You do this...and you expect that?

You Ridicule My Looks
You Ridicule My Weight
You Ridicule My Friends
You Ridicule My Taste In Music
You Ridicule What Makes Me Smile - While I'm Still Smiling Because Of It
You Insult What I Like
You Don't Try To Understand Me
You Always Put Him and Her Before Me - To The Point Where I Actually Noticed My Own Mother Favours THEM More Than She Ever Will Me
You Always Ignore Me - Unless You Want Something
I Complain About A Headache And You Ignore It
You Keep Doing It Even Though I Say No
You Tell Me 'Change This And You'll Be Pretty'
You Offered To Pay For Plastic Surgery To Make Me 'Beautiful'
You Keep Me Trapped In This House Then Make Me Feel Like It's My Fault
You Tell Me 'Do What I Want' Then Tell Me 'You Can't Do That'
I Got Yelled At By The Man You Married and You Ignored It
I Honestly Feel As Though I Can't Do Anything Right Whenever I'm Near You
Your Own Mother Says "The Way I Look Is Scary" "The Way I Speak Is Bad" "The Way She Acts Is Strange" And You Scold Me Without Hearing My Side Thinking I Was At Fault
You Tell Me I Need To Change
You And The Man You Married Always Told Me "Don't Cry" As A Child And Now, I Can't Show You My Tears Without Feeling Ashamed
And If I Do Show Them To You, I Feel Small And Insignificant, And You Just Smile While Saying "It's OK To Cry"
I Tell You I Like This, I Don't Like That, and You Still Give Me That
You Tell Me 'Don't Pressure Yourself In School' Then Ask Me To Keep A 4.0 GPA With The 'Or Else' Practically Hanging In The Air
I Liked Him, You Were Wary Of Him. I Loved Him, You Tried To Ignore Him. He Put An Honest Smile On My Face, And You Looked At It Strangely

You Did All This. I Feel As If I Can't Say Anything, Knowing It'll Hurt You Even Though It Was All Obvious. I Can't Tell You Knowing If It DOES Hurt You, The Man You Married Will Be Angry And Yell At Me. I Can't Tell You, Because I'm Afraid Of Just What He'll Do To Me. I Can't Tell You, Because I Already Know The Answer. I Can't Tell You, Because I Already Know No One Will Be On My Side. I Can't Tell You, Because No One Seems To Be Able To See My Side

And You Still Wonder Why I Can't Seem To Greet You With A Smile, Accept "Your Love", And Always Want To Be Alone?

 

I'm Thankful. For Everything You've Ever Given Me. But At The End...I Can't Wait For The DaY I'll Finally Be Away From All This.

 

Thanks. Mother

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PipTheTerror #1
Having a healthy relationship with the woman who bore and raised you is never as easy as it should be.
I grew up with an emotionally detached mother that I could never please and trying to bend over backwards to change the way she saw me only made me stretch myself to my breaking point. I would hate for the same to happen to you.
I think you can draw tremendous encouragement from the fact that you know precisely where you find happiness, even (maybe even especially) when your mother doesn't agree with it. You can't live your whole life to make someone else happy. Honestly, a lot of the time getting away from a stressful relationship with a loved one is the one of the best ways of getting closure and moving forward. I'm glad you look forward to your independence, dude :)
Stay strong. I'm sorry that things are hard for you, and I can't promise that they'll get better any time soon. But you have to believe that it will anyway. you can get through this \o/ Put your trust in those worthy of it, and find solace in the fact that if all else fails you will always be strong enough to pick yourself up when no one else offers you a hand.
That being said, you have someone special that you can cling to for support. Don't be afraid to lean on the people you love ;)

- PiP.
Vampires2Rocks #2
You're stronger than it seems. You went through all this, and you're still fine.

Though the way you write makes much more sense now. You wanted to escape, huh?

At the end, just know HE will always be with you, ne? I can't say anything more than this.

I'm Sorry. I wish I could do more.

~Z
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