So literally today was one of the worst days in my life. I had this whole summer to study for an exam that decides over my future, and I did - it ruined my entire summer! Every week I would punish myself with more studying if I assumed I didn't study enough the previous days and it was HELL.

DAMN YOU MATHS!

Oh, and guess what. Today I had oral and writing exam and guess something else. I MESSED BOTH UP. I STUTTERED LIKE HELL AND MY HANDS WERE SHAKING AND I JUST FORGOT EVERYTHING I'VE EVER KNOWN ABOUT MATHEMATICS AND MORE ASDASFASFKFSDFJASGF.

Ugh.

And then I came home, wrapped myself up in my blanket and cried. Like, do you know how rarely I cry? I DIDN'T EVEN CRY WHEN MY CAT FELL FROM THE 6TH FLOOR! Doesn't mean I'm heartless though, I'm sad, I just don't cry.

BUT TODAY ALL THE RULES GOT BROKEN AND IT WAS HORRIFYING! I felt like my entire world crashed down at once. Do I even have a future now? What do I do now that I lost all hope in myself. AH IT MAKES ME WANT TO CRY EVEN MORE.

I guess I'll just let out the anger on something like writing. Uhm, like I'm doing right now, I guess. Just a bit more useful.

Byeeeeee