friend as she is and i don't want either of you getting hurt. we were never really that close but since freshman year started we've only been getting closer and closer. that you  quit track, though! we were track buddies for one week before you got injured and quit T.T it was fun getting out of practice with you and struggling to walk down the stairs bc our legs hurt so much. texting you is fun, too! you text exactly how you type esp with all the emojis. it's pretty cute LOL. you say that you might go to a different high school and i really don't want you to, but if you decide that you are going to, i wish you the best! (just don't forget about me D:)

Girls: ahhhh i'm putting all of you into this one group because i have the same thing to say to all of you. thanks for not excluding me much despite my lack of girliness! you're all such amazing and nice people and i'm really glad to be friends with you all.  i really don't know what to say D: S, thanks for making history class fun with me even though it's literally the most boring class EVER. we always find a way to laugh during that class - even during tests! C, thanks for being there for me all the time! we've known each other for so long! (since second grade!) and even if we don't talk for a while, i know that you're always there for me and that i can always text you and we can pick up right where we left off. B, sometimes you can be a little ehhh but you're so nice and caring thank you for being you. O, thank you for being the person i can talk to and fangirl to whenever something kpop-related happens. N, we were once basketball-buddies. i don't know if you really still consider us friends because we aren't that close anymore (we never really were) but thank you for making me laugh lots that one day. T, you said that i was a combination of all of your friends and that's why you liked me so much. thanks, i guess?! thanks for making me ramen that day i came over. and thanks for DOING MY HAIR EVEN THOUGH I DIDN'T ASK FOR YOU TO. (it's fine. it made you happy when you saw the outcome so i ALLOWED it to happen.) and thanks for making me laugh so much because you were so scared of the movie (even though it wasn't that scary.) thanks for always greeting me before i have to go to spanish class (senora even allows me to run out the classroom to say hi to you LOL) but all you girls are so amazing i'm so glad to have met all of you, even if i didn't meet you just this year. thank you.

and to the others that i didn't mention, i appreciate you just as much. you all have made me into the person that i am today and i'm quite satisfied (even if there are moments where i'm super :((( about being me). 

i feel much better now. i didn't really have anywhere to get that out but PHEW. there! it's done! 2016 is here, everyone! make the best out of this year because this year is only gonna happen once!

i do intend on continuing to write but only when i really feel inspired. (which is usually only when i'm in bad moods!) but i shall post a blog post every now and then to talk to you all and catch up with everybody because i do care for you all! all 9k of my unique subscribers and all 1k of my friends on aff! you're all so special and so amazing in your own ways don't you forget it! now i'm not always active on aff (as most of you already know) but i will link below some social media of mine that i am active on!

here's to 2016!

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