Regarding the previous post - I just had a mood change. Well, I've been laying in my bed all day, sobbing, listening to sad music and now I came to the conclusion why I'm the only one who's so upset about this.

My mother for example is for some reason extremely optimistic and wants me to become actress or such and that's really unrealistic if you'd ask me. My dad doesn't really seem to give s by now, but I'm certain that'll change by the next few days.

But as for me, I'm sooo dispirited and sad. Like, it's one of those decisions you're either thankful for later on, or you'll hate yourself forever for making it. It's really tiring to think of it and it's also kinda hard to distract myself if everyone keeps reminding me that 'It's not my fault' and that 'Things get better'. I'd say that things couldn't get worse right now, but that would be a challenge for life to proof me wrong and I don't want to take that risk. 

But seriously though, what's wrong with me? I hated school and now I'm depressed because I'm going to leave it. I literally fought for not having to go to school and now look at me crying over the fact that I'll forever have to stay out. 

It basically feels like falling down and you don't know weather there's going to be a cosy pile of pillows to catch you up or the hard concrete floor. Wow that's deeeeep . Or so.

Well, I'm really sorry for the person who actually read this, so please accept my excuse and have a nice day.

Byeeeeee