I seriously do not know what I am doing with my life right now.

Its about to be my second week in school and I can already tell that I am going to struggle hardcore. 

I feel like I am just lacking motivation for everything

Including my stories.

I want to like go out and have adventures and do things like normal 20 year olds. 

I feel like I am trapped in a cage with a door that is wide open, but I am just not taking a risk.

All I feel like doing is to stay in my room forever and just read or sleep.

My heart feels burdened.

My brain is overloading.

My stomach is aching

I know I said in my other blog that I want to be so freaking busy that its not even funny

but now

I dont even know what happened.

I feel like I just need to take a trip to a mountain or something and just stay by a tree and re-evaluate my life.

I'm sorry that I sound super depressing, but I need my dongsaengs (YOU) to... I dont know... give me some ideas or tips on how I can cure this little depressed/unmotivated state I am in because its getting very annoying.

So... I guess until I get motivated again, Im going on hiatus.

~Andy.